Love without colour

I remember being here

Oswaldo's P.O.V

It's been four weeks and I haven't spoken to Melody. She refused to talk me and her parents were happy to tell me to take a hike. I didn't understand them, they knew we have a child together, but they were unwilling to let me see her. I got the feeling that they didn't want her to ever remember me. They kept telling me that maybe it was for the best that she doesn't remember. According to her mother, she was too young to have a child.

I got the distinct feeling that they were telling me to take my kid and leave their daughter alone. They haven't even asked to see Megan since Melody left the hospital, the only person who regularly came to see her was Harmony. She was eight months and she hasn't even met her mother, how messed up was that?

"I'll have her back to you in the morning. This way you can finally have a good night rest."

Harmony strapped Megan's car seat in the car. She was making cooing noise and chewing on her teething ring. For one week it was none stop crying with her, I couldn't get her to sleep at night and during the day was not much better. I finally relented and took her to the paediatrician, who told me that she was teething and also had colic. I was given some medication for her that eased her crying and offer her a couple hours of sleep.

I was dead on my feet and running on pure will-power, so Harmony offer to keep her for the night so that I'll get some much-needed sleep. I was happy for the offer, but it was also going to be hard to not have her with me. She was so much a part of me that I couldn't imagine my life without her. I knew if Melody saw her she'd love her, but I didn't want to think about that. Maybe after a full night of uninterrupted sleep, I'll start worried about the mother of my child.

"She needs a warm bottle about an hour before she goes to bed at night and you need to rock her while singing her favourite lullaby."

Harmony rolled her eyes at me but smiled lovingly.

"I've got this, don't worry, Liam and her will have a wonderful time together."

I nodded, but my heart felt heavy. Harmony finished strapping Megan in the car then she closed the door. I wanted to kiss her goodbye one more time, but I knew that I wouldn't be able to let her go if I did. Harmony came over to me and pulled me into a hug.

"Stop worrying, she's going to be fine. I'll have her back first thing in the morning, I promise."

I hugged her back and nodded. I watched as she drove off with my daughter, and I felt like she drove off with a piece of my soul. I stood and watch the car until it disappear from view then I turned and walked back into the house. The house felt cold and empty and I felt utterly alone. I almost called Harmony and asked her to turn the car back around and bring back Megan, but I thought better of it.

I was too tired to make anything to eat, so I forwent dinner and headed up to my bed. My bed was like a welcoming lover and I threw myself on it, I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, but I couldn't. I tossed and turned for a good few minutes, but as tired as I was sleep still evaded me.

Groaning, I pushed myself off of the bed and walked out of my room and into Megan's. I had the guest room closest to mine converted into a nursery. The walls were a pale pink with tiny butterflies running along the middle as a border. Her white crib sat in the middle of the room with a white rocking chair next to it.

There was a white chest of draws and wardrobe set just beyond the crib, to the far right of the room. On the chest of draws held a picture of Melody smiling. I remember taking it, she looked so beautiful and happy. It's hard to believe that the girl in that picture is no more. And from the looks of it, I might never get to ever see her again.