Scars(Ethan & Grayson Dolan)

Chapter 7 part 2

After completing a crazy four pages of questions we get to leave I wanted to find a corner to hug and kiss Ethan i missed his touch and his right in front of me

Walking out to the hallway and the doors separate the boys from girls

This is the only time I'm going to see him

"Sidney to the Office " a lady stands out side her room calling me

"Thats me"

"Oh come in"

"Hi"

"Hello I'm Helen I would like to ask you some questions first of all do know why your here?"

"Because I'm depressed"

"Good now have you ever tried to commit suiside ?"
"Why and how?"

"I cut my wrist very deeply and bled out on my bathroom floor and because i was unhappy"

"About what?"

"My life my mum my dad my mum my boyfriend school everything"

"What about your family dynamic do you not like ?"

"My mums an alcoholic her boyfriend is a weed head my dad never talks to me "

"And what is the name of your mothers boyfriend"

"Paul staton " she writes this down and now i know his in trouble

"What about school makes you feel so bad"

"Girls just hate me "

"In what situation was this?"

"I've had two fights in a school that I've been going to for one school year"

"Why did they want to fight you?"

"Jealous of what I don't know because i have nothing "

"Thats not true you have me i will look after you what do you want the outcome to be of this stay"

"For me to leave happy with a plan of what i want to do in my life"

"I want that for you" she smiles calling susan to take me on a tour

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Two months later

I've got used to it here the time table never changes

And because of how well I've done in all my therapy classes they allow me to help others on different wards well only ward 1 which is the Eating disorder ward i get on with the girls there more than ward 2 because our differences make us able to talk about a lot more people that are in  exact same position as you

Mean even seeing each other all the time in group therapy and most of the time work together as well us being together is still a secret and shall remain that way

I've seen a difference in him

We are no longer leaning on each other for support we have therapy for that we now love each other because we couldn't see ourselves doing anything else better

Todays the day we memorised the toilet check schedule and know that it's looked in every 40 minutes the tutor has just looked in that means we have 40 minutes to do whatever we want even though I really shouldn't be in the boys toilet or even the boys side of the ward

"Sidney" he pulls me into to cubicle "I've missed this"

"I've missed you" i kiss him

I started a make out until we couldn't breathe anymore heavily breathing to catch my breath

"Are you ok?" He looks down at me worried

"Yeah" i look up at him just excited as hell

"Sidney "

"Lets do it"

Pulling me into a corner toilet we start tugging on each other's pants as we kissed

"fuck Sidney" he says entering me

I let out a moan as he continues stepping forward i bend holding on to the sides of the doors

"Fuck Ethan"

I missed this the most

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I kiss him leaving
"See ya next session" i saw running back to my area

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Me and Helen are getting along like i go to her three times a week and i cry at least once a week

At first I thought I really was messed up but that I thought about it crying is normal talking about your feelings is normal

I'm working on my self esteem mostly in art class

Like every class we do is a type of therapy

We answer questions and draw about it

All classes except group therapy is girls and i have to say come from a long chain of getting bullied no ones like that here

But that doesn't mean we all get along either

We basically do
Art
Drama
Group
Individual
And family
Therapy

Not that i do the family one other than this we can go to our rooms that are basically checked every day for self harming contraband

I read now a lot