Gary and Libby - Take One

Chapter Twenty Five

I drop down onto the car seat. No. Oh shit no. This isnt happening. I pull the pill back out. Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday. FOUR DAYS?! Four days?! Ive forgotten to take my pill for four days?! Shit. Oh my god. No. This isnt happening. Libby, your a fucking dick head Libby. Fuck.
I cant move, my mouth is dry. I feel dizzy, i think im going to pass out. Im going to pass out. Oh shit, im going to pass out. I place my hands on the dash board to steady myself and close my eyes for a second. Its Okay, you might not even be pregnant. It takes more than missing four days right? I pull my compact mirror back out of my bag and open it. Im as white as a sheet, evidently i look as bad as i feel. Then the thought occurs to me.
Ive got to go back in there, back into that house where Gary Barlow is. I cant tell him! Ill have to just pretend nothings happened. You look like you've seen a ghost. He's not stupid Libby. But its the only thing i can do. After a deep breath, a stand up, steadying myself before shutting the car door and locking it. I sling my bag over my shoulder and do my best to walk back up to the house. I need a drink- to sort myself out. No, shit, Garys in the kitchen.
"You got i-are you okay?" Gary repairs his sentence as he sees me walk in.
"Fine Babe." Im amazed at how 'fine' i manage to make myself sound.
"Are you sure?" He walks over to me, his brow furrowed with concern. He takes my hand and sits me down on one of the stools.
"Yea im fine Gary." I give him my best attempt at a smile and wrack my brain for an excuse. "Im just hungry, staving actually." Yes! Good one Lib.
"Do you want something now then?" Gary smiles, relaxing a little. "Then we'll go and see your Dad after that?"
I nod eagerly as he pulls some chilled pasta out of the fridge and begins to heat it up.
"Actually- no, err- no it dont matter." Gary dismisses whatever he was going to say with a shake of the head.
"No, what?" I smile at him, welcoming the distraction.
"No it doesnt matter, i just though- no, its okay." He smiles.
"Eh, tell me baby." I grin over at him.
"I cant." He spins round so his face is inches from mine. "It'll spoil the surprise."
"Ah yes, the surprise. And when am i getting this 'suprise' may i ask."
"All in good time." Gary smirks, pushing a bowl of tomato pasta in front of me. "Now eat up, you look like you've seen a bloody ghost!"

***

Dads getting better, one day at a time kind of thing, little by little. All the doctors are happy, and thats kind of putting my mind at ease a little. Its a good job really, now ive got this other problem to deal with. This thing that could potentially be the worst things thats happened to me. Ever. This could ruin my life... I love Gary, so much. So, so much. I dont want to loose him. Ever.
Its been on my mind all evening. Its the only thing i can concentrate on. I think i know what ill do. Garys going to do some work again tomorrow morning so im going to go into town and get a test. I think. I dont know if ive thought the whole thing through properly, but i need to know. I cant stand not knowing, its killing me.

Gary pulls the car up on the road outside his house. I raise an eyebrow at him.
"Whats wrong with the drive?"
"Just stay here for a moment ye?" Gary smiles, his eyes are sparkling. Excitement? I give him a puzzled look but just lean back into the seat. Gary climbs out and half runs, half walks up the drive.
About five minuets later a tall woman with bleach blonde hair strolls off the drive, shes wearing a long sleeved black top and black leggings. What the fuck? Whats going on. She flashes me a warm smile when she sees me in the car, as she hops into some sort of audio and drives off.
Gary strolls back down the dive and smiles at me, beckoning me to get out. I do.
"What was that all about?" I ask cautiously, narrowing my eyes playfully at him.
"You'll see!" He grins, leading me back up to the house. "Patience is a virtue Love. Rome wasnt built in a day."
I roll my eyes him as he pushes me into the living room.
"Surprise." I hear him whisper behind my back as i tumble into the room. Oh my god.
My mouth is dry, im lost for words. "Wow." I push the word out. Its the only word i can think of. Wow.

I stare in awe for a few seconds at the stunning black evening dress hanging in front of me. Its beautiful, like nothing, nothing ive ever seen before. -Only in bridal shops, and ive excuse to be going into any of those!
"Oh my God." I mutter, taking a step towards the dress. "Gary its stunning."
"You like it?" I hear Gary breath a sigh of relief.
"Like it? Gary i love it! Its beautiful." I turn around to face him, hes beaming at me.
"So you'll wear it then?"
Now im confused. "Wear it where?" I ask.
"Ive got a big posh dinner party thing tomorrow..." Gary starts. "Will you come with me? As my date kind of thing? Will you wear the dress?"
"Oh Gary of course ill wear the dress!" I grin at him, slinging my arms around his neck. "Thank you." I whisper as i feel his arms snaking around my waist, pulling me closer towards him as my lips meet his. I kiss him, slowly with that gentle passion, trying to show him how much i love him. I stroke my fingers down through his hair. Gary pulls away slowly, holding me at arms Length.
"I thought black was a safe bet." He grins. "You look fucking sexy in black."
I smirk at him as i pull away and look back at the dress. It really is magnificent. It must have cost a bomb.

***

The next morning i wake up early. Too early. I feel sick, but i put it down to worry, i havent slept for more than about an hour at a time. Fuck. I just want to get this over with. Im not pregnant, i know im not pregnant, i just need to know for sure. Put my mind totally at rest. Im not pregnant. I cant be...can i?