A World Like This [1]

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Edited 1/14/17

Carl and I sat on the roof for a little while just watching the world around us. It's such a shame, this world would have been so pretty, it was so pretty. The one question that continued to play through my mind since the beginning was, why? Why would God do this if he created this world? Why bother creating life if you're just going to destroy it? Or maybe this was some freak accident and It was out of his control. Maybe God didn't even exist. Perhaps it was foolish to believe in God when people are being killed every single day, being torn apart viciously.

"You know I never asked, how'd you lose your shoe?" I asked breaking the silence between Carl and I. I watched as Carl avoided making eye contact with me. I rose my eyebrows, suddenly becoming concerned. "Carl, what happened?" I asked him. Again, he didn't answer my question and I was ignored.

"You want to go back inside?" Carl asked.

"What happened when you were out there?"

"Ava, it's nothing. You don't need to worry about it." Carl told me. He was still avoiding my eyes. which was truly killing me. He could have been killed. A walker could have taken his leg, could have torn him to pieces. He could be dead right now and it would have been my fault.

"How many were there?" I asked him. He looked back at me this time. I stared into those perfect blue eyes, awaiting the answer to come from his mouth.

"It was only one. It got my shoe, but it didn't get me." He told me with a smile on his face, I could tell it was forced though. If he died it would have been my fault. I'm such an idiot.

"I'm so sorry Carl." I told him before throwing my arms around his neck, pulling him closer to me for a hug. Carl rubbed my back gently.

"It's okay." He said before kissing my head. "Now come on let's go inside." I got up and so did he. We walked to the window and Carl climbed through. I climbed in after him. Carl held out his hand for me and helped me through the small bathroom window. When I was inside he didn't let go of my hand he just walked slightly in front of me as we walked down the steps.

Carl and I sat on the couch in the living room. We could both see Rick from here, he still hadn't woken up which worries me. Carl already lost his sister, he doesn't need to lose his dad too. I put my arms around Carl, never wanting to let him go. His arms wrapped around me as well making a smile form on my face.

Carl and I talked until It got dark. We didn't talk about much just about our lives before the apocalypse. I didn't talk about the bad stuff, just the few good memories that I remember from my mom and brothers.

"You sure you don't want to sleep upstairs?" I asked Carl.

"Nah, I'm gonna sleep down here incase dad wakes up. But you go ahead and sleep up there. I'll be good down here." He told me.

"Oh nonsense, I'll sleep down here with you two." I told him. Carl smiled in return. I ran quickly upstairs and grabbed two pillows off the boy's bed. When I got downstairs I tossed one to Carl.

"Thanks." I smiled at Carl. I don't know what I'd do without him. It was a bit weird actually, Carl was letting me be on my own but for some reason I didn't want to leave him. I had this weird thing before about not getting attached to people nowadays but then I met my group. Family is important, that's what they taught me. They took me and Aiden in when most people would have killed us in this evil new world.

I laid down on the couch and Carl laid on the floor beside his dad. I worry for Rick and Carl. I hope Rick survives this. I don't know how to handle Carl if he doesn't. I frowned at the sight of Carl laying alone. I stood from the couch and threw my pillow on the floor beside Carl.