Suga's Sister (Book 1)

Chapter:47

Jade's Pov

I couldn't help but smile to myself as I headed back to the boys dressing room, and when I walked in, I saw that all guys were up, and that they were back in their stylists chairs as their worked to touch up the members makeup.

Rapmon:Hey where have you been? *he asked curiously and I shrugged non committedly*

Jade: just walking around. *I said, trying to sound bored, so he wouldn't be too suspicious *

Rapmon: *he looked over at me and raised his eyebrow at me* around where? *he asked suspiciously*

Jade: just around.. *I said nonchalantly, trying to keep my cool, I mean I wasn't busted yet right * why? what you want like an exact run down? *I asked him in disbelief* Fine... Okay let's see while you guys were sleeping and the other guys were doing a vlive and decided that I needed to pee, so I went looking for the bathrooms that are here in the backstage area, since it's not safe to go out front because of all the fans, only when I finally did find the girls bathroom there was somebody in there, and of course because we are in a restricted area there's only one bathroom. So I had to wait for it to empty, so I can go in, but Because I really needed to go I decided to just pace up and down the hall a bit while I waited till it was free. But as I was walking along, I ran into some of my friends from the rookie group up10tion, and I was invited back to their dressing room to hangout for awhile. So I agreed to meet up with them later, and after I peed, I went to meet them in their dressing room area and we all just sort of hung out for a while. I figured that you guys probably wouldn't mind as you guys were sleeping anyway *I said looking at Jin, Suga, and Rapmon* and they were visiting with the fans. *I said pointing over to Jimin, V, Jungkook, and Jhope, who were just watching the interaction unfold, as I shrugged before sitting down on the couch and pulling out my phone * Besides you know how your management hates it when I appear on your vlive streams. So having me out of the way for a while was in everyones best interest anyway. *i said with a sigh, it was true though their management did like it when I was featured in their videos to often, and well the rest was also true, I did visit the bathroom and see the up10tion guys, sort of... so I wasn't totally lying, just fibbing a little bit in that I'm that I wasn't disclosing everything that I did while I was away to them at this time. I thought to myself uncomfortably as I unlocked my phone and opened up one of the puzzle games that I had on the phone. I felt a little weird lying to the guys right now, but honestly it was a small lie, and it probably wouldn't hurt anything.*

As I began playing the game, I thought back to my earlier discussion with Hwanhee, as I remembered how he wanted to tell the guys about us, but how I had convinced him not to. I mean don't get me wrong, because I definitely felt bad about this. But well it was only temporary, and I was doing it for us anyway. I mean I love my brothers I do, but well judging by the way they freaked out when they first heard about Dylan being my boyfriend, then again when I went to that party with Donghyuk, well I didn't think that they would understand. I could already tell they wouldn't like it, and well while it is true that I didn't want them to lecture me, or say anything mean about him, then there was the other issue too. I mean this World Tour that they had been working their butts off for, well it was a big deal for them. They already had so much pressure being put on them, what with all the preparations they had made, and well they were all so stressed as it is. So why not wait and tell the guys after tour ended. I mean it wasn't like Hwanhee and I would really get to spend a lot of time together before then anyway, considering the fact that I would of course be touring with them. So I mean how much trouble could we really get ourselves into before then, and sure I mean I really like Hwanhee, I do. But I don't know, I guess I am just convinced that waiting to tell them about you know Hwanhee and me really would be in everyone's best interest. *sighs inwardly* I don't know everything thing is just so complicated these days. I mean when my mom was alive, I wouldn't have ever had to do anything like date in secret. We would of talked about it, and I would of been able to tell her about him, about how sweet he was, and what it was like to kiss him, and about how happy he made me. But well I can't do any of that because she is not here... and well I don't think I could ever do any of that with the guys because, well it would just be to cringey. Speaking of cringey, I wondered if Hwanhee had told his members everything yet. Probably... oh god I hope they wouldn't think we were moving too quickly or anything. I mean I don't want them to think I am trying to corrupt him or anything and I certainly didn't want them to think that I was easy. I thought to myself horrified, as I quickly tried to shake that thought off, as I started to play my puzzle game in case the guys were still watching me. I don't want to draw to much attention to myself right now because I was sure I was blushing*