No Control (Sequel to #AFAR)

27. Mari

Marianna's P.O.V

I was excited for Boss and Mindless Behavior to come over to New Jersey. The fact that Lights noticed me and gave me front row seats at her show is one chance in a million. Lights said I could bring four people, but the only people I could think of was my older sister. But even then, she wouldn't want to come with me. She'll probably be too busy to hang out with me. I just hoped I could convince my father to let me go alone. Although I haven't seen him in awhile, and he always ran off without telling me. And if I was to ask where he was, he wouldn't answer me. It was always work that he had to do. It's a waste of time to spend my weekends with him, if he's gonna be away. But if I told my mother he wasn't caring for me, that would involve another court date and I hated the process, so I rather not say.

The people at school, the few I hang out because I'm pretty shy, wouldn't be able to come. Most likely have a party to attend. I've never been on the social scene, but I've dreamed of it. Coming with the most amazing style, and surprising everyone. Yet I can't express my style because I'm scared of being judged.

But when I go to the concert, being that I'm alone, I'm gonna express my style. I believe I have a style similar to Lights, but of course everyone's style is unique. Jeans and just a shirt, with a pair of sneakers isn't me. I like leggings, sweaters, boots, bleached shoes ... You get it.

Maybe with my unique style, I could get the attention of their choreographer. I really love to dance so maybe I could land a job rather than being a cashier at McDonalds.

But even then, that's a long shot. My father doesn't believe in my dream. He despises it. I don't think he has a reason. Every time I tell him I want to dance, he says it's not a real job and you can never become someone out of it. But I disagree with him. Look at Ciara. With a bit of vocal lessons, cause my voice isn't terrible, I could be the next Ciara. But he doesn't want to hear it.

And the worst of all, he hates the fact that I love Boss. He thinks they're stupid. So basically I'm hiding my love for them. If I was to tell him that I got tickets for their concert he would go crazy.

???: Marianna are you in your room?!

Well at least dad is home.

Marianna: I'm up here!

I turned on the TV on Cartoon Network and leaned back on my pillow. I heard him come up the stairs, and he stood at my doorway, smiling at me. I folded up the paper that Lights gave me, and held it in my fist tightly. I sat up on my bed.

Dad: What you're doing up here?

Marianna: Watching TV. I was waiting for you so I could eat.

He nodded, and then narrowed his eyes towards my fist.

Dad: What's in your fist?

I quickly shook my head.

Marianna: Nothing. Just something I was wiring.

He walked towards me, and I felt my hands getting sweaty. I let go of the note cause I didn't want it to get wet and the lettering isn't visible anymore. It fell on the ground and he picked it up.

He started to read it and I was prepared to be yelled at.

Dad: When did this happen?

Marianna: A few days ago at work. Dad I know you don't like them but...

Dad: You can go.

My eyes widen in disbelief. Was he actually gonna let me go?

Marianna: Really? But I thought...?

He smiled a bit, well more like a small smirk.

Dad: It's great for you to get out the house. You can take your friends. Meet new people. Maybe even become friends with Lights.

I smiled at the thought. Just imagine me ganging out with Boss. I was still surprised by the sudden affection and calmness, but i wasn't gonna let it slip away.

Dad: Plus you'll be with your mother tomorrow.

Marianna: But tomorrow is Sunday. I stay with you on Sundays.

Dad: Well boss called and said I needed to go on a business trip.

He kissed my forehead and handed me the note.

Dad: I'm going to sleep cause I'm very tired. I'll drop you off at your mom's place tomorrow morning.

I nodded and continued to watch TV. When he left, I decided to dial Jeimy, one of the few people I hang out with.

Jeimy: Hey Mari! What's up?

Marianna: Well I have tickets to this Boss concert and I need someone to go with. Think you can make it tomorrow?

Jeimy: Yeah I should be able to. What time?

Marianna: Be at my mom's house by 7.

Jeimy: Not with your dad tomorrow?

Marianna: Business trip. You know how it is.

She chuckled and we said goodbye. I hanged up and turned off the TV. It was only 9 at night, but I was pretty tired.

I wrapped myself in my blanket, and fell asleep dreaming about the tons of scenarios that could happen tomorrow.

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Doesn't Marianna remind you of the younger Niyesha and LeeLee? Ah them All For A Reason days.

Who do you think her Dad is?

Note: Can you believe Marianna is 19? I just put that in there. ☺ But yeah she is older, but her dad treats her like a baby.

What author would do that? .... (Sarcasm.)

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Peacee and Lovee,

Iesha

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