Finding love (an Ansel Elgort Fanfic)

Loving can hurt sometimes

Ansel's POV
I waited for his answer anxiously.
Doc: " Ms. Foster has decided that she will like for you to take care of her but she told me that she will be moving to California in a week after everything feels okay so after that you won't have to worry about her"
Me: " She's actually moving? "
Doc: " according to what she said yes"
Me: " Can I go speak to her"
Doc: " Go ahead " he moved out of the way and left. I took a deep breath and went back inside. She was looking down with a couple of tears rolling down her cheeks.
Me: " Thank you for letting me take care of you" she looked at me. I saw the tears accumulate on her chin and then drop.
Julia: " I didn't do it for you, I did it for my family I have caused them so many problems and they have problems of their own already I don't think they want another one"
I walked to her and sat in the left side of her bed. She turned and looked the other way but I pulled her chin so we where looking to each other.
Me: " I am here for you and I wanna help you"
Julia: " I know that everyone wants to help me but I all the strings inside me broke, I don't know if there is anyone that can really help me"
Me: " Can you at least let me try " she slightly nodded her head.
Julia: " Something is wrong with me Ansel" I hugged her and she rested her head in my shoulder.
Me: " Nothing is wrong with you is just that all of this came rushing into your life" she let all the tears that she had been holding ,out.
After two days they let her get out of the hospital. They gave her some prescriptions,which I had to keep hold of, to help her sleep because there was nights that she would wake up screaming due to nightmares. We decided to go to the hotel that we taught only me and her knew of, since she did not want to go back to the dorms and was scared of going to my house. So we bought food and cloths on the way. The ride to the hotel was quiet until Julia finally spoke since that night at the hospital.
Julia: " Do--do you think we can go to the blossom tree, I need to talk to you" she said nervously.
Me: " Yeah sure" I looked at her and she was playing with the bracelet that they had given her in the hospital. The blossom tree was in the way to the hotel so we got there in five minutes. I parked and she got out. I took the Chinese food we had bought and walked behind her. After some minutes of walking we got to the blossom tree. Julia sat under the blossom tree and rested her head on the tree trunk. I sat besides her and looked at her.
Me: " Hungry?" I asked her.
She nodded and I handed her the plate that had the orange chicken. We ate silently looking at the lake . I taught of asking her about what the doctor said about her moving to California but I didn't know if she would want to talk.
Julia: " This is so much better than hospital food" I looked at her smiling and she had a small smile in her face which was the first smile I had seen on her in a long time.
Me: " I bet it is"
Julia: " So I bet your wondering why did this weirdo made me bring her here?"
Me: " Well yeah kinda" I said smiling at her. Her smile faded away slightly as she played with her food.
Julia: " Well I am moving to California in a couple of days " my smile faded as soon as those words came out of her mouth.
Me: " Why?"
Julia: " Because I wanna start a new chapter in my life and I don't think staying here is gonna do any help I wanna forget about everything that happened to me here"
Me: " But I-" she cut me off before i said anything else.
Julia: " Ansel do you truly want me to get better and care about me?"
Me: " Yes"
Julia: " Well this is a way for me to get better " I looked down and i felt my vision get blurry due to the tears in my eyes, that i didn't want to let go off.
Me: " Do you wanna forget about me also?" She moved closer to me and rested her head on my shoulder and held my hand.
Julia: " I will never forget about you, You are the only thing that I will remember you will be this beautiful memory that will be in my mind every day of my life....close your eyes" she looked at me and I did as she said.
Julia: " Okay now, can you think of all the happy memories we had together"
Me: " Yes" I said remembering of all the good times me and her had.
Julia: " I want you you to remember about those good ones and I want you to forget about all the bad ones...I want you to remember me as the girl in those photograph you have of me as the one I used to be....okay?"
Me: " Okay..." I said with a tear rolling down my cheek.
Julia: " I am gonna miss you and I want you to know that you will always be in my heart" she rose her and rubbed the tear from my face.
Me: " I am gonna miss you too "
Julia: " I know some day you will find that perfect girl and I want you to be happy"
Me: " You are the perfect girl" she shook her head.
Julia: " there's so much out there for you. You just don't know it yet"
Me: "I don't need anything else. I get out of bed every morning and face the world because you're in it. Because of you, the world makes sense to me in a way it didn't before. I have a place now. And it might sound selfish but I am still in love with you and nothing you can do can change my mind"
Julia: " You know life has taught me something very important "
Me: " And what is that?"
Julia: " That loving can hurt sometimes" stood up and looked at me.
Julia: " Do you think we can go now I am kinda tired" I nodded and stood up I mentally slapped myself in the face because I had ruined the moment.
We drove to the hotel silently. When we got their I went to the front desk and awkwardly enough they gave me the same room from last time.
Me: " Do you think we can get another room?"
" That is the only available one"
Me: " But we are the only ones here"
" You want the room or not"
I just nodded and turned to look at Julia who was standing by the hallway looking down .
Me: " You could go to the room I will go get the things from the car" I said handing her the keys.
Julia: " Okay"
I walked to the car and got inside I closed my eyes and then began yelling like a crazy person. Getting all does emotions out . I hit the stirring wheel and then rested my head on it trying to catch a breath. I slowly leaned back and Julia was standing outside the car looking at me with a confused expression. I cursed under my breath then I reached for the bags tha where in the back seat and got out.
Julia: " Are you okay?"
Me: " I am fine " I said smiling and then began walking to the hotel but then someone pulled my arm and turned me around.
Julia: " I know your lying, because sometimes is easier to just smile than to explain why your sad or what's bothering you" everything she said was true and that's one reason why I loved her because she understood me better than anyone else.
Me: " How do know? "
Julia: " Because I have felt that way before and I know you, now tell me what's really wrong?"
Me: " Is just that I don't want you to go"
Julia: " Is for the best trust me"
Me: " I do but why don't we just runaway together, we could go anywhere you want too and we could just go as friends" she looked at me with a surprised expression.
Julia: " I-I don't think that would be a good idea"
Me: " Tell me one reason why not?"
Julia: " Because is just not right,I am already scheduled for my classes in California and just no" for some reason I had the urge to kiss her but I knew if I did something terrible will happen.
Me: " I understand sorry it was just a stupid idea of mine"
Julia: " It wasn't stupid is just not ...you know"
Me: " Yeah I get it....should we go inside now" she nodded and we walked to our room. The room look exactly like last time I had so many good memories of this place.
Julia: " I am gonna go take a shower "
Me: "Okay" she grabbed some cloths from the bag and went to the restroom. I jumped to the bed and layed there i covered my face with a pillow and took a deap breath. I slowly began to drift off until I was asleep but I woke up when I felt someone lay besides me. I slowly took the pillow off my face and saw Julia laying besides me playing with the ring in her finger.
Julia: " Sorry I didn't mean to wake you up"
Me: " I wasn't sleeping I was just resting my eyes " She giggled and I smiled to the sound.
Julia: " I didn't know people snored when they where just resting their eyes"
Me: " Well I am just weird I guess"
Julia: " Ansel there is one thing I haven't told you and you may think I am a terrible person for what I am about to tell you but i just feel like its the right thing to do"
Me: " What is it?" She took a deap breath and began speaking.

Hey guys I am so FREAKEN sorry for not updating in such a long time I feel really bad about it, is just that being a Junior in high school can be alot of work. But don't worry i might be updating on Friday because I already started the next chapter. I know this chapter might of been bad but I will try to not disappoint you on the next one. But incase you liked it please vote and comment:)

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