Abigail's POV
I woke up and for a split second...a perfect happy split second I had forgotten.
Forgotten that one of the most amazing men in my life, my best friend, my hero...was gone.
I could feel Ryan's arm across my stomach, the twins were still sleeping in their cribs. I could hear there gentle breaths as I laid still for a few moments. Tears filled my eyes again, I looked at the clock and realised it was only 3.45am, I had been asleep for all of 2 hours.
I turned towards Ryan and closed my eyes trying desperately to fall back to sleep. It was useless, the pain in my chest was hard to bare. I waited a few more moments before realising it was no use, I moved Ryan's arm off my body and climbed slowly out of bed.
My feet shuffled my weight towards the dance studio, I turned on the light and looked around. The white walls and floor, reflected the strip light. I could see my fragile frame in the wall to wall mirrors. I was wearing a grey old tshirt of Ryan's and black lace panties. I walked over to the stereo and turned it on, my ipad was still in the docking station. I flicked through my play lists looking for a particular song, a song which I had known since I was a child. A song my Dad would play all the time as I was growing up...
'At last...my love has come along, my lonely days are over and life is like a song'
The smooth sound of the orchestra playing on the track took me right back to my childhood. I was reminded of the endless evenings when my Dad would pull me onto his feet and dance around the room with me, to this song. I was around 5 or 6.
Then when I got older and finally learned to dance professionally he danced with me to this song and told me how happy he was I didn't need to stand on his feet anymore, I love my dad beyond words and just thinking about him not being around anymore completely took my breath away.
I want to curl up in a ball on the floor, but something inside me kept me up right. I decided to do something my Dad had always admired me for, the one thing that made him prouder than anything else...I started to dance, to move my feet to the sound of the heavenly music.
I got so lost in the song I didn't notice Ryan standing inside the doorway. He leant up against the door frame and just watched me dance.
My Ipod flicked straight onto the next song which was Light Home by Matt Corby, the haunting music had a harsh effect on me instantly. I just stood and listened for a few moments...
'You held me captive, the thief that takes it all...'
I had been frozen to the spot as the music echoed around the studio, my eyes full with tears again as my body swayed. I closed my eyes and could feel Ryan's arms around my waist "It doesn't feel real" I exhale before turning around "I can still see him, dancing with me on his feet. Those disapproving looks he used to give me when a new scandal emerged"
I noticed the corners or Ryan's mouth lift as I spoke about my Dad, he must have remembered those looks he gave me too "Listen baby, no matter what anyone says. Your dad is never going to leave you" Ryan said gently as he looked deeper into my eyes "He will always be in here" he put his hand on my chest over my heart "And that's where he will stay forever"
The track flicks onto another Matt Corby track called Souls A'fire, it's quite a raunchy track. I find myself reaching up and kissing Ryan suggestively, as I reach my hands around Ryan's waist I can feel the baby monitor in his pocket of his jeans. At that very moment it was then I realised we were completely alone in my studio.
I reached over and put the baby monitor on the side next to the stereo and smiled, Ryan smirked before grabbing my waist and kissing me hard. He pushed me back until my body hit the wall, I lost myself in him as I felt his hands move aggressively around my neck and down my hips as he kisses me desperately.
I let out a gasp as he lifts me up off the floor, wrapping my legs around his waist while pushing me further into the wall. The sense of being trapped is enough to push me over the edge, I reach down and unfasten his jeans revealing his length. I bite my bottom lip as I feel him slip inside me, tilting my hips and allowing him to go deeper. I gasp and he forces his tongue inside my mouth, clashing fiercely with mine for a few moments. I can feel his body trembling against mine as he is close to climax, he starts to move fast, pushing himself deeper inside me with every thrust.
My heart is pounding as I too feel myself being tipped over the edge, the love I have for this man is completely overwhelming. I cry out as I reach the brink and he silences me with a hard kiss, I dig my nails hard into his back, almost certain that I have pierced his skin. He grabs my right arm and slams it up against the wall, thrusting deep inside me until he too finds his release. Our hearts pound in Rythym as we both try to catch our breath. Our bodies are sticky, but yet satisfied as he puts my feet back on the ground. I find myself smirking at the realisation of Ryan not even having chance to taking his jeans off properly. After fastening them back up he moved towards me and put a hand on the back of my head pulling me closer to him for a kiss "You coming back to bed?" He whispered. I nodded my head and walked over to the stereo, I turned it off and switched off the light as Ryan led me back to our bedroom by my hand.
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I don't think me nor Ryan expected the twins to sleep for as long as they did, it was 11am when we both woke up again. Ryan's arm draped across my torso as we both gathered ourselves, I felt his hot breath against the skin on the back of my neck. My heart raced and I quickly turned to face him to avoid any lustful feelings taking over "Morning gorgeous" he smiled with his eyes barely open.
"Hey" I reply still half asleep "Shit I need to go and speak to Freya" I get out of bed and pull on some black legging under Ryan's shirt. Rubbing my eyes as I walk sleepily down the hall. To my relief Freya is just waking up "Morning honey"
"Hey Mom" Freya was also sleepy "Is everything okay?"
"Not really baby, I need to tell you something"
