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The True Story
"I guess no one will build a lego house with me."
It was really. . .uuuugh!
Where the hell did he get my freaking number? Hindi ako nakatulog nung gabing 'yon. Takte. Tapos 'yong text niya talaga ang huling nakita ko sa phone bago ito namatay. Ugh.
Pagkagising ko ng umaga, naalala kong nag-charge pala ako kagabi ng phone ko. Naiwan ko itong naka-charge! Muntik nang lumubo ang battery pero Buti na lang maaga akong nagising. Binasa ko ulit 'yung text ng mokong na iyon na hindi ko kilala dahil bf ko na raw siya agad kahit hindi ko pa alam ang pangalan niya. Who the hell will care about his name? Takte.
Nag-iinit ang ulo ko sa tuwing pumapasok sa isip ko 'yung pagmumukha niya. Kung may lisensya ako para pumatay, baka binabaon na siya ngayon sa lupa.
From +639876543210
Cupcake ko, good night. Labyu. :) sweat dreams. Don't let the bed bugs bite. Labyu, labyu, labyu, maraming labyu!
Takte.
I deleted it immediately. Pagkatapos kong basahin ito ng mga 3.2654798 minutes, may pumindot nung nag-doorbell. Wala pa akong ayos noon at binuksan ko ang pintuan.
I was shocked when I saw a coward's face. I rolled my eyes and closed the door.
"Teka muna, Kenne! Buksan mo ang pinto!" he yelled tapping the door. How the hell did he know my name?
Dahil sa kakulitan at sobrang determination, napilitan tuloy akong pumasok sa isang laro. Kung saan ako sang bida at ako rin ang kontrabida. Nagce-celebrate kami ng monthsary - este siya lang, pero noong 7th monthsary namin kuno, sinagot ko na siya.
Hindi ko nga alam sa sarili ko kung anong pumasok sa isip ko para magawa ko 'yun e. Well, I trust him. Mabait naman siya. Pero para sagutin ko siya dahil mahal ko siya? Not really. Siguro inafatuation lang nung una. But as time passes by, the getting to know each other stage made me fall for him.
'Yes – I let him enter my heart; and trust him that he won't break it. But. . .'
Sabi niya, ililibre raw niya ako dahil sinagot ko na siya. So being the malandi in the making dahil may tunay na bf na, sumama naman ako.
Pumunta kami sa isang mamahaling restaurant, syempre being me, japorbs pa ako noon bago pa ako naging super yaman kaya it was really uneasy to me. But anyway, it was really an epic day. The first day of my relationship with this stranger was epic.
Nakalimutan niya ang wallet niya! Takte 'no? So, noong babayaran na niya iyong in-order niya, sabi niya, "Pa-serve naman po doon sa may table saka ko po babayaran."
Pero ang ginawa niya, kumuha siya ng straw, hinila ako palabas ng restaurant para makatakas sa bill at bumili kami ng. . . Samalamig, dalawa! Tig-isa kami.
5 pesos lang naman iyon e.
Pero hindi pa natatapos doon. Umulan ng malakas at nasiraan kami ng sasakyan sa gitna ng daan. So ang ginawa ko, tinulak ko ang kotse niya habang siya nakaupo sa may driver seat, NAGPAPAKASARAP. Syete. Basang-basa na ako sa ulan. Pero okay lang. Ganyan talaga iyan, gusto niya akong nakitang nahihirapan. Madali niya akong mahanap, madali niyang nakukuha ang gusto niya. Pero, mahal ko iyan kahit ganyan siya. Bakit kaya? Ewan lang. Yieee... keleg eke.
Kaya ang ginawa ko, sinabi ko sa kanya na ako na ang magda-drive at siya naman ang magtulak. Kala niya hindi ako marunong mag-drive. Che! Mahiya siya. Simula noong nalaman niyang marunong akong mag-drive, ako na palagi ang nagda-drive kapag may hang-out kami. Leche.
Naging kaklase ko rin siya nung 3rd year college. He also took up engineering. Para walang LDR. Then, I realized na. . . Babaero rin pala 'to. Syete.
I also found out that he is a taekwondo champion. Black belter champion. So almost everyday, nandoon ako sa gym naghihintay sa kanya hanggang matapos ang practice. I love watching him. Co'z I love him. Charot.
But when the day of his competetion came, - and that is also the day before October 26, 2014>our monthsary, he promised that he will win that contest and he did. But. . .
He also show me his parents after the contest that were there to support him.
But I found out that his father. . .
IS ALSO MY BIOLOGICAL FATHER. Kasama ang pinakilalang mother ni Moises, which is My Father's evil ex na nag-imbyerna ng buhay namin nila Mommy.
Syempre, after shaking hands, with his parents, kainis hindi man lang ako na-recognize ng ama ko, I WALKED AWAY.
Kaya pala pareho kami ng apelyido.
Kaya pala mas gusto ni Papa ko kay evil ex. (kasi nakwento sa 'kin ni Moises na siya ay anak sa pagkadalaga ng ex ni papa at ang ama niya ay ama ko rin. Nalaman ko ring nabuntis ni papa iyon before silang magpakasal ni mama. Saklap!)
Kaya pala pareho sila ng ugali ni Papa.
The next day, our anniversary, I was just. . .
Crying. Crying. Crying. CRYING.
Alot.
For minutes. Hours. Days. Weeks. Months.
ITS. . .
B.i.t.t.e.r.s.w.e.e.t.
Masaya ako kasi nakita ko nanaman siya, inis kasi parang hindi niya ako kilala (I don't know why, siguro matagal na niya akong hindi nakita kaya hindi na niya ako matandaan.) Lungkot kasi,
. . .doon na pala magtatapos ang lahat.
Iniyakan ko iyon ng SEVEN months. I guess it's not 8, kasi walang INFINITY. walang FOREVER. Bitter na kung Bitter.
"Pero sorry kayo, forever is just a word. It do exist just for imagination."
One day, I explained to him thru text why I walked away and cries alot. He understand. So as a reply, he texted,
From +639ek-ek
Cupcake ko, good night. Labyu. :) sweat dreams. Don't let the bed bugs bite. Labyu. 4evermor. Tulog na ako.
Yah, same message. Because that message is the first of the firsts.
I slightly smile despite of crying, when I read his hashtag and added message saying,
#SorryForEverythingItsSerendipitysFaultForUToMoveOnIWillGoToStates
Hoy, cupcake GM 'to hindi para sa iyo iyan, huwag assuming.
I smiled. But that smile turn to 'ngiwi'.
I love him. . .so much.
So, "I let him to enter my heart. And trust it to him that he won't break it. But. . .destiny broke it. Into pieces. That's why I'm desperate for love. I need someone to fixed me. But I guess no one can built a Lego House with me."
That explains my feeling until right now, "I was longing someone because I lost someone."
I became desperate for love, doon ko nakilala si Leny. Pareho na kami. HOPELESS ROMANTIC.
BIKTIMA AKO NG FORBIDDEN LOVE. NG ISANG DESTINY'S GAME.
Pero now, he's here, I'm on his apartment. Seeing him and loving him as a step-brother is quite uneasy, so I see him as my Past's Stranger.
And. . .
"Despite of sweetness, there's always a hint of bitterness."
