Suga's Sister (Book 1)

Chapter 14

Jade's POV

The next morning I woke up with a headache, feeling extra groggy. I was tired because of my dreamless sleep, and my eyes were still red and puffy and I just felt numb. I instantly remembered the fight Dylan and I had the previous night, and sighed inwardly knowing that I would eventually have to go outside and face the music. I was sure that by now Jin had told the rest of the boys what had happened and I wasn't sure that I was ready to face their awkward questions, or their looks of pity which I was bound to face just yet. But I also knew that I needed to get up anyway, because I had a Korean lesson this morning, and I doubt that the guys would let me slack off just because of what happened last night. Besides the faster I learned to speak Korean, the more I would be able to fit in and make my own friends. Maybe once I made some friends, I would finally feel like I fit in here. I sighed deeply as drug myself out of bed, and slowly made my way over to my desk where all my toiletries were stacked neatly, and grabbed my needed items. I decided to try and shower before my tutoring session  started, so I grabbed my shampoo, condoner, body wash, hair brush, tooth brush, and toothpaste, face wash, and my purple bandana to hang on the door, since it was meant to be used to let the guys know when the bathroom was in use, and who was in there. (purple being my color) I also made sure to grab a spare set of clothes for the day before going out to the hall closet to grab a towel and wash cloth. I then silently made my way to the bathroom to take my shower and get ready for the day. Because it was still early all the guys seemed to still be sleeping, so I didn't want to make a lot of noise. I wasn't in the best mood anyway, since I was still feeling down about last night's fight, so I decided to take a nice long hot shower to help relax me. I took my time in washing my hair, making sure to wash it twice, I also made sure to clean body thoroughly before just standing under the hot water for a few minutes and letting it cleanse me of my worries. (metaphorically speaking of course Because inwardly I was a mess...) my mind was filled with doubt and worry and my heart hurts so much that I thought it would break into a millions pieces, because of all the losses  I have had to fall this week. The latest one being my boyfriend, and I was very scared that I was really gonna lose him, or that I may have already lost him, and I was just so confused that I really didn't know what to say, or think or feel as my mind raced with thoughts each one only adding to the concern and stress, I already felt. I don't really know what happened or how my life had gotten so screwed up in just a few days, and I was sure that I would be crying again any minute, that is if I even had any tears left to cry. This week I had just been like one incredibly long nightmare and I just wanted to wake up. But I couldn't sadly, because unfortunately this was not a nightmare, it was real, and it hit me again that this was my new reality and it was one that I couldn't accept just yet. I mean come on, My world had basically been flipped upside down and nothing was the same anymore, and so even though I was doing my best with the cards that I had been dealt, I was still struggling to accept everything. I just missed my mom a lot, and I missed my friends too. In the past whenever Dylan and I fought they were always there to give me advice, and help us fix things. But this time I was on my own, and I was over 300,000 miles away from him, so I really wasn't sure how we would be able to fix things, and make up. Then to top it all off, I was worried about my upcoming Korean lesson. I really wanted to learn though, so I resolved myself to do my best, but I was a little worried about looking stupid in front of the guys. I really wanted to learn how to speak Korean, and maybe even how to write in Korean so that I could make some new friends here, and get to know my new family better. So I did my best to strengthen my resolve as I finished up my shower, and quickly stepped out of the shower to dry off. After getting dressed in my outfit for the day which consisted of some comfortable cut off jean shorts, that had that stylish worn out look. A large black crop top shirt that said "Morning Blues, Messy Hair, Large Coffee, Back To Bed" across it in white letting, and it was slightly flowy and loose fitting because it was like a size bigger then what I would usually wear. I paired it with a long sleeved red and black flannel plaid patterned button up shirt that I left unbuttoned. I had to roll the sleeves up a bit though since it was like 2 sizes too big. But it was okay cause it felt comfortable, and warm, while still being stylish. After getting dressed I dried my hair and then quickly decide to put it in a simple side ponytail by using the lose fishtail braid method, just to keep the hair out of my face. (see pictures below.)