doing it wrong [completed]

8. A MONTH LATER

09: 12 A

It's been a fucking month but my bestfriend, Nolan Rosslord is still unconscious. Napagsasabay ko parin ang paglalaro sa game, at pagbabantay kay Nolan. As of now, i have 23 Victims. It's not too late. We still have 6 months before graduation. May pag-asa pa ako. Hindi naman namin pinapaalam ni Carlo sa isa't isa kung ilan na ba total ng Victims namin as of now. We want it to be a supise. Kapag nagkikita kami sa Hallway or sa labas we just nod at each other.

But fuck. I won't lose hope for Nolan. We won't. Last month hinanap ko si Emilia only to find out na lumipat na siya ng school and she shifted to America. Ganon nalang? Iniwan nalang niya si Nolan? Akala ko pa naman she was a good one. Hindi rin pala.

Everything that happened inside the whole month na tulog si Nolan was buzzkill. Well, except sa mga Victims ko. But i said i have to pull my shits together para kapag gumising siya, ready na siyang makipag-usap sakin. At ready narin akong makinig, no matter what.

"Pupunta ka ba kay Nolan after this?" A flash of martina's face dashed through my view.

"Yea. Bakit?" Tanong ko naman sakanya.

"Sasabay ako. I would like to see him." Sagot naman niya saakin.

★★★

1:35 P

Palabas kami ng Montreal High School nang biglang may magtext saakin.

"Hey declan? Remember me? You asked me if why do i know you. I told you 'someday you'll see'. Guess what? That someday is today. I'm ready to meet you again. This time, you'll meet me too. Sampson Resto, 3pm. Be there. "

Shoot. That girl. Yung nakita ko sa Tullmain, yung nakita ko rin sa Market. She got me that curious. And now i really have to meet her. And i barely got 1 hour left to prepare. I now need to go.

"Listen. Martina. I have to go. I -just. I'll text you the hospital room number. Susunod nalang ako. Okay? " sabi ko as i kissed her cheek. And i left her there.

Wait. Hold on. Kissed her cheek? Did i just do that? Relax declan. You did not give her the wrong impression.

Nag-ayos na ako nang makarating ako sa bahay. Don't worry. I'm just gonna meet her. At susunod ako sa ospital.

★★★
3:05

I parked my car sa labas ng resto. Oops. I might be late. Pagpasok ko palang natanaw ko na siya. There she was.

"Hi." Sabi ko as i sat infront of her.

"Um. Let's order first." Sabi ko pa. She's not saying anything.

"We don't need to. You're late." Sabi niya pa as she rose her feet on mine. Na para bang hinihimas ito gamit ang paa niya. Is she flirting with me?

"Oh-ho. You did not just do that." Sabi ko, tumatawa. She just smiled at me.

"Now, pwede ko na bang malaman ang pangalan mo?" Tanong ko sakanya.

Imbis na sabihin niya ang pangalan niya, tumayo siya at naglakad. Sumunod naman ako sakanya. A minute later i found myself on the ladies room.

Then she grabbed me on one of the stalls.
She kissed me. And kissed me.

"Wait. We need a place." Sabi ko, breaking the intimate scene.

"No, we don't." Sagot niya as she took off my sweater ans stated kissing my neck. Fuck. This feels so good.

Nang matapos kami, she told me to wait outside. Pagkatapos sumakay siya sa kotse ko.

"Ella.", sambit niya bigla.

"Ha?" Tanong ko naman. Curious.

"Ella is my name." Sabi pa niya. Oh. Ella. This mysterious girl has name already.

I took her home, and she kissed me on the cheek. Pagkatapos non dumiretso na ako sa hospital.

★★★★★

It's almost 10PM nang makarating ako sa ospital. Took me 5 minutes to get into Nolan's room.

Pagbukas ko ng pinto, walang tao. Nasaan si nolan? Nasaan sina Martina? Si Mr. Rosslord? Ok na ba si Nolan? Or something just happened? Nasaan ba sila?

Pumunta ako sa malapit na Nurse Station at nagtanong.

"Nurse alam niyo ho ba kung nasaan na yung pasyente sa Room 514?" Tanong ko sa Nurse.

"Sir nasa E.R po ngayon yung pasyente." Sagot niya. Wtf?

"E.R? Bakit anong nangyari? San ba yon?" Dali dali kong tanong. Itinuro niya kung saang direksyon yon at tumakbo na ako. My heart was beating fast.
Hindi ko alam kung anong nararamdaman ko. Wala nanaman ako nang may nangyari sakanya.

"Where the hell did you go?" Bungad ni Martina saakin.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. How's he? Kmusta siya? Nasaan si Nolan? Martina?" Tanong ko sakanya. Shaking her. She looks shocked. Hindi niya ako sinagot kaya dumiretso ako sa kwarto. Hindi ako pinapasok ng nurse, dahil nga may operation na nagaganap.

"Miss i really need to see my friend." Pagmamatigas ko.
After a few seconds may narinig akong nagsalita.

"I knew you were gay." Ang mga katagang yan ang nagpasaya saakin. Not that it was true. I'm proudly straight. Yung taong nagsabi niyan saakin ay yung taong isa sa pinakamahalaga saakin.

"What the fuck Nolan!" I ran and hugged him.

I never thought this would happen. I mean i know he'll be alive. More alive sooner or later pero it doesn't need to be awkward like this.

"I mean i just forced the nurse to let me in. Wala ka pala doon gago!" Sabi ko sakanya.

"Dad told me everything. Thanks, Potter." He tapped my back.

"My pleasure, Rosslord. Everyone knows you can't live without me." Sabi ko pa.

"And then the Bromance continued. " sabat naman ni martina.

After that moment, there was only one question on my head. Kung hindi si Nolan yung nasa E.R, eh sino?
Just when everything was okay,
May doktor na lumabas at hinanap si Mr. Rosslord. Sabay naman na paglabas niya.
Kinausap siya nung doktor and we can also hear it.

"I'm sorry sir. We did everything we could. It is really her time. I'm sorry for your loss. Mrs. Rosslord died after the surgery." Sambit ng doktor. The four of us just pause for a moment. And tears fell from our eyes. Sa sandaling saya, ang bilis bawian ng lungkot. For now, all i can do is be with the Rosslords until they finished mourning. I now will stay by Nolan's side as long as he needs me. That's what Bestfriends are for.

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