doing it wrong [completed]

1. Losing My Manly V With The Wrong G

Nagising ako sa narinig kong busina ng kotse sa labas.Isn't it too early sa pagdating nila dad? It's Monday morning. Sabi niya Wednesday raw ang dating nila from province.

"Declan? Come downstairs. Time for breakfast. You don't wanna be late for school."  Sigaw ni mama galing sa baba.

My name is Declan Andrew Potter. And I am a freaking loner. I was always the home-school-home-and-school kind of guy. I never went to parties, clubs, whatever. I have friends. Well if you count those na mga nakakausap ko sa lunch sa school canteen. Damn. Okay. I do not have that kind of friends to talk to, pero meron naman akong virtual friends. Or should I say, Internet friends. What I like about it is that you don't have to be a loser. You don't have to be yourself infront of the computer. You just need to type, and bam! You can be whomever you want to be.

Umupo na ako sa harap ng mesa at kumain. Habang si mama ay nakikipaghabulan sa rapist. She's always that kind of person na "runner" as I call it. Walang oras na hindi mo siya makikitang nagmamadali at tumatakbo kung saan-saan. She's always busy for work kasi.

"I hope that's enough, son. Got to go. Mwah! See you tonight." She placed 500 peso bill sa harap ko.

"Trust me, this is too much." Sagot ko sakanya pero hindi naman na siguro niya narinig dahil lumabas na siya ng bahay.

Minsan I ask myself if she really love me. Because she can't even take 5 seconds to look at me. To comment on what I wear, how I look or how old am I now. By the way, I'm 17. I bet she doesn't even know that. Silly. But to simplify it all, I just think I would be living all alone when the future comes. If I have those.

After I ate these damn pancakes and 'toasted' hotdogs, I put the plates on the sink, brushed my teeth, grabbed my bag at diretso nang lumabas ng bahay. See? I did not even think to wash my body. And I did not even bother to locked the door. I mean who would come in to this boring house? Not even the ones who live here wants to.

I was counting my steps from the door to the gate.
1...2.....3.....4!
I looked up and I saw her. Nakita ko siya. Siya! Oo siya nga. Kung totoo man ang anghel, sigurado akong isa siya sa mga ito. Who is this girl? She was walking into the door across our house. Papalingon na siya nang mapansin kong, parang... parang ambagal? Ito ba yung, 'Slow Motion' na tinatawag nila? Does this even possible? She met my eye. I met hers. Her brown eyes looked into my black ones. Yung buhok niyang parang brown, usual sand sa beach. Yung skin niyang maputi, she is glowing. Her lips, her red lips that make me wanna run across the street and put my lips on hers. Ano bang iniisip ko?! Hmm. Slow motion. Slow motion.

"Earth to declan!" Isang sigaw na narinig ko galing sa loob ng kotse sa harap ko. Si Nolan. Nabanggit ko na ba siya?

"Dude. You gotta stop drooling right now or we'll be late for school." Dagdag niya pa.

Si Nolan Rosslord, ang aking Personal School Service. I mean, he lives two blocks away from my house meaning school  is on this way. So one day he figured sabay nalang kami para naman may makausap siya on his way to school. Pero sa tingin ko wala siyang makakausap ngayong araw papunta sa school. I won't talk. Sumakay ako sa likod ng kotse niya. Tumingin ulit ako sa babaeng nakita ko kanina pero wala na siya. Sayang naman.

I hardly consider nolan as my friend, Since, last night? Kasi he keeps on pushing and daring me to lose my virginity. Kung meron man ako noon, kung icoconsider na ang lalaki ay meron din noon, masasabi kong "I'm still a virgin" kapag may nagtanong saakin.

"Dude, c'mon. You can't be serious, declan. Ga-graduate na tayo this year, you should really lose it, man." Sabi ni Nolan habang nagda-drive.

"Nolan, yung mga ganyang bagay, hindi minamadali. Okey?" Sagot ko naman sakaniya.