Why everything is so exciting?

Part 2. Chapter 5.

Lord, I'm back in this restaurant. I think that soon I will be here in person to know .. I was approached by a waiter.
- You table as usual? - And there is already know ...
- Yes please. - I smiled and the waiter took me to the table and helped to sit up. This time I came before Rufus, simply because it did not want to stay at home and listen to the millionth time that my husband has a talent ... I ordered coffee, which I have brought in a few minutes. Surprisingly, it is very tasty. I took a sip and just stared at me standing in front of an empty chair .. I grinned and buried her face in her hands, I do not even know what he was going to say and that scared me more than anything else ...
Somewhere in an hour, after I came back to the cafe showed up, and Rufus. I did not see it because I was too busy wiping their eyes hole in the chair. I noticed it only when, instead of a tree in my eyes he appeared, I looked up and stared into his eyes. He wanted to smile, but I forbade him to do so.
- So what the conversation? - I took a sip of coffee, quite forgetting that it is a cold and coughed - I'm sorry ..
- Nothing ... Lil, you know that Klirisa ...
- Humphrey, I know very well. I know you better than you know yourself .. You do not have to strain, and so I know that you are now prompted to leave ... - after the spoken words I hardly dared look into his eyes ... The room was so quiet it seemed, it hurt my ears ... It is strange that now the restaurant is empty, usually at this time, it is teeming with visitors ...
I looked into his eyes and was looking for an answer.
- Do not be silent, I beg you. Tell me at least something. Tell me I'm right or wrong. But do not be silent. Waiting a hundred times more painful truth. So even though I have no hope .. - he looked at me and grinned.
- Lil..vse not so bad as you believe. Do you want to tell you about my yesterday ..? - And then I got the idea that last night we called up ..
- Come on, rosskazhi than you've been busy all day, and all night? He asked for forgiveness from his wife?
- You could say that .. - I propped my head and looked at his hand a cup of coffee which was stirring the already parted sugar
- I can imagine. Lord, Humphrey, for you called me here to this? - I looked at him sharply.
- No, just listen. It all started with the fact that Clarissa said she was pregnant ..
- Strange, I thought that this was the end .. - I took again for the spoon but he looked up and said, passing by the waiter that he would have brought me a new coffee ...
- Lil you even listening to me? - Rufus asked when I brought coffee and I thank the waiter, holding a cup on the table, he said:
- Listen, of course, say .. - Rufus sighed and looked at me .. - Listen to me .. - I again took hypnotize cup, now, hot coffee .. I just wanted to delay his story as much as possible on longer, at least as it would not know the truth .. but pull on already no where else to Rufus angry ..
- So, you're one of the few know how I feel about children, that's why we could not be together ... Clarissa long. For a long time I refused to go to the hospital, and I am increasingly insisted. I know the term is still small but ultrasound is necessary now, that to know how the fetus is developing and whether she did give birth.
- Short ..
- I'll try .. We went to the hospital yesterday. And I knew that Clarisse is not pregnant .. - I knew that this was not surprised, but simply said - Yeah - continuing to stir the sugar.
- Van der Woodsen, leave the cup alone and look at me. - I felt his voice notes of protest actions and raised my head, because I loved this crazy ... I even smiled a little ..
- So what now?
- You're like a strange react, that your beloved wife is not pregnant ..
- How do I even respond? Besides ... I knew it .. - in a restaurant again Postan silence ..
- Did you know? - I heard the indignant voice of Rufus.
- Yes. On the day when we learned about before coming to you, I have heard talk of William and Clarissa. Your wife is too stupid to think of it that alone did William ..
- I can not believe my ears and you are silent? - He did not even shouted a lot, from what I looked up ...
- What am I supposed to say? I did let you go. I gave you another chance! - The answer is also not a lot of high tone ..
- To hell with the chance, Lily, you lied to me again! Again! Do not you ponimesh that all secrets eventually destroy everything.
- As I was supposed to do? Pridtri and say, "You know, your wife is not pregnant ha ha ha" ridiculous Humphrey. In addition, when? It's not a phone conversation, and you're too keen on ..
- As a child, Rhodes, which does not even exist! - I lowered my eyes and just at that moment realized how much I was to blame, but how could I do otherwise? - I just did not want to ruin your marriage!
- What is a marriage? My marriage has long destroyed! He'd lasted only through the child, but you did not want to part with William. You again, Lily, again, you're trying to choose! You know. I'd better go, I called William and said that soon leaves Clarissa is also flying to Spain to his brother that he would consider our relationship .. .. And that's what I'll be better, too, is missing in your life. Stay alone with himself. And decide already at last. Make a choice that you should have done 25 years ago. Do it again. Choose between untalented musician and a doctor who saves the world .. - these words Rufus stood up from his chair and headed for the door .. I just looked after him in the hope that he would return .. But he did not look back ... He came out of the restaurant and I again began to look at a cup of coffee.