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I was never going to jump

'So, Rosa....How are you feeling?' Flower asked at the other end of the phone. 'Fine, fine....' I mumbled. 'Oh...that's good......So, were you going to jump...I mean, we were all so scared....' Flower cried 'Sorry....no, I was never going to jump. I just wanted someone to listen to me.....no-one would listen before....' I murmured as I remembered 'Flower, dinner's ready!' I herd Flower's mum in the background 'Sorry...got to go....' Flower whispered as I hung up.

Mum made a delicious roast dinner, she hasn't cooked a meal like this in ages. I hadn't eaten in ages either, and believe it or not I still want to lose weight. But slowly. But I need to eat something, otherwise I would starve to death. And I didn't want that. I couldn't do that to mum, Alex and my friends.

Right now I was lying on my bed, in my PJ's. It was only 6:50PM, but I needed to get to sleep. But that was the one thing I couldn't do. Sleep. Mum had the TV on downstairs, and I couldn't concentrate. I could try counting sleep......

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve......UHHHHH! It's not working! It's so stupid and pointless!

'Baaaaa........' what on earth, I was supposed to say where am I? 'Baaaa....ba....ba.....' oh no, was I a sheep? Help. 'Baaaaaaa...........' what? I begin to run, but a fence blocks me from the outside world, I try to jump it but I can't. I only have 4 short black legs.....wait. What? I think I am a sheep. Oh dear. This is bad. Very bad. Then I hear someone else. 'Baaaaa.......' I turn around to see another sheep with beautiful green eyes. 'Baaaa...baa...baaaaaaa......' the sheep smiles, Alex? Then a loud more sheep appear from no where. 'Baaaaa!' the all spoke as they ran past. Abigail? Suzii? Lottie? Lucy? Louisa? Amelia? Mum? Flower? No, they were sheep too?

'What on earth.....' I moan as I rub my head. 'I was a sheep, I swear I was......' I mumble as I check the time. 5:03AM. Hummmm.......I won't be able to get back to sleep so...... Why not stay up?

I got dressed and I had a shower. Mum wasn't up yet so I stayed in my room. I got out my phone and I checked my texts. Junk, junk......Yay!

Hi Rosa, just to let you know the doctor says that I will leave the hospital tomorrow. Sorry about letting you down about Sunday...What am I saying, you probably didn't even want to go.....sorry. Anyway, would you like to meet up sometime? I'm free Friday after school....not to rush you......Anyway, don't blame yourself for what happened to me, I'm fine really.....

Bye, Alex

Awwwww..........

Hi Alex, nice to hear from you. I would like to meet up Friday after school. See you at the football pitch? Text me back when you decide........Sorry, I know you said that I shouldn't blame myself, but I still kinda do.....

Rosa.

FRIDAY

'Bye Lottie!' I smiled as I waved with my right arm. Yes, my right! Now the only thing left on my arm are the scars, but it doesn't hurt as much. Lottie and I walked back from school, although she lives next to the school she has a dance class nearby. Of course many teachers and students looked at me weirdly, spread rumours or sent me hate mail, but I didn't care. But I really hate the messages that some people have written on the toilet walls. They hurt to much to think about them. Who would write things like that?

I got changed out of my school uniform and into my casual clothes. I put a layer of make up on, I grabbed my bag and I left. Of course I was nervous, was Alex going to like me, or what I was wearing? Is he even going to turn up?