If Only ( Joe Sugg Fanfiction) |DISCONTINUED|

Chapter 33

I openned my eyes to see myself in the hospital. This isn't our local hospital in London. I sat up and looked around. Taking a step onto the tile floor, I walked up to the window. The view. It was definitely not the view you would find in London or anywhere in England!

I was in Los Angeles. Feeling the heat of L.A made me almost die. The heat isn't something I was used to anymore.

"Oh my God! Amanda, call the doctor! She's awake!" My dad yelled, pulling me into a hug.

"What the hell is going on?" I asked, trying to hug back, but my mind was all over the place. Only one thing could pop into my mind. Joe.

"WHERE'S JOE?" I yelled in pain. My heart was beating faster than it takes Caspar to finish a slice of pizza.

"Honey, when you meet someone famous, you don't bring the home with you!" My dad laughed as I just stared at him.

"What?" I said, trying to puzzle what is going on. Moments later, a doctor and my mom came walking through the door.

"GET AWAY YOU MONSTER!" I yelled, backing away from my mom. She looked just as terrified and confused as me. My mom walked over to my dad, and he held her in his arms. Divorced couples don't do that right?

"What's going on?" I asked, crying my eyes out.

"You were at a book signing for that YouTuber Joe something, and there was an earthquake, and a shelf fell and hit you right in the head. You fell into a coma and here you are now," the doctor said. I couldn't stop myself from crying.

"So I was never in a relationship with Joe Sugg?" I asked, and everyone shook their head. I cried my eyes out.

"You probably were having 'dreams' in your coma. Your mind made everything up," the doctor said. I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. This just can't be true.

"Mom, can you give me your phone?" I asked as she nodded and gave me her phone. I looked at Joe's Instagram. No sign of me. I looked at my Instagram. No sign of Joe. I looked at mine and Joe's YouTube accounts, and once again, no sign of us in a relationship.

"Please take me home as soon as possible," I said before handing my mom's phone back to her. The doctor and nurses took my blood pressure and other shit like that, but I couldn't even remember what they did. The life I thought I lived with Joe was all fake.

~A few Hours later~

We left the hospital, and once we got home, I went straight to my bed. I locked the door, and screamed into one of my pillows.

It was about 1 a.m, and I still haven't slept. I tried to peice my life together, but nothing made any sense. How did my life during my coma feel so real?

The connection I felt with Joe just had to be real. Real. I wanted all of it to be real. Every moment to be real. Even when I almost got hit by a car! Even the time when I was confused about Caspar! Even when Casey and I got into a fight! Even when I was forced to meet up with Alex! Even when my mother almost killed me! I just wanted my life I thought I lived back. Eventually, my my body took over, and I fell asleep.

~A few months later~

I was still hating my life even though a lot of time had passed. This crap just really got to me. I'm not even kidding, I was insane. I was having hallucinations about Joe still loving me. It felt like my life was over. O V E R Over.

"C'mon Madi! Just please go! Move out! Make a video or two! Please just move on!" my mom cried in fustration. I took a deep breath and crawled through my pig stye of a room and to my closet.

I threw on some clothes and did my makeup. I wanted to show my mom I could still live a life, but inside of me, I knew I couldn't.

I went out the front door and breathed in fresh air. What is my life? I walked around the streets desperate to find something to do. I sat on a beanch at a park.

A guy sat next to me, but I didn't bother looking at who it was.

"Hey," he said. That voice made my heart skip a beat. I looked over at the person. It was Joe.

"I feel like I've seen you around. I'm Joe Sugg," Joe said, holding out his hand for me to shake. I shook it, but my hands were extremely clammy.

"Oh, and I'm-" I said before getting cut off by Joe kissing me. I couldn't stop myself. This made no sense at all.

"MADI" I heard Joe yell. I openned my eyes and saw I was just on the floor in our house. Wait. In our house. On the floor. I could feel the cold tiles. I could feel them. This is had to be my real life.

"JOE!" I yelled, pulling him into a hug.

"Wow. How are you? Can you remember anything that happened?" Joe asked, helping me stand up. I looked around no sign of Casey or Alex.

"Yeah, but where's Casey and Alex?" I asked in confusion.

"What do you mean? They were never here," Joe responded in deep confusion.

"About 5 minutes ago, your mum tried to shoot us, an-" Joe said before I cut him off.

"I remember that! By any chance, did Zoe save the day some how?" I asked, confusing everyone around me.

"Me saving the day? You're speaking crap!" Zoe laughed.

"Right before your mom shot you, she had heart atack," Joe said.

"Oh my God. Is my mom okay?" I asked as an officer walked over to us.

"She's fine, but she is facing some time in the prison cell, the officer said. "Please just keep an eye out for any mysterious figures," the officer said. walking back to her car. Caspar, Joe, Zoe, and I awkwardly walked back to the living room. We just sat there. Eventually, I broke the silence.

"Hey, Zoe. Where's Alfie?" I asked, turning on the T.V.

"Oh, he's with Poppy. They wanted to have some sibling time," Zoe laughed.

"I'm going to go get Jane," I said, getting up.

"Jane? I thought her name was Erika," Zoe said, standing up as well. We walked down the hallway to Jane's room.

"Joe didn't like the name Erika, so he changed it to Jane on the birth certificate because he is a selfish little brat," I laughed, picking Jane up. I gave Jane to Zoe. She was still asleep.

"Madi, can I tell you something?" Zoe asked, sending chills down my spine.

"Uh, sure," I responded, hearing shuffling near the door.

"I- I'm pregnant," Zoe said as Joe walked away.

(A/N)

So uh. This chapter didn't make a ton of sense... WHATEVER!