If Only ( Joe Sugg Fanfiction) |DISCONTINUED|

Chapter 31

It had been a few days since Erika was born and we were still in the hospital. We had  to stay longer than usual because Erika was an early baby, so she wasn't  fully developed.

Giving birth to Erika was the most painful thing I've ever felt. I can't even describe how much I just wanted to grab a knife and kill myself. When I first held Erika in my hands, I couldn't stop myself from crying. She was absolutely gorgeous. All the pain was worth it though!

"Ms. Delist?" I heard my doctor cal. "I'm happy to announce that you will be discharged with Jane later today," he finished. I looked over at Joe who was smiling a crap ton.

"Jane? We named her Erika," I said in confusion.

"That's not what your boyfriend put on her birth certificate," the doctor said. I took a deep breath and let it all out.

"Can I talk to Joe alone real quick?" I asked, sitting up to face Joe. "Joeseph Graham Sugg, what the bloody hell did you do?" I asked as Joe laughed a bit.

"Did you just say bloody because the last time I checked you're Amer- Joe said before I cut his rambling off.

"Joe! I'm asking you a question!" I said.

" I didn't actually like the name Erika. I wanted our first child's name to start with a J!" Joe said making me giggle a bit. I actually had no idea why I was laughing. Soon enough, we were both laughing.

"What the hell are we even laughing about?" I asked once I stopped laughing.

" How should I know," Joe laughed, getting a little closer to me.

"You're the weirdest and stupidest guy I've ever laid my eyes on, but that's why I love you," I laughed, planting a warm, genuine kiss onto Joe's smooth lips.

~A Few Hours Later~

"Madison Delist, you're free to go now," a nurse said, holding our precious little Jane in her arms. I still can't believe what Joe did, but who gives a fuck! Well, I do. WHO CARES I'M FREEEEEEEEE! I held her in my arms as Joe walked over to me, wrapping his arm around my waist.

We got up and and got all my stuff and walked out of the bustling hospital. Joe lead the way to the pick up zone in front of the hospital. Caspar was there in my car with the biggest smile I've ever seen him pull.

"OH MY GOD MADI! Erika is so adorable!" Caspar squealed, running out of the car and to Joe and I.

"Her name isn't actually Erika," Joe trailed off.

"What?" Caspar said in deep confusion.

"Joe didn't like the name Erika, so when he was filling out her birth certificate, he put down Jane because he's a conceded little dick who wanted our first child's name start with a J like his name," I laughed as Joe just stood there embarrassed by his selfishness.

"Wow, Joe. I knew you were stupid, but not that stupid!" Caspar commented.

"Oh shut up! Let's just go now!" Joe said, lifting Jane from my arms and to her car seat that Caspar brought even though I was 99.9% sure he was going to forget it. Joe hopped into the passenger seat while Caspar drove and I was with Jane. We pulled up into the driveway as I held little Jane's tiny little hand.

Joe hopped out of the car first, and helped me out and then got Jane. We walked into our home and I smiled. I was just so happy that Joe and I officially are parents with a somewhat healthy baby. We needed to watch over her all the time just in case something happens because once again she is an early baby.

I ran into Joe and I's room and plopped down on our soft, queen-sized bed. I was followed by Caspar and Joe with Jane. Joe plopped her onto our bed and smiled. Jane was already asleep. She's like a bat already just like her parents! I picked Jane up and plopped her onto her crib while Caspar, Joe and I talked on the couch just like old times.

Memories from when I still had my feelings hidden from Joe and confused about my whole life. The three of us would spend hours just talking about anything and everything and I loved every second of it.

After about an hour, I walked back into Jane's room and took a picture of her. As I took the picture, realized she had a ton of hair. Jane's hair was black like mine, but she had beautiful, blue eyes as blue as the ocean just like Joe. Her skin tone was more like Joe's than mine. I have pretty dark skin compared to Joe thanks to the Philippines and California.

I walked back into the living room where Caspar and Joe were playing FIFA. I rested on the couch and breathed in the cool air, filling our beautiful home.

I laughed as Joe struggled to beat Caspar. Those boys have such a strong relationship. It made me jealous. I never really had any fiends in California besides Casey, but those hard times hit us hard and now things will never be the same.

I moved to California when I was 12 and it was the worst time of my life. All the girls on the street made fun of my dark skin and my bad grammar. At the time, I still was adapting to the English language. My life was already hard enough moving to a new continent, but the girls who lived near me didn't help either.

I never got invited to anything. Everyone treated me like I was invisible. That's why I turned to school. Doing schoolwork and other school related stuff took my mind off everything.

All these memories feel like nightmares. I didn't know how to live my life. My life in the Philippines was much better though. My parents were actually pretty wealthy, and everyone was so friendly. I loved all my neighbors and they loved me.

My parents would tell me to invite my friends and their family for dinner in our backyard every Saturday.

My flashbacks were interupted by some knocking at our front door. I looked over at Joe and he shrugged his shoulders and same with Caspar. Being the scared little kids at heart that we are, all three of us walked slowly to the front door careful not to make a lot of noise. I slowly openned the door, and a face who I planned never to see was standing right in front our face. My mom.

(A/N)

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