Ryan's POV
I sat in her room and watched her sleeping, quiet, peaceful, calm...
Images of my wife frantically fighting the nurses hadn't left my mind either, psychosis,the word was circling around in my head "Ryan?" Stella's voice whispered behind me "What happened?" she leant down and gave me a hug, I wish I had the energy to move off the chair.
"She's developed something called Postpartum Psychosis..." I reply before being cut off.
"Psychosis" Stella repeated, she shook her head "No, that's ridiculous..."
"Let Ryan finish sweetheart" Frank interrupted Stella so I could try and explain.
"Apparently it's all to do with hormones, and can develop out of the blue" My voice was shakey.
"I don't believe it" Stella protested against what I was telling her.
"I've seen her Stella, she lost it completely" tears forced their way to the front of my eyes as I fought them "They had to restrain her and then sedate her"
"What made her lose it like that, i don't understand" Stella paused and looked at Frank.
"She's got it in her head that the twins are dead" even saying the words didn't make it any more real to me, I was still struggling to believe this was happening myself.
"What?" Stella was horrified "Did you take her to see them?"
"That's what started it" I nod "She thought they were someone else's"
"Well how long will it last? Is it permanent?" Stella reeled off one question after another.
"I don't know, the doctor said hopefully it will only be temporary" I explained the best I could.
The sound of Abi coughing caused us all to turn quickly "Hey baby how are you feeling?" I asked as I watched her look around.
"I'm fine" She replied quickly.
"Hey honey" Stella rushed forwards and hugged Abi tightly.
"Hi Mom" Abi looked up at me and frowned I could tell she wasn't happy Stella was here.
"Hey beautiful" Frank kissed the top of Abi's head.
"Ryan honey you look exhausted why don't you go and get some rest? We can sit with Abi for a while" I shake my head, going home is not an option for me right now "Well how about some breakfast then? Take a break sweetie" I look at Abi and she nods.
"You sure you'll be okay?" I ask her, desperate for some reassurance. The image of her outburst was still haunting me.
"Yeah, go and get some food?" Abi smiled weakly, maybe she is okay, maybe she is back to her normal self.
I kissed Abi gently before walking out of the room, Stella waited for me to leave before she started to talk to Abi.
X-x-x
I knew people had realised who I was and I know they had guessed why I was here. I was just praying no-one approached to ask for an autograph or to ask about the twins. I waited for my sandwich and coffee before taking the short walk to the neonatal unit.
The last thing I expected to see when I got there was Stella, Abi and Frank in the room with the twins. I quickly walked in the room "These aren't my babies, my babies are gone" Abi was frantic "Ryan tell her" she sniffed "Ryan"
I heard the doctor walk in behind me "Baby, they are ours" I could see the confusion in her face and it killed me.
"Doctor Murray, help me please I don't understand" Abi sobbed as she looked at me, her mom and dad.
"I know Abi, but you will. This will all get better I promise" I watched as the doctor took a syringe off one of the nurses.
"No...NO THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH ME...NO" Abi started fighting yet again, I rushed forwards to grab her. She lashed out at me violently. I felt her nails burn against my cheek as she scratched me, weakening me enough to get away briefly.
I managed to get her in my arms again "NO, NO stop it" she was fighting hard against me, in the struggle Doctor Murray finally managed to inject Abi with yet another sedative. I picked Abi up and put her on the bed they had wheeled in for her.
I got so lost in trying to restrain my wife I had forgotten her parents were still in the room, they had witnessed the whole thing. Frank was holding Stella in his arms as she watched in shock "Oh Ryan you're bleeding" Stella gasped.
"I don't care" I replied harshly as I quickly wiped it away "What possessed you to bring her here?'
"I just thought maybe if she saw them again she would remember, understand" Stella tried to explain.
"You satisfied now?" I couldn't hold it back, fighting Abi like that almost killed me "I told you what was the matter with her, I explained. She didn't need to go through that again"
"I'm so sorry I didn't think she was that bad"
"Psychosis, which part of that doesn't sound bad to you?" I snap "Do you think it's easy for me? Hearing her deny our children like that? The doctors are concerned she could even harm them"
"What?" Stella gasped.
"Yeah so next time you have a bright idea, keep it to yourself" I turn and walk out of the room.
X-x-x
"Shit Ryan your face" I wasn't expecting to hear Tony's voice behind me "How is she?"
"I wish I knew" I relied honestly.
I had been sat watching Abi sleeping for almost an hour, Stella and Frank had gone for something to eat.
"Stella said things got pretty intense earlier" Tony pulled up a chair and sat beside me "You look exhausted man, why don't you get some rest?"
"She's my wife, I'm not leaving her here like this. She needs me"
"Yeah I get that" Tony smiled.
"Is Stella okay?" My reaction earlier was worrying me "I didn't mean to lash out earlier"
"She's fine, she completely understands. She just feels bad she didn't listen to you...Ryan how bad it this? Honestly?"
"The doctor said she can't be left alone, or she might hurt herself or the twins" these words tasted bitter in my mouth as I said them. Tony didn't reply he just put his hand on my shoulder.
"Leroy's been keeping the press at bay, is there anything you want me to tell them?" I had to think hard for a moment, my instinct was to tell them to fuck of and leave us alone. But I know that's not an option.
"Just confirm that the twins have been born and all is well" The last thing Abi needs is the press getting involved.
I just sat and watched Abi sleeping, trying to figure out what was going on in her head.
