A World Like This [1]

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Edited 12/30/16

Everything happened so fast. One second everything is perfect and now it's just gone. It's all gone. Everyone I grew close to, everyone that became my family is gone. Getting close to people is one of the worst things you can do nowadays. I miss them, I miss Dad. I miss Beth and Maggie. I miss Glenn and Hershel, I miss them all.

What are the chances they're alive? I don't even want to know. I want to believe they all got out of the prison and they're all safe but I don't know for sure. We should have had a plan in case all this happened. We had the buses in case it did but we never discussed about a meeting place, that was our mistake.

The one thought I can't keep out of my head is Judith. What would she have been like when she's my age? Why didn't I save her? She's dead and It's my fault. They know it too, Carl and Rick, they had to. I should have gotten her to the bus myself, I should have kept her with me. I was supposed to get everyone to the bus, make sure they were all safe. I had a job to do and I failed them.

Carl walked farther ahead of me and Rick. He was hurting I get that. Rick had his arm around my shoulder and mine was around his waist, helping him so he could walk. We needed to find somewhere where we could take care of his injuries.

"Carl, Slow down. Carl, stop! We need to stay together." Carl stopped walking and just stood there as Rick and I caught up to him. "We need to find a place with food, supplies. Hey. We're gonna be..." Rick stopped mid-sentence and stared at Carl. Carl was beyond annoyed, I could tell. His eyes weren't his usual shade of blue, they were much darker. He didn't attempt to hide any of his emotions in his eyes. He was livid and he was sad. He walked away from us yet again.

"Come on Carl, slow down a little." I called. He didn't slow down though, he just kept walking faster. "I'm sorry." I told Rick.

"Why?" He slurred.

"I should have taken her with me, I should have-"

"Ava, this isn't your fault." Rick told me. I didn't respond I just kept walking. This is my fault, it's all my fault I should have done more. I should have walked the kids to the bus, they'd be fine, Judith would be fine. I don't even know if Lizzie and Mika are okay.

We came across a restaurant and we began to walk up to it, Carl was too far ahead of us. We finally made it to the door. Rick opened it and looked at me and Carl.

"Wait outside, okay? keep watch." Rick told us.

"You keep watch. You can barely stand. I'm not gonna let you go in there alone." Carl told Rick, getting upset. He was right Rick should stay out here. If there is trouble he'll barely be able to fight any walkers off.

"Excuse me?"

We've done this before. Ava and I can do it ourselves."

"Carl stop." I said. He looked at me and gave me a nasty look before walking into the restaurant. I followed close behind him and Rick tried to follow behind me. "Rick just stay here, we'll be fine. I'll make sure Carl's okay." I told him. He looked hesitant but stayed outside.

Carl and I looked around. We didn't say a word. There was a bunch of chairs piled on top of each other and we heard a growl of a walker. The walker stepped out of the back room and walked over to us.

"I can get it from here." Carl said pointing his gun at it.

"No, don't waste your bullets." I told him before shooting the walker in the head with my crossbow. Carl picked up a piece of paper and handed it to me.

"Look." I looked down at the paper and read 'Please do what I couldn't ~Joe Jr'

"Come on." I said. I began to pull the chairs down so we could get the food that was possibly behind the fortress the man created with chairs. Carl started grabbing a bunch of chips and stuffing it in his bag. I walked over to the kitchen and found a few bottles of water.