Perfect

'Want to dance?....'

**Mum's POV**

As Rosa closes my door I let out a sigh of relief.  I then lie on my bed. Phew! I think as I turn out the lights. 'Tomorrow will be a better day...' I murmur as I drift off to sleep. I had just lied to my own daughter, I wasn't fine. I had a Graham shape hole in my heart that needed to be filled. But even I knew that was impossible.

I am starving....and cold, and my head and eyes are burning up. Was I ill? No, I couldn't be. I was fine. I was just missing my Graham, that was normal, right? Then I had an amazing idea. What if I...found a new boyfriend? That could make me feel better, he would have to be the right sort of guy, I mean I'm not desperate. Then I pause for a minute, I still loved Graham. And how would Rosa take to having a man around the house? Would she want me to have a boyfriend? I should stop thinking about Rosa and do what I want to do. I then stop trying to get to sleep and I get up out of bed.

I put a new layer of make up on and I comb my hair. I look in the mirror, is anyone going to want to go out with me? To make me look more attractive I put on my beautiful, long, blue, sparkly dress that I wore when me and Graham got engaged. I hope I can find someone tonight.....

I wait until I hear Rosa's light go out to make my move, I glance at my watch as I quietly make my way down the stairs, 6:20PM. I just hope that I can find a nice man....I hope he will like me and Rosa and will want to live with us and take care of us....But is that too much to ask? I question myself. Surely not. If he loved me, then he would want to take care of us. I tip-toe across the cold kitchen tiles and I put my special blue high heels on. 'Owww..' I moan in pain as I have not worn these heels in years and they are a few sizes too small. Never mined, they're the only posh shoes I have so they will have to do. I take one last look upstairs, I blow an air kiss in Rosa's direction then I leave.

I took a bus into town, a few people were looking at me strangely, but I didn't take any notice of them. I was so focused and determined to find a new boyfriend. I pay the bus driver, then I make my way to my  favourite bar, the crown and rose. Me and Graham came here after our wedding, those were the days. I walk down the darkened street until I saw it, here it was. It looked run down and shabby, but I didn't care! I opened the door and as I did so I smelt the air, it was humid with alcohol. It was so nice to get out. ' 'Ello 'ere misses, what can I get ya?' a grumpy old man asked behind the counter. I saw many heads turn to face me, I recognised a few, and as they met my gaze they bowed there heads and then got back to what they were doing. 'I would like a glass of red wine please...' I try to smile at the expressionless bar tender. He mutters something under his breath then he pours me a glass. 'Drink up!' he laughs, a few men in the bar laugh at, what I assumed to be, a joke. I take sip of the rich red wine. I shouldn't get too drunk, I need to look my best.

I gaze around the small, crowded tavern. I spot a handsome man, around my age, but he was chatting to another woman. I spot another man, but he was far too old. I almost gave up hope. I began to drink most of my wine, until a man sat next to me. 'Hi there gorgeous, I'll have what she's having mate!' he calls to the bar tender, who looks very shocked. 'What brings you to this, old bar then love?' he asks me. I didn't want to tell him but he could be the one. I smile at him 'I....just came for a drink and a get away.....I need some time to think..'. I gaze into his eyes, he must be around 40, around Grahams age, he has, wavy, blonde hair and amazing teeth. I soon as I saw him I knew he was the one. 'Well, I don't know about you, but I am starving! Do you want to go get something?' he grins, I was so shocked. He had asked me out! Did he like me? Really like me?! Could he be my boyfriend?

The next thing I remember I wake up in a strange house, still wearing my blue dress. I look around. My head is pounding and I start to panic 'Robert...' I croak, I remember that he told me his name, Robert sounds so manly. 'I'm here!' he smiles 'I made you a cup of tea!' he laughs as he sees my expression. 'It was a pretty good night!' he jokes. 'We went out to dinner, then we danced for a while, you couldn't resist. I said 'Would you like to dance?' and you were all over me. After that we came back to mine. You are a really good dancer by the way!' he assured me as I drink my tea. 'Thanks, but how come you remember and I don't? And, I know this is soon, but...' I trail off mid sentence. I couldn't say it. 'I remember because...you had a LOT to drink and yes, I do love you...' I was so shocked because he bent down and kissed me. It was the happiest moment of my life! Then I realised.....10:12AM! Poor Rosa! 'Sorry Robert thanks and all, you are so lovely. I just need to get back home know....' I stutter as I get out of bed and I get ready. 'Oh, ok. How about I say we meet up again. Same time, same place?' Robert suggests. 'That would be great, thanks again and bye!' I call as I close the door.