Prologue
I've got excuses for all these things that I tried in my life
"You act like all of this is up to me, like I don't want to scream it from the rooftops that you're my boyfriend and that Elijah is my son. I want to claim you both more than anything, you f ucking know that... yet you sit here and blame me for shit I didn't even do. You're always telling me that I'm going to have to make a choice... and it's ridiculous that you think that I have to. I don't have to choose between you or the band... Because in the end, you know that I'd pick you and E.J. in a heart beat."
"Then why aren't you here? Why didn't you just stay?"
"Because you never let me."
