Again (Oikawa Tooru X Reader)

18) Family

You found a family here, did you not?

Your host family, your friends, your coaches even. You considered them as family but now, you felt disconnected from them. You considered yourself a forgiving person--or you used to. With your sister out of your life for good, and now Tooru, your tolerance had dropped. Maybe it was selfish, but you were starting to stop caring.

Tooru telling everyone but you took a toll on your relationships, not only with him but with all of those who knew. You found yourself gravitating toward Kageyama more than ever. He started visiting the store every shift you had, buying peanut m & m's for you and then leaving. It was nice to have a constant presence, and Tobio was always calm.

"Y/N.." A soft knock on your door makes you look up from your phone, recognizing the voice you sigh. "Come in."

Iwaizumi strides in, "Jesus it's hot in here." He fans himself, clearly uncomfortable while adorning a guilty look.

"Why're you here?"

He frowns, walking over to sit on the edge of the bed. "Y/N..we just wanted to check on you—"

"We?"

The door opens almost like it's planned, Makki and Matsunn entering. "Greetings."

You huff, inhaling deeply afterwards to keep your cool.

"Say your piece."

The three exchange weary expressions. "Look—we didn't want to hurt you or anything but Oikawa told us not to tell you. It wasn't our place." Makki starts.

You're quiet, waiting for them to continue.

"He's an asshole and an idiot and so selfish for fucking up your trust for everyone," Iwaizumi pauses, "But it happened and there's nothing we can do about it now."

"So please, hang out with us again. Come to summer workouts." Mattsun pleads.

"We miss our Y/N." Makki sticks out his lower lip, holding grabby hands out toward you.

With a deep inhale you nod, "I'll be at the workout on monday."

The silence rings throughout the room, clearly you're not in the mood to talk about it or him.

Makki frowns for real, "Y/N cmon—"

Matsunn grabs his arm snd shakes his head, pulling the boy out and leaving you and Iwa alone.

You drew a line, a thick one at that.

"I told him to tell you or i'd tell you..but I promised i'd let him tell you himself." Iwa rubs his eyes, "I didn't expect him to just leave you like that. With nothing."

He looks at your stoic face, your walls were back. No more carefree Y/N.

"I mean he could barely stand being away from you in Tokyo! I just don't get him sometimes." He stands, his fists clenched at his side.

"I'm sorry you have to be the one to suffer the most at his selfish, stupid, careless hands."

You stare at his face, nodding, "Thank you. I appreciate you and Makki and Matsunn coming here."

Short, sweet, guarded.

Shit fuck i'm losing her

"Just—Come by the restaurant tomorrow, my treat." You smile politely, shutting your eyes, "Thank you for the invite but I have plans already."

He frowns, "Okay, well if you're nearby come anyway. I'll be there the whole day..."

"Okay."

He resists the urge to groan and throw your stupid space heater into the wall, "Okay...Bye Y/N. See you soon."