No Control (Sequel to #AFAR)

11. Regrets

Prince's P.O.V.

I didn't think that Niyesha would actually go to Andrea's house. I didn't think she would try to beat her up. And from the pictures she sent me, Niyesha beat her up pretty badly.

It was like one in the morning so it had to be around four in the morning over in New York.

I couldn't sleep. All that was on my mind was guilt and regret. I was replaying the things I've done to hurt Niyesha and I couldn't help but beat myself mentally.

I laid down on the bed in the tourbus, looking up towards the ceiling.

Why did I do it? Why couldn't I stop myself? Why was I so selfish? Why didn't I think?

I couldn't answer the questiond and I shook my head frustrated that I couldn't.

I texted Niyesha again and even had the guts to call her. But of course she didn't answer. When I called her for the third time, it went straight to voicemail meaning she turned off her phone.

I sighed loudly and threw my phone on the bed across from me.

???: Prince?

I sat up and it was Ray at the door.

Prince: Yeah wassup?

He sat down in the bed across from me, and from the look on his face I knew he was gonna give me one of his speeches.

Ray: You're probably already beating yourself up for this. But I just gotta ask...Did you think this was gonna stay a secret?

I thought about it. Did I really? Did my dumb self actually believe she wouldn't find out?

Prince: Yeah...It wasn't suppose to go on for so long. That night...I was already a bit tipsy from the drink she gave me. And one thing led to another and we ended up having sex. After that she wouldn't stop bothering me. I tried to tell but she wouldn't listen...It was like I was trapped under her spell...I couldn't help myself...

Ray: You love her.

Prince: (Shakes his head.) No! I don't love her.

Ray: You can't be serious Jay! You know you do. Once you started talking with her again you realized that you missed her more than you wanted to. Your heart didn't learn the first time and apparently wants more of her bullshit. Niyesha cared for you. Stood up for her. Shit tried to save a relationship that was crumbling and you weren't doing anything to save it. I don't think you noticed how lucky you were when you had her. But now you are.

He got up and shook his head.

Ray: I'm just keeping it real. No one else wanted to come here and tell you. You still my boy, but Nini is like my sister.

He then left, leaving me alone in my thoughts and drowning in my regrets.

I laid back down and soon felt the tears rolling down my face.

All I wanted was Niyesha back...

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Wrote this chapter cause today I'm feeling regretful...you ever wish you said something to someone, and now that the time passed you just thinking of the possibe things you could've said?

Yeah...feeling like that right now and feeling pretty dumb.

Just had to vent that for a minute. Not gonna write everything but yeah. Thanks for listening. ✌