Finding love (an Ansel Elgort Fanfic)

Say Something

I closed my eyes and waited.
Shailene: " Any last words before you die?"
" Yeah get away from her" someone yelled and then jumped over Shailene. I stood up and saw Shawn trying to pull the gun away. Shailene was yelling and fighting back.
Me: " Shawn!!! I yelled. I ran to them and then heard a gunshot. Shailene was no longer yelling.I felt panic. I walked to where they where and Shailene stood up and ran as fast as she could. I jumped to the sudden move.I looked at Shawn and saw blood coming from his chest. I kneeled down besides him.
Me: " Shawn...are you okay?" I said with tears rolling down my cheeks.
Shawn: " I've been better I guess"
Me: " Everything is gonna be okay"
Shawn: " I love you" he whispered.
Me: " Shawn please don't leave me" I held his face close to my chest than took my phone out to call the abulance. I called them and they told me they would be here as fast as they could I put the phone down and looked at Shawn.
Shawn: " What beach are we having our wedding on?" He said I saw a tear rolling down his cheek.
Me: " We will go to all of them and we will pick"
Shawn: " Every guy is gonna be jealous that I get to marry you" I ripped a part of my shirt and pressed where the blood was coming out. He clossed his eyes in pain.
Me: " Every girl will be really jealous of me also" I said still crying. He rose his hand and wiped my tears away.
Shawn: " Please don't cry "
I just nodded whipping the tears off. I grabbed my phone and dialed 911 again but they said they will be here as soon as possible.
Me: " Help is in his way so hang in there"
He slowly shook his head.
Shawn: " I am really sorry Julia"
Me: " Why?" I said beginning to cry again.
Shawn: " I don't think I am gonna make it"
Me: " Don't say that you are gonna make it I know you are.....This is all my fault I am sorry you should of let her kill me"
Shawn: " Its not your fault and I would never do that"
Me: " I love you so much please don't leave me"
Shawn: " I love you too Julia Foster" those where Shawn's last words he took one last breath and he was gone. I kissed him and shook him hopeing he would wake up.
"Shawn please dont leave me, say something to me" In my head I knew that he was gone already but I wanted him to just wake up and put that affective smile of his. I rested my head on his chest but I couldn't hear the heart beat I had heard an hour ago. I looked at him and his eyes where closed as if he was sleeping. I knew for sure he had gone to heaven because there was no reason for him not too.
I felt like someone was stabbing my heart I felt so much pain. Everything that had happened was my fault. There was so many "What if's " but no matter what I said would bring him back. A few minutes later the abulance came. They where asking me questions and trying to pull me away from him but I held him tighter and didn't listen to them. I was sobbing so loud I didn't want to leave him. The officers where able to make me let go off him after a couple of minutes. I kept yelling his name telling him I was right here.A officer pulled me to the side and told me she was really sorry for my lost but I had to answer some questions about who killed Shawn. I just sat there staring at the ground and didn't answer any of her questions . I looked to my left side and saw them zipping up the bag they had put Shawn in . I covered my eyes and began crying.
"Sweety you need to come with us"
Me: " You where too late" I told her still looking at the ground.
" What do you mean?"
Me: "he would of survived if you had come earlier, you where too late"
" I am really sorry we did all we could" I just shook my head in disagreement.
" We have to go now " she pulled my hand to help me get up and led me to the police car. I sat in the back of the car. I rested my head in the cold window.
After a few minutes we where at the police station. I got out of the car and saw my reflection on the window and I saw that I was covered in Shawn's blood.
After a few hours of asking me questions I told them all about it from the beginning with Ansel's father to where Shailene killed Shawn. After really long hours they decided to let me go, but asked me if I was gonna be okay and I just said yes because I couldn't stand being there anymore. They called his parents and told them the news also and they where devastated and who wouldn't be.It didn't matter to me if Arthur wanted to kill me anymore. After a police officer dropped me off at the dorms I walked in changed cloths and just threw myself at the bed Shawn's scent was still there. I had so many mixed emotions. I cried all night and didn't sleep. His last words where on mind. I cried my self to sleep. And for some reason all I wanted was to have Ansel besides me right now.
Morning time
I woke up from a terrible dream.
Me:" Shawn" I yelled. But its like everything hit me again and I realized it hadn't been a dream. I heard a knock on the door and didn't respond to it. I just sat on the bed hearing the knocks after a few minutes of listening to them I decided to open the door. When I opened it I saw Logan his eyes where really puffy like he had been crying. He came in and gave me a hug.
Me: " He is gone"
Logan: " I ....know but he will always be in our hearts....you know he loved you so much when ever you weren't around all he talked about was you"
Me: " I am gonna miss him"
Logan: " Me too" he hugged me tight and we both cried.
Me: " It's all my fault"
Logan: " Don't say that at least Shailene is in jail now"
Me: " What?"
Logan: " they arrested Shailene this morning" I felt peace inside me because the one that had killed Shawn was now behind bars. But Arthur was still out there. Logan stayed over we just talked about the good times we spent with Shawn and he told me about his girlfriend. He didn't stay over because his girlfriend was waiting him but I appreciated the time he took to come.

The week had gone by fast I only had a week to transfer to the school in California which I wasn't looking forward to anymore. Every night I cried . All this had been to much I didn't know if being alive was fair to Shawn. I wanted to end my life once and for all . I knew that taking my own life wouldn't send me to heaven but I felt that being in hell was the right place to be since I caused all this problems.I walked to the restroom and took some pills from the cabinet there where Stacey's medications. i looked at the back of the pill bottle and it said more than 3 could cause death. There where small little blue pills. I walked to my bed and poured the pills on my bed I grabbed my phone and dialed the one person that was always there for me, she had been trying to call me all week long but I just ignored every call I got.
"Hello"
Me: " Hey Corina"
Corina: " Julia how are you?, i heard what happened I am really sorry for your lost"
Me: " I don't know how I feel "
Corina: " Do you wanna talk?"
Me: " I don't feel like its fair for me to be alive you know"
Corina: " Don't say that"
Me: " I just called to say goodbye, tell my family I loved them and I wanna thank you for being a good friend all this years"
Corina: " Julia what do mean by that?"
Me: " Bye and i wish you a happy life" I hanged up before she could say anything else .I picked up the pills and looked at them.

Ansel's POV
It was Thursday afternoon and I hadn't heard of Julia. I heard that Shawn had passed away but I didn't know if to go see her not. I still couldn't believe that Shailene killed Shawn. My father hadn't come back from that important business trip he said he will be going after he found out Shailene killed Shawn. Robert wasn't around also. I sat on my living room staring at the wall. I took my phone out and looked through my contacts I saw Julia's number. I was about to call but I had an incoming call from Corina.
Me: " Hello "
Corina: " Ansel I need you to go to Julia"
Me: " What?"
Corina: " She just called and I think she wants to hurt herself"
Me: " Okay I am in my way"
Corina: " Please hurry" I hanged up and grabbed my car keys. I drove as fast as I could I just prayed I made it in time.

Hey guys sorry for not updating sooner.
So Shawn's dead:( but everything is for a reason maybe this will bring Julia and Ansel together, but only if Ansel gets to her on time. Please comment what you think is gonna happen next and vote if you liked the chapter.

Have a fantabulous day or night:)
- J

P.S: Great prediction Anselite99:)