I can't stop thinking about you {jortini}

Chapter 30

Jorge: after a while walking through the park and trying to clear my mind I reach our house again. As I walk in I expected to find Tini waiting for me to have a talk but she's nowhere to be seen...."Tini?!" I walk upstairs to our room but no one is in there. I hear some noises from the bathroom and I see it's locked.....what?

"Tini?" But I don't get a reaction. I only hear the sound of flowing water.....eventually after some minutes I hear her soft voice speaking "Jorge?" The tone of her voice just scares me, she sounds so weak and like she has been crying

"Yeah love?" I ask her as response "do-do you.....do you still love me? After all those horrible things I said to you?" She asks and I thought it was impossible but her voice sounded even more broken right now and it hurt me from inside

"What? Of course I still do! I'm still mad about it but I understand the situation you're in now....but of course I still love you Tini! I love you to the freaking moon and back!" I shout through the door to make sure she heard every bit of what I'm saying.

"I-I love you to Jorge" she says and the sound of the water turns off "can I please come in now??" I ask getting worried

"It's better for the both of us not to" she said really soft like she actually didn't want me to hear it....In the background I could hear her crying really soft

"What do you mean?!" I think I hear her getting in the bath filled with water "Tini!! Tini what are you doing?!" But she doesn't gives me an answer and without a second thought I run downstairs and get a thingy thing what can open most doors. When I finally find it I run upstairs again and try to open the door of the bathroom but it won't work. I keep trying and turning that stupid thing until the door finally opens and I walk inside but after three steps when I get full view of what's happening I just freeze.....

Tini laying in my oversized sweatshirt (her favourite) in bath....her head under water and two stains of red coming from her wrists.....within seconds I'm out of my freeze and run over to her. I lift her up out of the bad and take her with me to the bed. I cover her cold and really pale body with some towels and try to stop the bleeding from her wrists but it won't stop.....tears streaming down my face "Tini! Tini! You have to stay here beautiful! Please don't leave me!" I try to wake her up but her eyes stay close and her breathing gets slower until they stop...... "Please beautiful! you can't leave me" tears flowing over my cheeks when I realise it's too late.....I'm too late

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Jorge: I woke up and my body was covered with sweat and I was breathing heavily while my dream flashed through my mind....It was a dream! It was a dream! I need to see Tini! I need to make sure she's okay!

I get up from the bench in the park where I probably fell asleep when I was thinking and run back to our house it was a dream! I need to see her! I need to hold her! I need to tell her I love her! Even if we fight I won't stop loving her!

When I reach the house I'm totally out of breath and take some seconds in front of the door to recover from the run. After some seconds I enter the house and hope to see her in the living room, kitchen or even the garden but she's not....she's probably upstairs where I hoped her not to be. It reminds me of the dream and it kinda scares me.....I slowly walk upstairs up to our room. I walk inside the room and see Tini sitting on the edge of the bed and let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding.

She sits on the edge of the bed with elbows on her knees. She looks at her hands in a hypnotised way, with tears forming in her eyes she looks at the palm of her hands.

Finally she slowly looks up and guilt is written all over her face....but why? She even looked less guilty when she said those horrible things to me....what happened when I was gone?? "You saved me once again Jorge" she says soft

"W-What do you mean?" I asked getting even more confused now. Her tears started to fall and she looked away for a few seconds, she looks at some point at the floor but my gaze stayed focused on her. When she looked back she had an look on her face what tore my heart into a thousand pieces. I couldn't stand her looking like this. I just looked away for some seconds...and that's when I saw it.

I saw a sharp kitchen knife laying on the ground.....the same who laid next to the bath in my dream

"You're the only reason that I want to stay here" she started slowly what made my gaze return to her....."I love you so much that I couldn't do it......I couldn't do that to you because I know it would kill you from the inside....I couldn't hurt you like that. Not again" she slowly said while tears were flowing over her cheeks

"Tini you have to know that what you've done wasn't your fault! It wasn't your choice and you can't and may not blame yourself for it!" I walked up to her and kneeled down in front of her and took her hands in mine "even if we had a fight and said some really stupid things" she looked away after I said it but I made her look at me by holding her chin soft and turning her to me. I pulled her a bit down slowly "I love you so much Tini" I kissed her softly on the lips.

She places her soft hands in my neck and pulls me closer to her. She pulls away for a seconds and places her forehead to mine "I'm sorry that I doubted you......and I'm even more sorry that I said those horrible things to you, I didn't mean them of course. I could never compare you to peter! You're way too sweet and too hot of course. You're my saviour Jorge, I love you so much" she says before she kisses me again

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I have to admit that when I wrote the dream from Jorge I cried.....it's so stupid to cry at something you wrote by yourself but I don't know it just happened!
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