Toy Soldiers {SSoHPKC/Creatures Fan-Fic}

Chapter 30: Don't Make Me Let You Go

»Sophia's POV«

I didn't know if I should scream or cry or go insane, so I called Merel. She told me the usual; if you let something go and it comes back, it's meant to be yours. I don't wanna believe that he might not come back though. I'm so afraid to say I'm scared, but somehow he always knows without me saying. He always could tell when I needed him, and I need him now.

Of course, like I said, he knew that. I heard a light knock at my door.

"What?!" I asked, frustrated and close to tears.

"It's me baby." James spoke through the door. "I'm so sorry. Can I please come in?"

I didn't answer. He said nothing either and I heard him slide down the wall out in the hallway. It was hard to get to my feet because I felt so weak, but I did and I carried myself to the door. I was so close to the handle, but then he started speaking.

"Please, let me in." He said so softly I could cry.

I jerked back from the handle. For some reason, I didn't wanna give in to his begging that easy. Not that I don't love him, but I wanted to know how far he'd go for me.

"I get it. I was drunk and I fucked up, but I won't blame the whiskey. That's not what made me say those things. It was because I was so tense from all the thoughts of losing you. Lately, you've been acting like I'm not even here and you seem scared to even let me touch you. I love you more than life itself. Don't make me set you free, please. I just want to hold you and I want it to be like it used to be. You used to put me before anything else, and I did the same for you. Recently that all fell to the ground and I wanna pick it back up, but only if you let me."

My stomach turned hearing those words. Every word was sweet and I knew it was the truth. For the first time I didn't have to question it because I just knew. I opened the door and fell to the ground next to him. My head found its way into his neck, and I felt him pull me in close.

"I'm sorry." I cried to him. "I'm so damn sorry."

"No, I'm sorry." He replied as he pet my hair.

James placed a finger under my chin and pulled my face up. His dark chocolate eyes were so beautiful. They just ate away at my soul every time I looked at 'em. His hand found its way in my hair and I was pulled closer. Our faces were cenemeters apart. I could feel his warm breathe sinking into my skin.

My eyes closed as he leaned in and placed a gentle kiss upon my lips. It wasn't long, but it wasn't too short that I couldn't savor it. I snuggled into his chest as we sat there on the floor with no other noise except each others breathing. Finally he broke the silence.

"I talked to your older brother when he was here, about something important." He whispered. "He wanted to make sure I loved you, and I do. You're my everything and I don't want to lose you. I can't lose you, so I need to ask you a question."

I looked at him with glassy eyes. "Sure, anything."

He went to his pocket for something. I didn't know what, until I saw a little black box. This couldn't really be happening, could it?

James looked deep into my eyes. "Sophia, will you marry me?"

I was speechless. With happiness filling my bones, I wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Yes, a thousand times yes." I whispered in his ear. "I love you."

"I love you too."

His skin against mine, that's when I felt happy. I let one tear fall out of my eyes as he slipped that ring on my finger. That night we stayed together and never let go of each other. I love him, and now I finally get to love him forever.