Finding love (an Ansel Elgort Fanfic)

Where are you now that I need you

Ansel's POV
" Ansel wake up" I felt something cold hit my face when I opened my eyes I saw Shailene and my father .
Me: " I am sorry is just I think I might of misheard you Shailene I taught you said you where pregnant "
Shailene: " Well I am"
Me: " Oh God" i felt i was about to faint again but I didn't.
Arthur: " Son isn't it amazing news"
Me: " I don't know what to say"
Shailene: " This is so exciting your gonna be a father and I am going to be a mommy" she hugged me and I didn't hug her back i was in shock. I pulled away and ran outside I got in my car and just sat there. I had screwed things up big time. I punched the steering wheel and rested my head on it. I felt tears beginning to roll down my cheeks and i didn't know why, but it was problably just because I knew that I'd never have the future i wanted with Julia anymore.
" How could you be so stupid Ansel!" I yelled at myself I didn't love Shailene and I didn't know how to feel about being her baby daddy. I leaned back an taught of so many stuff , I didn't have anyone to talk too. I couldn't talk to Julia and none of my friends where good listeners. I looked at my phone and scrolled down my contact's. I stoped in C's when I saw the name " Corina" and I remembered it was Julia's best friend. We had only talked to each other twice when me and Julia where together. But maybe she will help me make a desicion in whether to to tell Julia or not. I pressed the number and it began ringing. She answered on the fourth ring.
Corina: " Hello"
Me:" Hi, it's Ansel"
Corina: " I heard what you did to Julia, and let me tell you if I was over there I will kick your ass"
Me: " I know, what I did was terrible"
Corina: " Yes it was, so why are you calling you have about a minute before I hang up"
Me: " Well something happened and i have no one to talk too"
Corina: " what is it?"
Me: " I will tell you but I need you to promise me , you won't tell Julia"
Corina: " Okay"
Me: " Well...Shailene is pregnant and I don't know if to tell Julia"
Corina: " Oh my gosh Ansel didn't you learn about protection ...and I don't know what to tell you because I don't know if Julia will listen to you but I know that if she finds out from someone else it won't be good"
Me: " That's what I am afraid of"
Corina: " But don't be stupid, try to make her listen to you so she doesn't get more hurt than she already by hearing it from someone else ,but I can't tell you how she will react"
Me: " Okay I will try and talk to her" I heard someone call her in the background.
Corina: " Well I have to go Kian needs me but good luck and please don't dare to hurt her because that means i am gonna have to go over there and hurt you"
Me: " I will try and please don't tell her anything "
Corina: " Okay well goodbye"
Me: " Thank you, goodbye" after hanging up I just sat there.
Where are you Julia Foster now that I need you. I got out of the car and went back inside. I walked to the living room and saw my dad whispering something to Shai and she was smiling . But when my dad saw me he stoped and walked towards me.
Arthur: " Son, Shai is hurt she thinks you don't want the baby or want to marry her" i looked over at Shai and saw a sad expression in her face now.
Me: " I am sorry if I hurt your feelings Shai but I need some time please"
Arthur: " Son, you should ask her to marry you already there is no time to waste"
Shai: " Mr. Elgort , I think Ansel is right all of this is so sudden and he needs some days to process everything and after he is done we can begin thinking about marriage"
My father looked at her with a confused expression and then just nodded.
Arthur: " Okay , but yall two should go to the mask party on Friday you know to spend some time together"
Shai: " That's a good idea,Ansel we can just talk about ourselves like a date "
Me: " Sure....I need to get some rest so goodnight" I went back to my room locked the door I jumped to my bed and just layed there. Gosh why did I feel this way about her no matter what I did I couldn't forgive her she was like this strong addiction and just thinking that I had felt something about Shailene got me mad but now she was pregnant and it was my son/daughter. I looked out my window and there was so may stars and just thinking that Julia was laying under the same stars gave me a weird feeling. Julia was my treasure and it was stolen from me and I migh never get it back. I taught about her until I drifted of to a heavy sleep.
Next morning
Julia's POV
I woke up, cuddling with Shawn.
Shawn: " Good morning gorgeous "
Me: " Good morning Mr. Mendes" we talked all night long until we fell asleep.
Shawn: " So ready to go buy or outfits for Friday?"
Me: " Yes sir but I need to go to class first"
Shawn: " Okay..." he gave me a quick kiss and stood up.
Me: " I am gonna take a quick shower and dress up" he nodded and i went into the restroom the shower was quick as I said it will be. When I got out shawn was making the bed.
Me: " Look at you making the bed" he smileda and walked to me. He cupped my face and kissed me it was a passionate kiss. I smiled through the kiss before pulling away.
Shawn: " I love you " I smiled and gave him another kiss. I didn't want to hurt him by telling him I didn't love him but I just couldn't get the words out of my mouth.
Me: " I got to go now but I will see you in a bit"
Shawn: " Okay see you later"
Class went by fast when I got out Ansel was standing outside the classroom. He looked at me and gave me a small smile. I rolled my eyes at him and walked the other way. He pulled my arm and pulled me inside a janitors closet.
Ansel: " Julia can we talk"
Me: " No" I walked to the door and tried to open it but he stood infront of it.
Ansel: " Please, Julia I need you now more than ever your the only person that gets me, I need some advice "
Me: " Do really think its a good idea to get advice fro a slut and what else a whore"
Ansel: " Hey I am really sorry"
Me: " Sorry doesn't work anymore"
Ansel: " Meet me in our spot today at 1pm here is not a good place to talk"
Me: " No and please get this straight it's no longer our place" he put a sad expression at my words but I had to say it.
Ansel: " At least say you will think about coming"
Me: " Sure whatever" I opened the door and left. What was it that he wanted to tell me. I wasn't sure if to go or not because i didn't feel like getting hurt anymore" when I got to my dorm Shawn was laying down sleeping he looked so cute sleeping. I walked to him and gave him a kiss. He smiled still with his eyes closed.
Me: " Sleeping beauty has awaken"
Shawn: " How was class today?"
Me: " It was boring .....hey I need to tell you something"
Shawn: " what is it?"
Me: " Ansel wanted me to meet him today and I want to go see him but I want you to come so he knows that we are a thing now"
Shawn: " Do you really think its a good idea?"
Me: " Nope, but he looked kinda worried and I know something is wrong I just wanna see what he wants and after that we can go get our outfits"
Shawn: " Okay we will go, but if he dares to say anything to you he is gonna get beat up"
Me: " Thank you for wanting to go" the hours past by fast it was 12:30am already I called a cab and we left the ride was long. I asked the driver to leave us one block away. We got out and walked to where Ansel was.
Shawn: " He wants to meet you all the way over here dont you think its weird?"
Me: " I have come here before" we got to the same spot that leads to the cherry blossom tree something was diffrent this time it didn't feel like the previous visits I had here. We walked a little more and we saw the cherry blossom tree and under it Ansel was sitting under it . I intertwined my fingers with Shawn and gave him a small smile. We walked to Ansel.
Me: " hey" he looked at me with a smile but when he saw Shawn his smile faded away and it became a confused expression when he saw our hands.
Ansel: " Why is he here?"
Me: " Don't ask me any questions and tell me what you wanted to tell me"
Ansel: " He has to leave "
Me: " No he stays"
Ansel: " Julia please is something that I only want you to know" Shawn looked at me and nodded.
Shawn: " I will wait for you over there beautiful " he gave me a quick kiss and left. Ansel had a confused expression on his face. I sat besides him and looked at the water.
Me: " So what is it you wanted to talk about?"
Ansel: " Are you and him a thing now?"
Me: " I have to tell you some stuff but you need to talk first"
Ansel: " Okay.....but no matter what I tell you remember that I love you..here it goes.....

How is Julia gonna react??Please comment what you think will happen next and please vote if you like the chapter:)
Have an amazing day or night:)
- J:)