Your Forever Is All That I Need (Kellin Quinn)

Chapter 5: Unresolved Feelings

*Unresolved Feelings*

Cassie's POV:

Great.

Today was the day, and I just wanted to run away from it all. From this situation. From him.

Anna said that I needed to talk to him, and maybe I do... But there is not even a slim spark of hope in me that this conversation will make things better. He's going to be the same Kellin I knew years ago. The same Kellin I have lived without for ten years. The same Kellin that will just leave me again.

I can't even fathom the concept that if I am that naive, that IGNORANT to release the unbreakable walls I have spent so many years building up... Just to let him back in... To let back in the reason I built the walls in the first place... will not only make me seem blindingly gullible, but will be what destroys me once and for all.

"Cassie!" Anna yells.

"What?" I snap back into reality.

"I've been calling your name for like five minutes!"

""Oh, I'm sorry Anna. I just have a lot on my mind." I confess.

"I know, Cassie. But I need your help. Right now."

"What is it, Anna?"

"What should I wear?" She smiles at me while holding two different outfits.

"You're such a girl..." I sigh as I get up from bed and walk over towards her. I choose the pastel blue shirt with white jeans.

She smiles, and goes into the bathroom to change. I reluctantly go back towards the bed, not wanting to even ponder on the idea of getting ready, of seeing him.

"No, Cassie. You're not allowed to go back to bed. Get your sorry ass up and get in the shower." Anna sternly remarks as she walks back in the bedroom with her outfit on.

I just moan, get up, and slowly make my way to the bathroom to get ready.

The steaming hot water washes away everything: my wants, my desires, my fears, my stress, and of course all the unwanted dirt on my body. Showering always makes me feel cleaner, not just in the obvious sense... but in a way that just makes my burdens feel weightless, unimportant.

As I got out, I dried off, got into new clothes, dried my hair, and walked back into the hotel room.

"You're not wearing that, are you?" Anna looks me up and down, shaking her head in disgust.

"What's wrong with it?" I ask, not necessarily caring about my appearance. I just had on light skinny jeans with a concert tee.

"It's not SEXY enough!" Anna proclaimed, as she made her way to the closet and picked out black jeggings, with a fancy red shirt. She threw it at me and said, "Change. Now."

I groan.

"Why do I have to look sexy?"

Anna scoffs.

"For Kellin! Duh! You need to look like some hot piece of ass. Make him regret every leaving your sexy self back home."

I just roll my eyes, and go back into the bathroom. I tug on the jeggings, and slide into the red halter top. It was a pretty shirt, with the ruffles, and the little flower that was attached to the neck part of the shirt.

Anna bombarded into the bathroom with a smirk on her face.

"Now THAT is how you dress to IMPRESS."

I just laugh and look at myself in the reflection.

She made a "hmmm" sound and sat me down on the stool in the bathroom. I look at her in confusion.

"I'm doing your make-up and hair. Don't try to argue. Just say thank you when I'm done."

I just nodded and let her go about to what she wanted to do. She curled my hair into loose waves. And then, she went on to my face... putting on foundation, powder, and then giving me a smokey eye, with a little more eyeliner than I'm used to. When she was done, she handed me the mascara tube and told me to put some on.

She looked at me one last time, smiled, and walked out.

I saw myself in the mirror and gasped. The smokey eye brought out the green in my eyes, making them brighter (the red shirt only made them even greener), and the foundation made my skin seem flawless. It was stunning, really. The curls flowed, bringing out the red tint to my light brown hair. I put on my mascara, making a more drastic lash, and gave myself one last look before walking out the door.

Anna was waiting. She was gorgeous.

"You look amazing, Anna." I sigh.

"You, my sexy friend, are gorgeous. Let's go show those boys what we're made of." Anna says boldly.

"Let's do it."

I was beyond ready for a day filled of music, fun, and HIM.

Kellin's POV:

I wasn't ready to perform today. Above all, I wasn't ready to see her today. She would probably look beautiful. What am I saying? OF COURSE she would look beautiful. It's Cassie. And that would make me feel even worse, even more regretful than I already am.

"Dude, Kellin. You need to get ready. We're needed at our booth for signings in ten minutes."

I turn to see Jesse staring at me.

"Yeah, man. I'll be there in a minute."

He just shrugged his shoulders and walked out the door.

I sigh, and look back at my reflection. I could see the depression in my face. It needed to change. My fans couldn't see me depressed. I'm supposed to lift up their spirits, not worry them with my petty problems.

I smile at myself in the mirror, and walk out of the bus and make my way to the booth.

There was already a long ass line waiting to see the band. I just smile and wave.

...

After signing at least 100 shirts, and other shit that comes along with being in a band, I wanted to walk around and look for her. For Cassie.

I needed to see her, and I had no idea where she would be, but I just started to walk anyway... hoping my feet would eventually just lead me to her.

As if God had heard my prayers, she walked out of the PTV booth, smiling and clutching a signed shirt.

God, she was so beautiful.

& what she was wearing... I mean... She couldn't have been more sexy. I told myself I needed to stop thinking about her that way... As being someone more than my best friend, but I can't. I love her.

I started to walk over towards her, and as if she felt my presence, she turned my direction, and a smile appeared when she saw me.

That's a good sign, right?