Perfect

Job interview

'Hi there, you must be Rosa, come, come....' the secretary of the company ushered me in as i walked in the door. 'Thank you!' i smiled nervously, i didn't know what to do or say or where to go. 'I take it that you need to see......Mr.........' she trailed off, talked in a different language, sounded like Italian. She was very beautiful, tanned, slim....... Not like me at all then....

I felt really awkward. I felt very fat standing next to her......i crossed my legs and fidgeted. 'Ok, follow me, he is ready to see you know.....' she smiled as she walked confidently towards the office door. She was wearing very high, high heels, i was surprised that she could walk. 'Ok, please sit and wait a while, I fetch him....' she smiled as she walked in but then she popped her head around the door 'Oh, you can set your stuff up if you want...' then she disappeared around the door again. I was left alone in a big office, there were a number of white plastic chairs and a huge white table.

I placed my designs and drawings on the table and i pulled out my CV. When i finished setting everything up i had i look around the room. There were drawings and photos of amazing, pretty dresses on even prettier models. I sighed. There was no way i was going to get the job..... They want someone funny, someone beautiful....someone not like me then.

The clock turned 12. She had been in there 20 minutes, was something wrong. I heard some shouting, but it settled down. 'Sorry to keep you waiting...' i heard a familiar voice, 'My name is Alex and i am in charge of finding new designers to design new and brilliant dresses.....' i almost collapsed in shock. It was him.

I didn't know what to say, what to do....did he remember me? Did he still love me? Do i look ok? I need help........ He sensed my concern, he obviously didn't remember me........ 'Right then...Rosa? Funny, i used to know someone called Rosa, pretty name......' he was probably smiling but i was still hiding my face my facing the wall. 'Did you like her?' i questioned. 'What?' he replied in shock, 'Did you like this other Rosa you speak of, sorry, this is a job interview......i shouldn't be....' i was getting over-confident. 'Well, yes...i did like her. I never knew whether she truly liked me, or whether she was just being nice.....' Alex almost laughed as he spoke 'You know, you will have to show your face sometime...' he definitely laughed 'So you judge whether i get this job by my face?' i answer back before i even think.

'Sorry, no, i didn't mean....' i try to cover up but it is no use. Without thinking (again) i turn around to face him, twiddling my fairly short hair. 'That's ok, everyone says things that they don't....' he began saying, but he stopped when he saw my face. 'Rosa? Rosa?' Alex asked 'My Rosa?' he smiled as i brushed the hair away from my face. 'Yes, i suppose so....How are you?' i asked nervously, my fingers playing with a loose strand on my trousers. 'Rosa, i...i....' he stuttered nervously, the "pretty girl" as i will now call her, walked into the room.

'Alex, sorry for interrupting, i bought you some tea...' this time she didn't pause, but instead she leaned in and kissed Alex. Not on the cheek. But on the lips. On the lips. But do you know what the worst part was? He kissed back. He kissed back and he liked it. You could tell by the way the edges of his lips curled up into a smile. I must have looked like a gaping goldfish.

I don't know why i stayed. I wouldn't have minded if he didn't remember, or didn't love me anymore. But it was too much to see him kissing another girl. I know it was a long time ago we kissed, or even talked. But he is one of the things that i care about, and that still care about me. Or not as the case may be. After what felt like an hour she left the room.

He wiped his lips and turned back to me. 'Sorry about that, that was my girlfriend, the beautiful and charming and....' he stopped describing his amazing girlfriend when he saw the look on my face. 'Oh, anyway why do you want...' i couldn't take it anyone i grabbed my stuff, i stuffed it in my bag, Alex looked shocked. 'So, now i see the real you, you are only in it for the kisses, aren't you?' i snarled 'You just pick the most venerable girls and take advantage of them, how many other girlfriends have you had? 20? 30? 100?!!' i began to shout 'No...no...for your information, about.....' Alex stopped 'Spit it out!' i cried 'Ok,......21...but that was only because i was being nice, i didn't want to let them down Rosa, i promise. I still love you...' he tried desperately to save the situation. But his attempts meant nothing.

'So Mr nice guy...... you were just being nice weren't you? When you saw me all alone, you took pity on me, it got too far. You faked ever loving me...you probably had another girlfriend at the same time as you were dating me. Well....I loved you. And i never stopped. And i never will. But i want you to know that when i marry, not with you i know, but when i do.....I will be happy. I will be content because they LOVE ME, they LOVE me for who i am. They will care about me Alex, not because they took pity on me either. But i will always think about you....and the life we could of had......' i had to get that off my chest, i was felling a huge mixture of emotions. None of them good.

'Rosa, please.....i love you too and i will never stop loving you, i took a bullet for you and i still have the scar to prove it. Do you think that helps get a girl? Do you? A huge disgusting scar of love Rosa, to prove i love YOU Rosa YOU and no-one else, i just dated that girl because i wanted to fill a hole that you created when you left........Will you ever forgive me? Remember those days Rosa that we spent together? Those were the best days of my life......' Alex said, leaning in closer, hoping for a kiss and a hug.

'Yes, i do. I remember. And so will she for the rest of her life....' i got louder as i pointed to the shocked girlfriend of Alex who had been standing there long enough..... 'Jess baby, i can explain.....' Alex stuttered. 'What about the day you met me? All the days WE spent together Alex. Us.....When you proposed to me?!' she screamed, trying not to fall over.

'Guess what Alex. Gotcha....' i smirked. 'WELL GUESS WHAT ROSA, YOU CAN'T HAVE THE JOB...... YOU DON'T DESERVE IT! YOU RUINED MY REALTIONSHIP, MY MARRIGE, I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS, GOOD FRIENDS!' Alex screamed. 'Well, i thought we were more. You just said so yourself Alex. I remember crying over you, wanting you by my side. Now i know that i was stupid, i will never let you do that to another girl again unless you TRUELY love her.....' i was almost in tears but i held them back, i was angry more than anything.

'Goodbye Alex...' i waved as Jess turned to face her almost Groom, her face red with anger and embarrassment.....It was all his fault. 'THANKS A LOT ROSA.....I WISH WE NEVER MET. EVER. AND FOR THE RECORD IF WE EVER MEET AGAIN, YOU CAN GARENTEE THAT YOU WILL NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND.....OR A HUSBAND. OR A FRIEND. I HATE YOU ROSA, LOOK WHAT YOU DID....look what you did...' he burst out crying as Jess stormed out of the room.

'No Alex, look what you did, what happened to the Alex i USED to know, huh? What happened to that sweet, kind, shy Alex that i loved so much.......I want, i need to know........please?' i walked back into the room slowly, i offered my hand to help him up as he was now in a ball on the floor. 'He grew up Rosa, things changed and so did he..... his dad fell ill, he was worried sick over what would happen to him......grades fell down and down. And so did his friends. They all left him. You were all he had left and you didn't seem to care. He found other girls who he liked. But he still thought of you Rosa. Always. And i still do....' he began to smile again 'I mean, not in a soppy way or anything...' he shuffled nervously. 'That's the Alex i know.....' i smiled again, his hair fell perfectly around his face. But he didn't look the same, not the same gentle soul i once knew. He had grown up. Moved on.

I gave him a small kiss on the cheek goodbye. 'I'm afraid i have to go, keep the job, I’ll find another...' i walked out of the room, out of the building. For the first and last time in my life. Leaving Alex forever. I was moving on.