T.C
You know that one person that never leaves your mind. It's like no matter what that person is on your mine. Wether you knew them for ever or for not very long.
I can't get that Shawn boy off my mine. He was so cute, and even though I spent a little bit of time with him. I just could tell he had a bubbly personality. Someone who can make anybody like them. Someone I'm not.
I really need to tell the DNS about my sexuality before they find out from someone else.
I tweeted that I was doing a YouNow in a few minutes, and prepared myself for all the reactions. There will be good ones and probably very harsh ones, and this just gives the haters one more thing to hate me for, but that's ok I have my fans.
I got my lap top and placed it on the bed in front of me. I went to YouNow and started my live broadcast. Within seconds thousand of people where watching, more than usual.
"Hey guys so today's YouNow want be the usual one. I have a very important announcement" I spoke as the comments blew up. "
"So about six months ago I started questioning-" I cut myself off with a deep sigh.
"I've been questioning my sexuality" I say putting my hands together. "And I've come to the conclusion that I am attracted to boys, and if some of y'all don't agree with that then, bye" I wiggled my fingers at the camera.
I didn't even look at the comments instead I just ended the YouNow.
Which leads me to now. I haven't been on Twitter or any social media since last night. Just because I'm scared of all the negative reactions. I really try to ignore the negativity but it's so hard when there's so much.
But like I've said many times before. If I listened to all the bad things I would not be here right now.
S.M
I took it to Twitter to find out what the YouNow was about last night.
@caniff_dailyy (Shawn)
Does anyone know what happened on the YouNow, I missed it. If so slide into the DMs
I tweeted and waited for someone to message me, at least I hope someone does message me. Within minutes I got a long paragraphs of messages. I clicked on the first one I seen and read it.
Message from: @CaniffsHoodie
Hey shawn
Last night during Taylor's YouNow he announced that he was gay. He kinda just ended after that because there was a lot of negative comments, but a lot of people still support him. There's only a handful who don't, so yea that's what happened.
P.S
I love you and your account❤️
Taylor's gay, since when. Why I'm I not surprised by this. I more happy then anything.
I got the home screen button and went to Instagram. My finger tapped the camera thing and I chose a picture of Taylor and me. I'm about to write a long paragraph.
@taylorcaniff
I heard about the YouNow and I just wanted to say that I'm here to support you threw it all, and I can definitely relate with everything. I know how hard it is coming out because you don't know what people will think. Nothing's gonna change the way I feel about I will for ever love you. ~Shawn (I don't know if you remember me) anyways stay strong Tay, you've kept me strong now it's my turn❤️Please tag him
I posted that, I hope he see this I really want him to. I DM'd the same thing on Twitter. Even though I don't have his follow someone put me in a solo DM with him. My messages to Taylor are like my diary. I tell him everything, even though he will never see it.
Depressing I know
I was pulled out my thoughts by a notification. "Wait? What?" I unlocked my phone and went to the message. Taylor just DMd me back. No way this happening.
From @taylorcaniff
Thanks babe, it means a lot and I love you also. And of course I remember you how couldn't I, your beyond beautiful❤️You stay strong for me to. I love you.
To @taylorcaniff
Omg Taylor this made my day. Thank you😊but I'm not that cute, and I love you so so much your my everything
My heart is literally beating a thousand miles per hour. I might just pass out. Taylor called me beautiful.
Why does he do this to me
Filler chapter anywho I'm sorry I haven't updated but stuff is starting to happen. Can y'all tweet that thing up there please and tag me I need to meet Tay and that's my only hope
QOTD: Have you got noticed?
AOTD:
Um Taylor, Cam, and Alyssa (Shouse) Alyssa tweeted me, Noah (Tays friend) DMd me tonight❤️I died😭
