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Chapter 37

*Camila's POV*
I can't believe those words slipped out of my mouth.

"Wait what do you mean you're leaving and never coming back?" Normani questions.

"Nothing. don't listen to me" I say covering my face in shame. Of course, all I want is to get out of here for my safety and my happiness but I can't right away. I want to finish high school and really don't feel like being the new kid in my senior year at a different school and my family are never leaving here and they wouldn't even consider moving because I don't feel safe here because I'm gay, they'd say that's my own damn fault and kick me out and I kind of don't want that to be my last memory of my family. I also don't want to have to drag Lauren out with me because I don't want to be without her and I also know I'm not ready to live completely by myself.

"Obviously you meant something" Lauren says placing a hand on my shoulder.

"Look, I hate this town and most people in it and I want to leave as soon as possible but it's not realistic. I have to finish school, find somewhere to live, save up enough money to support myself, and so much more."

"Maybe we can all do our research on it and apply to schools in areas where people aren't homophobic- which is almost everywhere in america except here- and we can go together ?" I say to clear the thought of me ditching them and everything I have here which I know is in their heads.

"Yeah but what if we don't get into the schools we apply to and we end up having to go to like our safety school?" Dinah laughs.

"I doubt it. You all look pretty good on college applications. Plus, its like a year away we have plenty of time to sort it all out." I say. I start feeling better picturing our future. I'm imagining Lauren and I sharing a cute loft in San Fransisco or New York City and we take college classes during the day on explore the city and go on fun dates at night. And the girls all go to schools of their own and stay in the same building as us and we stay in each other's lofts watching movies and talking all night long. This idealistic future is such a calming thought.

"Yeah, let's worry about now." Lauren says.
"I think we should go home." Camila says.
"Alright. See Ya." Dinah says planting a kiss on my head. She's always been like an older sister to me even though she's younger. She always kept me out of trouble and calmed me when I was sad. I don't want to leave her but if she wants to stay here, I might have to.
"C'mon, Lo" I say motioning towards the car. I can tell she wants to say something. She keeps leaning over like she's going to say something but she sits back and continues to state out the window. She probably wants to say something about what Happened tonight and what I said but she doesn't want to set me off. I'm a ticking time bomb. I can't really help it. I'm a deeply passionate person and I always have been and I get so angry when things are unfair for me or the people I love. I would never yell at or hurt Lauren or anyone for that matter but it probably is scary for her seeing me rant and kick my car. I glance down at my throbbing foot. My pinky toe is purple and looks slanted and my big toe's nail has turned black. The adrenaline caused me to not notice the harm I had done to myself.
"Lauren, I'm so sorry. I feel like an awful girlfriend. It's not right for me to get mad and yell and kick my car it is so unfair that I do this to you, you don't deserve this!" I start to cry. Once I get going, I can't really stop with my emotions.
"Camila, it's ok" she smiles putting her hand over mine on my lap. "It's not your fault that those stupid guys set you off. I would be pretty angry to. And I don't blame you for wanting to get out of here. I hear that you can take high school classes during the summer. Maybe we can trade in some study halls for senior classes and graduate early."
"Yeah. I'd like that" I say taking my eyes off the road for a split second to meet hers but then returning them.
"Lauren... Do you wanna stay with me? My parents aren't gonna be home, Sofi and them went to visit my grandparents for the weekend." I say. I feel like I'm taking too big of a step but it's worth it. Our relationship has felt like its lasted years not weeks. We've already gone through things that most couples don't ever have to go through and I think that's brought us closer.
"I'd love to." She says with a smile.
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We get to my house and make our way into my room. I quickly peak into my parents room and then into Sofi's to make sure that nobody's home.

"Aww" Lauren says as she picks up a picture frame from my desk. I look over and she has a picture of me with a set of pom-poms and the uniform for my first cheer squad when I was 7. My hair was in tight pig tails with ribbons tied around the elastics. I remember that day vividly. The day I met Normani and Ally. Dinah's family and mine had been friends since before we were born so we had known each other before that and we were inseparable friends. We used to go to football games with our Dad's when we were little and play with our dolls in the bleachers but when the cheerleader half time shows came on, we dropped everything and were completely mesmerized by them. When we got home, we used to try to choreograph routines like the ones we saw with songs on the radio. When we were eligible, Our mom's signed us up for a cheerleading squad and there we met Ally and Normani and we became the four best 7 year old cheerleaders that coach had ever seen... not really but we tried. We began going to each other's houses and practicing but soon enough, practicing turned into talking and playing and then we became the four best friends anybody had ever seen. I wish I could go back to those times. They were much simpler.

"Nostalgia." I say as she placed the picture down.

"You were so cute! You still are pretty cute though" She says as she smiles a toothy grin and I start to blush.

"This dress is so uncomfortable." I say as I start to realize my pajamas are just feet away. "Mind unzipping me?" I say as I turn my back to her.

"No hold on." She starts to unzip. Her long thumb nail lightly goes down my bare back and sends a shiver through my body.

I open my drawer and pull out my large 1975 shirt. I ordered it to make it look like I went to the concert when they were in town (which I didn't because of cheerleading once again) and they made a mistake and sent me an extra large so now I wear it as a night gown. Then I remember Lauren probably needs clothes and dig through my drawers and find her a gray T-shirt and black shorts.

"Here Lo" I say as I toss her the clothes.

"Thanks" She says. she turns around and starts to undress. Her dress hits the floor and she's wearing lacy black undergarments. I gulp trying to look away but I can't. He hair whips around and she looks up at me slowly. She looks so hot right now it's unbearable.

"Like the view?" She laughs and I nod vigorously.

"Wow" I say ogling her beautiful body. I quickly blush remembering that that was not supposed to come out. I glance down at my mismatched bra and underwear and feel a little self conscious.

"I'd say the same... to you" She says as she steps closer and eyes me up and down. I lean in and our lips are inches apart. My hand travels down her back and rests at her waist.

"I-I love you" I say, staring into her eyes. she looks down and smiles.

"I love you too." She says, a meaningful tone in her voice. As her lips touch mine, I realize that that was the first time she's told me that.

A/n: would anyone actually read if I made a sequel? I feel like nobody cares about sequels haha
Ps, I have no clue how but this is #347 in fanfiction omg. I know it's not much but still WOw!!! thanks guys!!! <3