If Only ( Joe Sugg Fanfiction) |DISCONTINUED|

Chapter 20

After our meal, we all went to Tyler's apartment. Tyler and I just thought of some video ideas while everyone else did their own stuff.

"How about a dare video?" I suggested.

"Nah. How about we do the 7 second challenge?" Tyler asked.

"Sure!" I rsponded as we whipped our phones out to write some things to do. When I finished, Tyler was still typing. I put at least 7 down.

"DONE!" Tyler yelled, giving me a heart atack.

"What the fuck! You almost killed me!" I yelled, making everyone else in the room laugh. After Tyler caught his breath, I took my camera out. I sat everything up and got everyone off the couch and somewhere else. Tyler took a seat on the couch while I hit the record button. I took a seat right next to him.

After we recorded, we all just hung out. I got a scratch on my knee because of the HUGE pile of people in the front of Tyler and I. Tyler told me to get him a pickle in 7 seconds, and instead of getting him a pickle, I tripped. What happened was Joe threw his leg right in front of me. What an AMAZING boyfriend I have! ._.

Soon enough, we decided to go abck to our hotel rooms around 5:00. When Joe and I got into the room, he jumped into the shower.

"Love, I'm going to Zoe's room," I lied. I was really going to buy a pregnancy test. I didn't want Joe to know if I was pregnant or not.

"Okay, stay safe. Oh and I'm going over to Connor's to film a video," Joe said. I ran out the door right after he stopped talking. I took the bus to a pharmacy. I bought the pregnancy test and rode in the bus back to the hotel.

On the whole ride back to the hotel, I was shaking. I bet the other people in the bus could practically feel me shaking from their chairs. I openned the door, and took the pregnancy test.

"I'm pregnant," I said as 1,000 tears came running down my face. It couldn't be. I jumped onto the bed and cried my eyes out. This couldn't he happening. Not me. This terrible.

The only reasons why I was so devastated was because I knew my mom was going to kill me and I was terrified about what Joe was going to say. I was afraid he was going to leave me.

After an hour of crying into a pillow, I decided I needed to tell Zoe. I called her, and told her to go to my room ,alone. After about a minute, Zoe knocked. I opened the door, and she saw the tears running down my face. She just pulled me into a hug.

"What's wrong?" Zoe asked me as we took a seat on the bed.

"I- I- I'm pregnant," I said as more tears started rolling down my face. Those words still felt like a lie.

"It's okay!" Zoe comfoted me.

"Zoe! WHAT IS JOE GOING TO SAY? WHAT IF HE LEAVES ME FOREVER? I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE! I'M TIRED OF BEING ALONE! I'M TIRED OF BEING ALONE WHILE EVERYONE IS LIVING HAPILY WITH THEIR COMPANION!" I shouted.

"Calm down, Madi. You still need to confirm it with a doctor, and everything your saying is complete crap. Joe loves you so much. And I know he's going to be so happy," Zoe said, holding me in her arms tears still racing down my cheeks.

We just sat there dojng nothing for about 20 minutes until I got a text from Joe. "Hey ,love. Want to go out for dinner tonight? xx" I smiled at the text, but I knew if I went, I wouldn't be able to keep my pregnancy a secret. I wasn't planning on telling him quite yet. I didn't want to tell him I was pregnant until I confirmed it with a doctor.

I replied," No thanks. I just wanna stay in the room for the rest of the day. xx" I threw my phone onto the bedside table and shoved my face into a pillow. After another 20 minutes, Zoe deiced to leave because Alfie and her were going on a date.

I got a text. I grabbed my phone and looked at who it was. Rex? He was asking if Casey was with me. I searched my brain for reasons why he would want Casey. He broak her heart. Moments later, Joe walked in. He jumped on the bed right next to me and put his arm around my waist.

"Hey, love," Joe said, kissing my forehead.

"Hi," I said. It was the only thing I said.

Joe's P.O.V

Hi was all she said. Usually, she would say something more stupid, and that's what I like about her. She was never afraid to be herself.

"I'm gonna use the bathroom," I said, walking into the bathroom.  I couldn't believe what I saw. It was a box for a pregnancy text. I picked up the box and walked into the bedroom. Once Madi saw what I was holding, her jaw dropped.

"What's this?" I asked, seeing the tears in her eyes. Soon, those tears made a guest appearance. Her tears made me feel so weak like they were my own tears. Then, Madi started sobbing. Her tears were one of my weaknesses, but I just couldn't believe it.

Madi's P.O.V

I didn't know what to say or do. I did the only thing I could, cry. I cried my eyes out. Joe just stood there. Tears in his eyes, but he wasn't letting them out. This scared me.

"Why didn't you tell me immediately?" Joe asked with anger in his voice. I opened my mouth, but nothing came out.

"I can't believe you! I can't be a father, and you especially can't be a mother! Just look at yourself! You can't love for a child if you can barely love yourself!" Joe yelled. The last part really hurt me. I'm not technically in love with my body. But I try so hard to love myself and I put in so much effort, and I though I was at the point where I truly loved myself, but Joe just had to ruin it.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU! YOU'RE NOT THE ONE WHO HAS TO CARY A FUCKING BABY FOR FUCKING 9 MONTHS! IF YOU DIDN'T WANT ME TO BE A MOTHER THAN YOU SHOULD OF LEFT A LONG TIME AGO! AND INSTEAD, YOU SHOULD OF SHOVED YOUR FUCKING DICK INTO CASEY'S FUCKING VAGINA INSTEAD OF MINE WHEN YOU HAD THE CHANCE! I DON'T DATE BITCHY DICKS LIKE YOU!" I yelled. Joe just stood there.

"FINE! IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WANT, THAN I MIGHT JUST DO THAT!" Joe yelled as he took all his crap and left.

"Joe," was all I said before I fell to the floor and fainted.

A/N

OMG. You guys don't even know how painful this was to write. The sad parts usually take a LOT longer to write because it hurts SOO much! So yeah! Buh-bye! xxx