Finding love (an Ansel Elgort Fanfic)

I have something to tell you

Connor Weil as Logan

Julia's POV
Arthur: " Who's there!?"
"Crap" I tried to stay calm but I felt the panic getting to me. I looked around and saw a dumpster. But I couldn't get myself to get inside it so I just ran as fast as I could. I hurried myself to the front door of the dorms and got inside I ran up the stairs since there was too much people waiting for the elevator. I was infront of my dorm and I noticed I had droped my keys somewhere. I knocked on the door hard and fast until Shawn opened the door. I rushed inside and locked the door. I tried to control my breathing but it was hard I began caughing a little. Shawn grabbed a bottle of water and gave it to me.
Shawn: " Is everything okay do you want me to call the ambulance "
Me: " No" I said between caughs. When I controled myself I just took deep breaths. I took a sip of water and then everything was back to normal.
Shawn: " What happened?"
Me: " Nothing I just ran to fast"
Shawn: " Come on if I hadn't know you I would of believed you but now spill it"
Me: " Well.....umm..while i was running I stoped and a rat crawled on my foot and that scared the crap out of me so I just ran as fast as I could"
He knew I was lying but didn't wanna push it.
Shawn: " Okay"
Me: "I am gonna take a quick shower"
Shawn: " Okay" he had a kinda mad expression but I didn't know what to do.
Me: " What's wrong?" He shook his head and sat on the edge of the bed playing with the bracelets on his wrist. I walked to him and sat in his lap facing him. I pulled his chin up so he will look at me.
Me: " Shawn?"
Shawn: " Its just that I feel that you don't trust me....why do you lie to me?"
Me: " I am not"
Shawn: " See there goes another lie....you know what it's fine whatever"
Me: " I can't "
Shawn: " You can, you just choose not too....I don't know if this is how good relationships work"
Me: " Okay I will tell you the truth but don't say anything because its not important to me anymore" and I told him about Ansel's father but I left out the part of Shailene not being pregnant.
Shawn: " Is that why you came running?"
Me: " Yeah I just saw him and he scared me so I just ran here but there is nothing to worry about anymore okay"
Shawn: " Okay I believe you but you need to tell me if he does anything to you I don't want him hurting you" he rubbed his hands up and down my thighs.
Me: " I will don't worry"
I smiled and gave him a kiss. The kiss was soft and sweet at first but in a few seconds Shawn was on top of me. He sucked on my sweet spot and I moaned.
Me:" Shawn" he pulled his shirt off and I ran my hand through his abs and sighed.
Shawn: " What's wrong?"
Me: " I don't think it's time yet, plus I am all sweaty"
Shawn: " I don't mind, but I understand I can wait as long as you want babe"
Me: " Thank you....now if you excuse me I gotta take a shower" I pushed against him to get up and I felt his member hardened. He looked at me and smirked. I rolled my eyes and walked to the closet. I grabbed some comfy cloths and went to the shower. I took a long time in the shower thinking about what Arthur and Shailene where talking about. I still didn't know if to tell Ansel or not because maybe they where ment to be with eachother but I also knew that not telling was really wrong. I also couldn't stop thinking how they wanted me dead. When I got out of the shower I changed. Shawn was laying on my bed with his eyes closed. He looked so adorable. I slowly walked to my bed and layed besides him. I turned the lights off and cuddled with him.
Shawn: " I taught it was gonna be a quick shower"
Me: " Well that was faster than all of the showers you take together" he laughed and wrapped his arms around me.
Shawn: " I love you"
Me: " I love you too" I still didn't know if I really meant it.

Friday morning
I woke up to see Shawn looking at me.
Me: " Well that's not creepy "
Shawn: " Is just that you look so beautiful as you rest, and I fall in love with every breath you take and I know you stare at me also " i smiled and kissed him.
Me: " I do not"
Shawn: " Yes you do"
Me: " Okay only once"
Shawn: " Okay if you say so"
Thursday had gone by really fast and it was now friday the day of the party.
I didn't have class today which I was thankful for because that will give me time to get ready.
Shawn: " So wanna go out and eat breakfast and walk around?"
Me: " Sure, where are we going?"
Shawn: " Does waffle house sound good?"
Me: " Yep"
We both took a quick shower and headed to waffle house. After we where done eating we walked around going to different stores I had never seen before. It was already 3:45pm so we decided to head to get ready for the party. When we got to the dorm I got my dress out of the closet. I went to the restroom and began getting ready. I put the dress on and the gloves and I just looked at myself in the mirror. I saw a different girl I wasn't the same I used to be. I began curling my hair I decided to let it loose. For a last touch I put blood red lipstick. I put my mask on and went to the room.
Shawn: " Wow"
Me: " Whats wrong?"
Shawn: " You look so sexy" i blushed a little and walked to him.
Me: " Well you don't look so bad yourself"
Shawn: " I am being serious, I can't believe I am your boyfriend I am the luckiest guy ever"
Me: " That's not true"
Shawn: " What?"
Me: " I am the luckiest girl"
Shawn: " i still think I am the lucky one.....So do you think we should tell Logan about us, I dont think its good that I am lying to my friend"
Me: " Sure, but we have to be seattle I don't want him to feel hurt"
Shawn: " Okay"
Me: " I already texted him and told him to meet us here so we can go together "
Shawn: " Sounds good"
Me: " So you wanna watch a movie while we wait?"
Shawn: " Sure"
Me: " Does a Harry Potter movie sound good "
Shawn: " It sounds great" we began watching the movie and thirty minutes later someone knocked on the door. I opened it and there was Logan.
Logan: " Julia, you look......wow......i mean beautiful " he gave me a hugged and walked in.
Shawn: " Hey Logan"
Logan: " Hey Shawn....so shall we go now?"
Me: " Actually before we go, there is something we need to tell you" Shawn walked to me and put his arm around me.
Me: " Me and Shawn are now in a relationship "
Logan: " What!?"
Shawn: " She's my girlfriend"
Logan: " Why him?"
Me: " Logan please, let's just go to the party and have fun"
Logan: " Okay"
Me: " I am sorry"
Shawn: " I am gonna call a cab" shawn went to the balcony and it was only me and Logan.
Logan: "I just don't understand ..... Will I ever find love"
Me: " Yes you will, you have the sweetest heart and I know that she is out there.....you just need to keep looking"
Logan: " Thank you, and I am happy for you"
Me: " Thanks"
Logan: " How do I get a girl to like me"
Me: " Be yourself, and just start with hello"
Logan: " Thanks again"
Shawn: " The cab will be here any minute"
Me: " Okay" I went to the restroom and applied some more lipstick and then we headed down to the cab.
The ride to the party was about twenty minutes away. When we got there, it was just liked I had imagined it. It look like a castle. When we walked in we saw people with different masquerades of diffrent colors. We sat on a table besides the dance floor.
Logan: " I am gonna go get us some drinks"
Me: " Okay" I turned to see shawn and he was smiling at me.
Shawn: " Wanna dance"
Me: " Sure let's go" the dance floor was full but somehow we got to the middle of it.
We dance for about ten minutes until they said to change partner's.
A girl came and took Shawn, I just giggled because I saw the face Shawn put. I was turning to go but someone pulled my arm. It was a guy and he was wearing a gold masquerade.
" Julia "
Me: " Ansel" He grabbed my hand and put in over his shoulder. He put is hand on my waist and we began dancing.
Ansel: " You look beautiful "
Me: " Thanks"
Ansel: " I have to tell you something "
Me: " I need to tell you something also"
Ansel: " Go ahead"
Me: " No it's fine you go first"
Ansel: " Okay well.....I asked Shailene to marry me....what you said was true that baby is my responsibility and maybe that baby can help me love her...not like I loved you or still love you but in a way that can help us be a family" Before I could say anything about it I heard someone yell his name. I was surprised for the words that had came out of his mouth.
Ansel: " What did you wanna tell me?"
Me: " That....ummm I would like us to friends "
Ansel: " Really??"
Me: " Yeah"
Ansel: " Thank you" he was about to kiss me but didn't.
Ansel: " Sorry.....so do you wanna say hi to Shailene?"
Me: " I am actually pretty thirsty so I guess maybe later"
Ansel: " Okay"

So Julia decided not to tell Ansel. But there is still many chapters to come so maybe she will maybe she won't. Please vote if you like the chapter and comment any ideas for future chapters:)

Have a tremendous day or night
- J