Your Forever Is All That I Need (Kellin Quinn)

Chapter 26: The End... Ish. Maybe.

*Kellin's POV*

My heart fell to the floor when I saw the body bag.

I actually fell to the ground and cried out in agony. Was she really taken away from me? I couldn't believe it. She couldn't be gone. It didn't feel like she was gone.

I didn't feel her gone. I would have felt it, right? I would have felt her leave this world... I should have felt her leave...

I should have felt her leave.

"My baby." I cried into my hands.

I didn't want to be here anymore. I wanted to join her. I wanted to be with her. I needed her, and I didn't know how I was going to survive without her. There was no reason to live without her. Without my Cassie.

"I'm sorry about your loss... It must be a tragedy losing someone to these kind of circumstances."

I felt a hand on my shoulder, and I looked up to see a woman cop, looking down at me with sympathy. I just sniffled, and nodded. I couldn't really say anything. I didn't want to.

"I just hope that you know that we did everything we could." She said.

I cried again, wishing that I could have saved her. If I had only been here sooner, this wouldn't have happened. I didn't even know how she died. I wanted to know, but at the same time, I didn't want to know.

What if she had died painfully? I didn't want to know that. I wanted to believe that she died in peace, and knowing that she was loved. She was so loved.

Especially by me.

I could have given her the world. I wanted to give her the world. I was planning on her being my world. She was my world.

And now, my world was ripped away from me. In the blink of an eye. And, I couldn't do anything to stop it. I couldn't prevent it. There was nothing I could do now.

She was gone. My Cassie was gone.

Oh god, how was I going to tell Anna?

She was so happy right now with Vic. Learning that her best friend died would crush her...

How was she going to deal with this?

She wouldn't be alone though. She would have Vic. She would have someone there to comfort her. Someone to tell her that no matter what, they'd always be there for her.

She'd at least have that.

I didn't have that anymore.

Cassie was my someone.

I cried harder, knowing that I had to eventually get off this curb and go back to the tour. Not to sing, but to tell the guys the news. And, probably that I wasn't coming back for a while. I mean, last time I lost someone, it was just to her leaving me. Kate just simply left me, but it wasn't like this. Kate might have left me, but she only left me to go somewhere else to someone else. She was still alive. She was safe.

Cassie wasn't alive.

She wasn't safe.

Not anymore.

And, it was all my fault. I knew something was wrong. I knew it. I was just too dumb to act on it, because of my stupid insecurities of being too clingy, and too worried. Well, none of that mattered now, did it? I don't get the chance to be too clingy and too worried.

I should've been clingy.

She might have been a little frustrated and annoyed with me, but she'd still be here. She'd still be her beautiful, alive self.