Suga's Sister (Book 1)

Chapter 12:

(Fast forward to the Study group/ meeting got 7.)

~huge time skip~

Jade's Pov still:

I finished washing the last dish and handed it to J-hope to dry. The boys and I had just finished having dinner. This this time Jin and I had made spaghetti and meatballs of course I skipped the meatballs, but the guys seemed to like it. While we ate I told the guys all about my first day at school, and told them about all the new friends I had made. They didn't see to surprised by it though and when I mentioned having lunch with the Got7 guys in Seventeen's dorm. I saw Suga's jaw tighten as he exchanged a look with Rapmon who just shook head as if telling Suga to hold in his discontent. But then Hoseok began lecturing me about not going into strange boy's house, especially when there were that many guys present, and about the very real threat of stranger danger and then he told me to be more careful in the future and to not be so trusting when it comes to guys that I don't know all that well. I told him that I understood his concern, but that both the seventeen guys and the Got7 guys were okay and that they were all really nice, so I was perfectly safe with them, but that I would be more careful in the future. Jungkook then backed me up and defended the guys as well, though he too seemed bothered by the fact that I was so willing to follow them up to their dorm that way. So naturally they all nearly had an aneurysm, when I told them that I told them that I was supposed to go to the Got7 boys dorm tonight for our study group. The boys had argued with me, by saying it was not necessary, since I was learning Korean with Jungkook's tutor. But since it was for school they couldn't really argue with me for long, So they let it slide, but Jin was insisting that he or one of the other guys join me tonight, and meet the guys himself, before they would agree to leaving me alone with any of them. So after realizing I would be wasting my time trying to argue with him I just gave up and decided to just to let him tag along. I didn't really think the boys would mind that much if one of the guys had to accompany me to the meeting tonight... and if I had to bring one of them along with me to the Got7 boys dorm then it's best that it is Jin since he would probably be the coolest about the whole thing. Well he would be cooler than Rapmon and Suga anyway. Jhope, V, Jimin and Jungkook are also pretty protective of me, but they are able to control themselves most of the time. But Jimin and Jhope are just so friendly that they would probably just end up befriending the very same guys that they were meant to be protecting me from, and while V is just as friendly, he tends to live in his own little world, so he can come off as a bit clueless from time to time. So I could just imagine him getting all distracted and drifting off in to his own little world instead of paying attention to the guys and I. Suga and Rapmon are usually pretty cool too, but they both are very protective and tend to be fairly hot tempered. So to avoid any tension it's probably best that they just stay home.... and well while Jungkook is like a brother to me, he is also the Got7 guys classmate so too bring him along would be putting him in an awkward situation. So really Jin was the best option, if i had to bring one of them along. Not that I really minded that much I mean Jin is cool and he is usually pretty laid back so having him "supervise me" tonight shouldn't be that districting to me and the other guys. I thought to myself as I helped Jhope finish cleaning the dishes and put them away.

Then at 10 till 6, Jin and I gathered up the brownies and the other snacks I had made for the guys earlier, as well as my notebook and a pen. Then we made our way out of the dorm together and over to the elevators. The ride up to the boys apartment was silent but comfortable. Jin helped me carry the snacks that I had made for the boys and I. I had baked Brownies, cupcakes, and banana bread, and I also made a fruit salad, and sliced up some fresh vegetables to make a veggie tray, just incase the boys decided to eat healthy. I also brought along some Chex mix and mixed nuts, to share with them. I hoped they had eaten though since all I brought were deserts and snacks. I wanted to bring them some of the pasta we had made tonight, but there wasn't enough left for all the boys and the Got7 guys too. Besides Jin felt that it was unnecessary and was opposed to me bringing them anything that could be considered as a meal, as the guys may get the wrong idea. Because apparently here in Korea when a girl cooks for you, it means that she likes you/loves you, and He did not want my kindness to be mistaken for a confession, and for the night to become awkward for all that were evolved. Which I completely understood, I mean I am still new to South Korea and I am getting used to its different customs. It is definitely very different here then it is in LA. The culture here is so much more traditional, and the rules seem almost rigid. I wondered if I would ever get used to it here. I mean I don't hate it here, or anything, in fact I found the different customs to be fascinating, but I did miss my home... I missed LA. I missed the beach, and the palm trees and the fresh air. I missed the feel of the city, and the vibe that LA had. LA was like a culture all of its own. It was full of Free Thinking Artists, and wannabe actors and musicians, and hard working businessman in fancy suits, and creative people who were just trying to find themselves. It was beautiful there, and the city had its own heart beat. It  was unlike any place I had ever known, and I missed it like crazy. I missed my friends and my boyfriend. I missed my bandmates. I missed my old church and my old school and my old house. But most of all I missed my mom. I missed her so bad that it physically hurt to think about her. I tried not to show it, so that I wouldn't worry Suga and the other boys, but well sometimes I would be hit with a sudden memory of us together and it would literally take my breath away. It would feel like I was being punched in the chest and I would be momentarily dazed. As I tried to force myself to remember how to breathe again. Then I would try to paste on a fake smile, as I tried really hard to shake off the thought/memory. Because I didn't, if I couldn't shake it off then I would start to cry and well since I didn't really want anyone to worry about me, I did my best to pretend that I was alight. But thenat night, once I finished talking/Skyping my boyfriend or catching up with my friends. I would lay in bed wide awake just thinking about her, and remembering all the good times we had together. Because when I was alone in my room, in the dark no one would be able to see my tears anyway. So they wouldn't know I was crying. I know it sounds stupid, but I didn't want to burden them. So I couldn't let them know how hurt I really was, because after all what is the point in us all being miserable....No, it was bettl to hide my sadness from them. I had to protect them at all costs. I mean their job was to make people happy through their music, and well they couldn't really do that if they were all sad and stuff because they were busy worrying about me.
No... I would just have to deal with this one my own... And who knows maybe in time I would be alright. You know they say that time heals all wounds, so I wondered if that could possibly be true in this case. I mean I knew that I could never forget my mother, and that a part of me would always miss her. But I also wondered if maybe there was a way for me to move on one day and be happy again. Of course it's not like I was totally miserable and that I was wallowing in self-pity or anything. Because well thankfully I had my friends by my side who wouldn't allow me to do that. I mean aside from all the support I was receiving from the guys at school, my friends from home would text/call me almost every night, and my boyfriend would call or Skype with me every night too. Then there were the Bangtan Boys, who were honestly the best. They were constantly going out of their way to include me in things and take care of me. They were all so nice... I mean Suga would always be watching me and making sure I was alright. Meanwhile Rapmon would always do his best to translate for me whenever we were all together, so that I wouldn't feel out of the loop and so that I could freely communicate with the boys and my brother. While V, Jhope, and Jimin would do their best to make me laugh, and smile, with their crazy antics and hilarious jokes. They were all really funny and I enjoyed being around them. Meanwhile Jungkook and Jin were more maternal when it came to looking after me. Jin would always want to make sure that I had eaten and that I had what I needed and that was taken care of. While Jungkook was more concerned about my feelings. He always seemed to be the one who was most intuitive about my current state emotionally. I don't think he bought my fake smile for a minute, but he didn't question it either, probably because he didn't seem to want to upset me. So he'd just sat quietly by my side, letting me know that he was there for me if I needed to talk, but that he wasn't going to force me to talk either. He was actually really kind and sweet to me and I really appreciated his support. Sometimes I  wanted to just open up to him and let out everything I was truly feeling and cry it out on his shoulder, but I knew that I couldn'tdo that because it wouldn't be fair to burden him like that. Jungkook was a good guy and I didn't want to be the one responsible for making him sad, or his fans would probably kill me. No honestly it was was better for everyone if I just kept my silence and hid my feelings, at least for awhile. Then later if it turns out that I really needed to talk to someone and I couldn't reach any of my other friends. Then and only then would I talk to them about how I am truly feeling. But not until then, and it's not because I don't trust them or anything because I really do. It's just that I don't want to be a burden to them. I thought to myself quietly.  Anyway as we came to a stop on the 14th floor, I pushed those thoughts aside as the elevator opened up on the right floor and Jin and I got out and made our way out and over to the Got7 boys dorm and knocked. I actually only had time to knock once before the door was thrown open by a very eager BamBam who all but dragged me inside the dorm, much to Jin's dismay. I guess he was not to happy about me being so open minded about skinship. But he kept his mouth shut and followed us in quietly, still carrying the food in I had given him earlier. We both slipped our shoes off and added them to the pile by the door before we made our way all the way into the dorm. Then when we appeared BamBam quickly called for his members attention, so they all lookrd away from the tv and then they all stood up to greet us. They all then bowed to us as a group and did their usual group intro thingy that I was growing accustomed to.