Scars(Ethan & Grayson Dolan)

Chapter 1 part 4

I get to school the next morning feeling anxious about everything I mean I haven't had a crush in a long time let alone someone the shares my same umm life style i like to say plus i spoke no one understands how much it takes for me to speak

But once i do u can't shut me up soo it one on the other

I smile putting my shoes on and realising I'm not going to be in the house with these people for a beautiful 7 hours

What a life

When school is something you look forward to

Can we talk about how I have no friends and that all i wanna do is kiss Ethan

No

Yes

I feel like Dora the fucking explorer

Fuck that shit lets get to the school day where shit goes down

I see him as i walk in and he looks at me but I don't know what to say or do and it's anything by never do anyway I looked down at my books not know knowing what to do because I was being stared up very hard by him

Lesson two break was really awkward

I walk in not having this subject yesterday this is my first lesson

"Who would you like to sit next to " the teacher whispers in my ear

I shrug looking around I noticed Ethan wasn't in this lesson so I don't care if I sit by myself

I pointed to the empty seat next to the heater who could turn that down its soo warm

"Um Ethan sits there but you can sit beside him or swop with him when he comes in "

I shake my head telling him I don't want to sit there

"Go on he doesn't bite"

I shake my head more

"You sure"

He comes closer than anyone living my life style I need someone to talk to someone to sit next to I don't know what to do right now

I sort of turn and head to the girls to
me that they were just looking at me as to say don't sit next to him because I don't know what else to do I'm in a lot of panic I might have to speak to him if i sit there that's just not me I don't speak to people

Im that girl that everyone thinks doesn't speak

It not going to well and I think to myself what could be so bad what could happen that would make me really not want to run and jump out the building and I don't wanna be her now and I haven't even done anything that's so embarrassing

I was the first one out of that lesson running to the toilets

I put some black air maxes on (as they are much  more comfortable) and change my hairstyle I don't know if this meets new look needy like I'm trying to impress someone or...

"Oh it's that girl from yesterday I hope she's not trying to look good for anyone that would be a bad mistake "

"Shut the fuck up!" I cover my mouth nope it's either go big or go home "you're so fucking annoying why does it matter what i do is that what make you feel good about myself putting other people down I've been here for not even a full two days and you've made me feel like shit" i said that i just spoke I leave her astonished

"Listen bitch don't you ever talk to me like that again " she stands In front of me

"Make me" i say through my teeth then she slaps me across the face a race of adrenaline comes i slap her but this time harder her face had a red hand print on it she fell on the floor as I stepped over her she grabs my leg

"Don't fucking touch me you stupid bitch" I smacked her again

I looked up to see you principle and Ethan

Fuck

Fuck

Kicked out on the second day

First fight on the second day

First day my crush saw me slap his brothers girlfriend