Writing with a Purpose: Summer Edition

26. 7/31/15 - CONT

My poor mother's birthday was ruined. I feel so bad. I'm honestly too emotionally exhausted to write the whole story about today but I will say that one thing that did make me feel bad the most was my mom almost crying cause she misses all our family all the way in New York. I'm almost cried at the thought too. If you really think about it, We're alone here in Georgia. Of course I have my horrible aunt from my dad's side but we don't like to be around her too much. So aside from that, we're alone. ALL of our family is New York. So many Christmas's and birthdays have went by and all we really have to celebrate with is friends that have we've grown so close to over so many years that we basically call them family. But that's besides the point, even with them, we aren't always together. When we still lived in New York, we were ALWAYS with our family. Always together and laughing and eating and dancing and walking the streets. I remember a lot of my family over at my Titi Cindy's apartment and my cousins and I eating chinese food that we ordered, which was fried rice, chicken wings, and tostones. It was so fun cause we were never alone. Christmas is so boring now. Birthdays kind of feel like something's missing. Thanksgiving is pretty lame too. I wish all my family would move here so we could be together again. I remember when we first moved to Georgia, I was a depressed little kid. I missed my family so much and I was alone all the time and I hated Georgia so much. Ive gotten used to not being around them a lot but times like this, thinking about it really hurts. I was so close with them. Now sometimes when we go back, it's weird because we've all grown and we've missed so much and we're all different now. It still affects me ya know cause I don't have anyone. I just wanna feel that closeness and that connection and that happiness again. I felt that when we went back last year more than ever. And it's made me long to see them all again even more. Missing someone or many people, hurts so much. From being together everyday to nowhere near each other for years ... it's heartbreaking and you can't help but cry sometimes. But that's enough, my head hurts.