Suga's Sister (Book 1)

Chapter:50

Jade's Pov:

I quickly made my way back down the hall over to the Wanna One guys dressing room and quickly talked to the guard who then checked my badge as well as his list, and upon seeing my name there he let me pass. So I quickly knocked on the door and waited to be let in. I was grateful that because I had been assigned as an MC for the day my name had been added to every groups list of approved personal, so I would be able to float in and out of the various dressing rooms now without hassle, which would definitely make things easier on me as I had limited time right now. Plus was trying to remain inconspicuous so that none of my brothers or any of my other friends would catch on. Anyway thankfully a few seconds later I was let into the room by Park Woojin who seemed incredibly surprised to see me, but invited me in their dressing room anyway, and upon seeing me everyone's behavior instantly straightened up. As they all greeted me politely, and I awkwardly smiled while politely greeting them in return as I gave them a little bow.*

Jade: uh hey oppas, hey, Jinyoung, Daehwi, and Guanlin. Uh how are you guys today? * I asked kindly without really pausing to hear their answer* uh Sorry for stopping by so early *I quickly apologized* but uh I had some things I needed to discuss with you before your schedule for the today started officially. *I said honestly, getting directly to the point as I immediately zeroed in on Jisung, Sungwoon, Minhyun, Jaehwan, Seongwoo, and Daniel and rushed over to join them, before immediately dropping to my knees before them all as they were sat on the couch and I immediately began to plead with them, while completely ignoring their shocked faces as well as their protests that soon followed.* Oppas please, I come here today to beseech you. I know I look crazy, but I don't care because I am desperate. *I said immediately already ignoring Minhyun's and Jisung's attempts to get me off the floor as I continued to plead with Daniel and Seongwoo.* I know that you guys warned me to be careful with my secret or we would be discovered, and I should of listened to you. *I said honestly while staring into their eyes, before continuing* and I know that when the rest of you guys found out about it last night you promised to keep our secret *i said glancing around at the other guys, while Jihoon, Woojin, Jinyoung, Dawhai, and Guanlin just watched on in confusion as I continued me speech* But I need to make sure that it wasn't just the Alcohol talking... because...*I said sincerely while sniffing slightly, as I quickly hid my face and tried to hold back my tears* Because Hwanhee is really important to me, and I really can't stand that I put his career at risk like this. *I said sincerely, as the tears began to fall* gosh I am so selfish, why did I risk it? Why did I let myself fall for him? I knew better. I knew what was at stake but I didn't care... I even lied to my brother and the guys about it and hid the truth from all them. All because I was to afraid to tell them that I have a boyfriend again. Because I knew that they would disapprove of him after what happened with the last one... and you know I can't really blame them... I mean my ex boyfriend basically ripped out my heart and stomped all over it after having cheated on me with my best friend and well to be honest it nearly destroyed me. I mean was a real mess and the guys... well you know they are sweet, but they are guys, so they didn't know what to do or how to help me feel better. So they just had to watch as I locked myself away from everyone and everything, and basically starved myself for a whole week and a half while I bawled my eyes out. I mean I completely shut down on them. So I can't blame them for being concerned about me now, because well like I said I was a mess. I mean I wouldn't talk to anyone or get out of bed, and because I wouldn't eat or drink anything, I almost ended up in the hospital due to dehydration and being malnourished. So I can understand why they wouldn't want me to risk getting my heart broken again. But Hwanhee... well he is great, he really is and I know that he would never cheat on me... *sighs* he makes me happy, and he respects me and I really like him, because I know that he cares about me, and I care about him too... like ALOT... *I said sincerely as I wiped my eyes before looking back up at them and meeting their eyes* but I... *breathes deeply* I won't let him risk everything to be with me. He and his friends have worked to hard to make a name for themselves, and for their group. So I came here today to see if you guys were really serious about your promise to keep our secret. Because if not then I will have no choice but to end things with him for his own good. For the sake of his career, and for his group members, and for his fans. I will let him go, if I have too, No matter much it hurts me *sniffles* Because I care about him that much... *looks up to meet their eyes again* because I think that I love him... *takes a deep breath* so if you guys really can't keep our secret, I need to know now, so I can end things before it all gets too complicated and he or his friends get hurt... *sighs* But before I do that, and break my own heart again or hurt him. I came here to beg you guys to help us out just this once, Please, Please, Please keep our secret. I know you don't owe us anything, and that you barely know me, and that me even coming to you like this is probably highly inappropriate and extremely embarrassing, but well like I said I am desperate. I love Hwanhee, I really do, he makes me happy, and when I am with him I feel so special, and loved. He makes me feel safe, which is saying a lot because before we got together, I never thought it would be possible for me to be this happy again. I never dreamed that I would feel like this again, like I have finally found my place in this world. When my mom died I thought that was the end, I thought I could never be happy again. But then the boys took me in and I got to know them and I began to feel hopeful again because I had found my second family. But then when Dylan cheated on me, and I lost all my friends, I was devastated again, and even though I tried to stay strong for the guys sake, so I wouldn't worry my brother or his friends, as well as my classmates. It was all an act, and I couldn't keep it up for long. In fact most of the time I was to tired to keep it up for long, but as time went on the hurt began to fade away and I finally started to smile again... and honestly to tell you the truth Hwanhee played a huge part in all that. Because even when I didn't want to, I found myself becoming attracted to to him. I spent hours in class trying to ignore him and bury my feelings or deny that they even existed. But no matter how much I tried to ignore the fact that I had somehow developed a crush on him, or distract myself with other things I couldn't. Maybe that's why I agreed to date him when he asked, or maybe it was how he once again came to my rescue again this weekend and helped comfort me after I had run into my ex this weekend and was upset by seeing him with his new girlfriend who happens to be my ex best friend, whom he apparently knocked up 6 months ago. Which meant that my Ex had clearly been cheating on me way longer than 3 months I have been in Korea... Or maybe it was knowing for certain that the girl I that was my best friend and the one guy I had trusted the most in this whole world had actually been sneaking around behind my back for well over a year, and they didn't even care that doing so hurt me. The whole situation was just so fucked up that I didn't know what to do so I just ran. But Hwanhee he rescued me, he followed me and he took care of me. He was so sweet he let me cry it all out on his shoulder, and held me gently while comforting me. He has always been so sweet to me, and that was not even the first time he comforted me. I think the fact that he is and has always been such a gentleman to me really helped seal the deal, you know. I mean I honestly don't know what it was that made me stop fighting my feelings for him and just let go and let myself be with him. What I do know that this weekend something finally clicked and I realized that avoiding him and ignoring my feelings wasn't going to work anymore. Because I wasn't only hurting myself, but I was hurting him too, and even in doing that I realized that I was being selfish. Because I knew that he liked me too, and had for quite a while, but he was trying to be respectful and give me some time to heal, but all I was doing was using his kindness as an excuse to hide. So I decided to just let go and give us a real shot, and you know what? We are like magic together. Kissing him, hugging him, cuddling with him, visiting with him, smiling with him, laughing with him, talking to him, even just being with him, it's all magical. He makes me so happy, and I know that we are being selfish, that I am being selfish, and I know that his group members deserve way better, because they are all really great friends, and we are putting them in a terrible spot... and yes I know that even now I am being selfish by coming to you like this and putting you guys in that same spot by asking you to please help us out by keeping our secret... *sighs sadly before wiping away another tear* But I am going to have to ask to do so anyway because Hwanhee is that important to me. * looks up at all of them again meeting all of their eyes* He is important enough for me to come to you on my knees like this and beg you for your silence in this matter. So please, please promise me that you will keep our secret. Please Oppa's Promise me now that you are sober enough to remember the promise you made last night, that you will indeed keep our secret and that we can trust you. Please Reassure me that I can rely on you as my oppas as well as my new friends, and trust that you guys will keep the fact that you know about Hwanhee and I's secret relationship and will agree to keep under wraps from everyone especially my brothers. *sighs* I know I have no right to ask this of you, but it is important. Especially since I will be coming by to interview you guys later along with JRE, and Internets Nathan as their fellow MC, and well I know how playful you two are *I said while looking directly at Daniel and Seongwoo* and it is really important that you two don't spill the beans in front of the cameras or give the other two Mc/YouTubers anything to talk about in regards to this matter. Because whether they have proof or not all it takes is a suggestion that Hwanhee might be dating me, for their fans to go crazy, and these guys are big name YouTubers. I mean they are super poplar among the Kpop fans, especially here in America and what they say our think about you, or you music or your group,  can make or break your career over here, and if they were to even suspect Hwanhee and I were anything more then friends it could be very bad for everyone in Up10tion, as well as Hwanhee and me, and I could even effect you guys and my brothers. I mean seriously I once went to a YG party to celebrate one of the blackpink members birthday, with some of my Classmates/friends from Ikon, and was photographed leaving with Donghyuk who as a friend was kind enough to escort me home, and ensure that I got their safely before returning to the party again by himself... and the fallout was nuts. I got so much hate, and both of these guys covered the news of that event on their channels... and so yeah while they are both supportive of idols dating, some of their fans are not, and because of their video coverage on the topic of whether Donghyuk and I were dating. Well let's just say the scandal lasted way longer then it should of... even after we both tweeted out that were just friends, and that he was only being polite by escorting me home and ensuring I arrived safely. I mean it was so crazy that His company even had to issue a statement saying that we were not even at the party together, and that I had been invited by Blackpink and was scheduled to attend the party by myself, but that when my classmates from Ikon heard that I was going they insisted on giving me a ride over to the venue since I was new to South Korea and they didn't want me to get lost, and that once we arrived at the venue we met up with Winner, whose Maknae is another classmate of mine, as well as all the other YG artists and that all sort of hungout in a big group with everybody, which was pretty much true. But my point is Donghyuk and I weren't even dating and the fans made it such a big deal. So what would they do if they find out I actually am dating a real Kpop idol, especially one as cute and poplar as Hwanhee. I mean not only will his fans as well as all of honey10 hate me, but I am pretty sure some of my brothers Fans will hate me as well, because they know that My brothers don't want me to date... and I really can't have Army hating me, when I am about to go on a 6 month world tour with the boys in which I will have to interact with their fans on a daily basis. Plus I am sure some of the ikonics will be annoyed with me as well, Because it will appear like I've chose Hwanhee over their beloved Donghyuk who keep in mind none of them wanted me to date anyway, but I am sure that they will be insulted nonetheless. Plus if you guys were the ones to break the story, your fans may get jealous, because they will assume that if we are close enough friends for you to know the truth about who I am dating then we must be pretty close, which will probably upset them because they won't want me to be so close to their oppas.... oh and don't even get me started on the Carots, and the igot7/Ahgases or whatever who for some reason have started shipping me with Vernon and BamBam even though they are just my friends, and I guarantee you that though neither fandom really wants me to date their oppa, they would definitely feel insulted if they found out that I had chosen Hwanhee over them. Even though it isn't true since like I said we are just friends. But whatever......The point is is that I get enough hate already, just because I am living with Bangtan and because some Army feel like I am using my relationship with my brother to get close to his friends. So I really don't need all the other fandoms hating on me too just because word gets out that I have started dating Hwanhee. Not that I really care about the hate. I mean I get hate tweets all the time, from my BTS anti's, as well as some Army's who don't really understand why it is That I have had to live with my brother ever since my mom died. But whatever I can take the hateful tweets and snide comments, that is not what I am worried about, but well their are some scary fans out there and they do some crazy stuff. I mean the last time I ran into a super fan I ended up with two cracked ribs and a couple of nasty bruises. But really what scares me even more than repeating that experience again is hurting Hwanhee or the rest of my friends in any way. Which is why I am here... so what do you guys say, will you keep our secret? Please... *I finished off sincerely, while giving them my best cute Aegyo/pleading face, and their faces all instantly softened.*

Jisung: of course we will keep your secret.

Minhyun: Hyung is right, you didn't have to do all this, here come on get up here. A good woman should never kneel before a man. *he said pulling me up off the floor and sitting me down on the sofa before quickly sitting beside me and grabbing my hand to pat it comfortingly.* Jade-ah we understand why you are so concerned, but you don't have to worry we get it. Dating in the entertainment industry is hard, and dealing with the fans and the antis can be tough. But you cannot let them get to you, you are too special... and as for you being selfish. Well that is just ridiculous, I look at you, you are the least selfish person I know. I mean even now, you coming to us like this and humbling yourself before us for your boyfriends benefit. It proves how sweet and selfless you really are. *he said kindly* Your boyfriend is incredibly lucky to have you, and I hope that he realizes that. *he said with a knowing smile, and I blushed slightly and looked away quickly, unable to speak because I was to choked up by my happy tears*

Daehwi: yeah I mean I had no idea that you and Hwanhee were even dating, but hey I think it's great, and if you guys are happy, then I say more power to you.

Woojin: yeah I agree, and hey it sounds like you have been through a lot, so it sounds like you could use a break. I know that dealing with the fans, and their random hateful comments can be hard, but you seem like a really strong girl. So I am sure you can get past their judgement and jealousy. Just keep being yourself and keep your head up, because I think you are pretty awesome just as you are Jade. *he said kindly and everyone else agreed and promised to keep our secret. So I quickly thanked them all*
Jade: Thank You all so much. Seriously I can't even begin to tell you how much this means to us.

Minhyun: It's okay Jade really, now. You should probably get going, before anyone notices you are gone.

Jade *glances at the time then quickly jumps up* Oh shoot I was supposed to go meet with those guys 10 minutes ago. *I said panicked, and already rushing to the door.* crap my the boys manager is going to kill me. Sorry I got to run, but thanks again guys! Really! *i said turning to give them one last smile, and a quick bow, before rushing out of the room to go find JRE and Nathan.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (A/N: hey guys so this is the first part of O'Connor day two, the next chapter will probably pick up where we left off though Because this chapter was getting kind of long, and I have noticed recently a lot of people have been complaining about the chapters of it so I'm trying to shorten them by breaking their days off into pieces and sections Even though all these events are happening on the same day. But anyway I hope you like this update I'm really sorry it took so long to get out but I was out of town and then when I got things I had to catch up on homework and then I have been busy with school Activities and church stuff. But Seeing as today is Good Friday and I didn't have school I decided to try and wrap up this update so I can focus on posting the next part this weekend. Anyway I hope you guys like it I know it kind of a lame filler chapter, but I am really trying to finish out the whole K-con weekend thing strong so that I can move on to the next part of the story which is supposed to be the boys Tour. Anyway I still have a lot of really cool stuff coming up for y'all, so I hope that you're keeping up with this book and still reading my updates. Anyway hope everyone is doing well and stay blessed! FYI I totally watched music bank last night and I just got to say I am so happy That Wanna One won 1st Place for the 3 week in a row, Even though I totally loved stray kids debut performance, As well as got 7, MonstaX, and Nct 127's comeback  performances. I think it just that I'm gonna really miss Wanna One when they disband so I want them to get all the attention they can right now, since their time together as a group is almost up... but anyway lots of cool things are happening right now in Kpop... Speaking of which can we just take a second to celebrate that the entire group ( all 10 members) of Up10tion are back and that they are killing this comeback!  I seriously love their new song, Actually I love their whole new album but I just want to talk about candyland right now, because it's killing me in my feels. The night they release the music video I couldn't stop crying, I was so happy. Anyway Pentagon also has a comeback coming up coming up in like 2 days and I cannot wait! But yeah enough fangirling for now! I need to start on the next update, but I will see you guys soon I hope. Have a good weekend😊