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Chapter 21

*Camila's POV*
Her lips are against mine and its almost like that feeling I get when I see her or touch her except multiplied by 1000. I loose the sense that this are real and I go into a state of dreaming. I might as well. I always though she was oblivious to the way I felt. I guess not. I move closer to her, one hand shakily going up her thigh, the other rests on her shoulder. All I feel is pure bliss. I've never felt so high in my life. All those emotionless kisses with boys led up to this moment. The moment where I can finally kiss who I love and enjoy every millisecond of it. She jerks her head back, her eyes dilated.
"I- I'm sorry. I have to go." She says picking up the dress and her back pack and hurrying towards the door. She can't leave me hanging.
"Wait" I run and grab her arm.
"What" she snaps back? Why's she getting mad at me? She kissed me.
"Was... Was that real?" I say, my voice shaky. I don't want to here it if it wasn't. Yeah, it was a kiss but a kiss can just remain a kiss if one person doesn't feel the same as the other. It can be much more if they feel the same.
"Camila, I have to go" she turns for the door.
"LAUREN" I yell, lightly pulling her hand from the knob. "Lauren, you can't just kiss me like that and leave no explanation" I say with a calmer, more casual tone.
"You... You and Tate-" she starts.
"Look. Tate and I are nothing. While we're all acting upon our feelings, I might as well get this out. Lauren, I have loved you ever since I laid my eyes on you. But I was a stupid, shallow popular girl who didn't want to come to senses with her sexuality because se was afraid to be judged or loose all her friends or whatever could possibly happen, but now since I cannot control the filter in my brain, I'm just gonna say that I don't give a fûck what anybody thinks. I LOVE YOU LAUREN JAUREGUI AND I-" she laughs, covering my mouth with her hand, seeing that I'm yelling.
"Shh, Camz" she takes her hand off of my mouth and we both laugh.
"You know, I did that because I realized that you loved me." She realized? Oh great now I'm getting rejected. She did this out of pity.
"And I realized that I was too stupid to see that you loved me. And I thought that I owed it too you. I owe it to you, to tell you that even though I've only known it for about 10 minutes now" she laughs. "That I love you too"
How could this be? I've only started talking to her recently?  Maybe it's not as bad as I set it up to be, maybe love really is impossible to hide. Maybe every attempt I made with her didn't seem totally platonic. Maybe I got the girl of my dreams...
"Lo" I say. Holding back tears of success and happiness.
"Yes" she says softly, our bodies getting closer.
"Do you really... Like Ansel? Because if you do, that's fine. Don't pity me. I want you to be happy and I don't wanna hold you back" I say
"Let's put it this way, If I really ever wanted to be with him, don't you think I'd know by now because I know I wanna be with you and I've only been talking to you for a few days, Camz" she laughs.
"So... I've never really officially came out." She says to me. I thinks she expects that I have when all that's happened is that I confronted Ally's belief that I'm gay.
"Me neither." I say shaking my head and biting my lip.
"I have an idea." She laughs.
"Let's just come out to each other, right now. It would be kinda cool to say that we came out to each other first"
"Fine, on three...1...2.." The door opens.