Searching For Answers (We Can Make This Work sequel)

Untitled Part 50

"Hi Darce" he smiled shyly

"What are you doing here?" I whispered

"I did raise the kid you know" he said softly

"Yeah" I laughed awkwardly "that's very true" I smiled

"Now are you going to dance with your old flame or not?" he laughed

"I'd love to" I smiled as he took my hand

"You look good" I spoke softly

"Not as good as you" he never stopped being a charmer

"Where's the nerd?" he said sarcastically about Spencer

I hung my head and mumbled "uh he, he's dead"

"Oh shit Darce, I'm so sorry" he seemed genuinely concerned

"Are you?" I cocked my head sarcastically

"Well yeah, he was your husband all these years, I'm sure it wasn't easy for you!" he consoled

"Well it certainly wasn't the best circumstances" I sighed

"Hey what you say we get out of here for a bit? The kid is occupied enough and I think we need a good talk" he suggested enthusiastically

"Sure, sounds good" I smiled as I looked over at Hotch seeing him occupied chatting up some woman in the corner of the room

That certainly pissed me off

We walked off to a small library on the wings of the hotel and sat by the small fire.

"God it's been so long Darce" Casper whispered

"Yeah last time we met you put a bullet through my heart" I mumbled

"About that" he turned away with anger towards himself "I'm so sorry Darcy I really don't know what had gotten into me! I was just so angry! When you told me you weren't ready and then there was your boss and then Spencer and then I heard you got married and had a baby! You seemed so much happier and better off without me! I could never have given you that life and that's what made me so angry but for some reason I still thought I had a chance! I thought that when I got out of prison you'd take me back! I never expected you to be married! I guess in prison I was so wrapped up in the thought of surviving in there just so I could get out and see you again, that you'd be waiting and that you'd love me the way you did when I first saw you in that interrogation room" he poured his heart out apologetically

"Look Cas, the past is in the past and I forgave you a long time ago. You raised Spencer and for that I will be forever grateful even though you could have given him back to Spencer" I smiled sarcastically

"That would have been the sensible thing to do but for the first two or three years Jacob was everything to me, I thought I had killed you and Jacob just reminded me of that little piece of you, he had your gentle eyes and your beautiful smile and I just couldn't let him go. Then I started drinking again and it would have made sense for me to give him back then but I couldn't! Even in my darkest moments he brought light and although I never showed him that, I loved him like he was my own Darce! I know I wasn't the father he needed but he turned out a good man and I knew he would! He is his mother's son for sure" he smiled sadly

I looked at the man in front of me. It wasn't often Casper showed his vulnerable side, I could tell he had changed, he had finally made something of himself. I looked at him the way I used to, and I saw the man I loved once upon a time.

"Plus I've stopped drinking Darce! I've been clean 1 year and 4 months now" he beamed

"That's amazing Cas, I'm proud of you" I smiled

"I miss you calling me that" he smiled sheepishly

"I've missed you Casper" I whispered lovingly

"I've missed you too Darcy" he said softly

"Do you remember our first night beside the fire Darce?" he smiled sweetly as he stared at the blazing fire in front of us "I had tracked you down after the trial, I waited until the girls left you and I built up the courage to knock on your door. You were so scared" he began to laugh softly "you turned me away but I couldn't take no for an answer and you finally gave in. We sat in front of the fire all night and just talked" he smiled as he looked at me

"It was our first step to a very interesting future" I laughed

"You could say that again" He joked

As I looked up at him I saw the old Casper, the sweet, innocent man I fell for in the interrogation room

"Remember when JJ caught you the first night we slept together" I laughed thinking back "Your face was priceless" I giggled

"You should have seen yours and JJ's face! If looks could kill JJ would have struck me dead on the spot" he roared laughing

"Where is JJ actually?" he became a little more serious

"We uh, we haven't spoken in a while" I looked away

"Oh, uh I'm sorry" he said confused "do you want to talk about it?" he asked quietly

"Uh there's nothing much to say, it's kind of ridiculous looking back, but I'll fix it soon" I smiled

"I'm sure you will" he nodded supportively "you always do" he smiled

"I'm glad you're here Cas" I whispered as I moved a little closer to him

"Me too" he whispered as he looked into my eyes, searching, questioning. And I knew exactly what he wanted

He slowly leaned in and I met his pace as he slowly kissed me and it was as if we were thrown right back to that first night. I had so much love for this man.

"Darcy?" I heard a stern voice from behind me

We both jumped and I turned to look

"Hotch! I, uh, this isn't what it looks like!" I jumped up from the chair seeing the hurt look on Casper's face as I ran after Hotch

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Hi everyone! HAPPY 50TH CHAPTER! I knew this would be longer than the first book but i'm beginning to wrap things up now. As you can see Darcy, without noticing, is at the beginning of her goodbyes, starting with Casper BUT i'll have an announcement at the end of the next chapter SO PLEASE PLEASE KEEP READING AND SHARING xx