If only I was there

Chapter 22

I woke up and Ben left a text. He said he was visiting his father and told me to wait for him at the beach. I walked to my old room. It was still the same. Since I missed the funeral last night, I put on one of Claire's black dress to visit Connor.The dress was flowy so it's fine to wear it on the beach later.

I arrived at his grave. His grave was beside Claire's. I placed his flowers and touched his gravestone. I was starting to tear up.

"Go find her, Connor." With that, I drove to the beach. I waited for Ben.

"Hey." He said as I turned around. He let out his arms and I hugged him. We walked along the beach, enjoying the silence.

"What are you thinking about, Megan?" Ben asked, breaking the silence.

"Would it be any different if I didn't move to New York?"

"If its their time to go, nothing can stop it."

I stood there not knowing what to do.

"So stop blaming yourself. It won't change anything." He said as I was about to talk.

"Thank you." I said as we walked side by side in silence again.

"Besides, if you didn't move to New York I won't have any friend."

I laughed. "Anyway, my friends are so excited about the camping trip."

"Please, tell me about these friends of yours."

"Well, all of them are very dramatic and loud."

The rest of the day was filled with me talking about my friends and Ben listening.

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We drove to his father's house for dinner. His father was a lot like him. He greeted me and let me in. There were a lot of pictures hanging on the wall. A picture of a beautiful woman with auburn hair caught my attention.

"She was beautiful. I loved her with every second of my life." Mr Caster said beside me.

"She fought strong during her living. If only she was here to see you." He said looking at me.

"She would tell Ben to marry you this instance." He laughed with me joining him.

Mr Caster showed me a family picture during dinner. Ben was standing beside a cute little girl with pigtails.

"This must be Alaska." I said, looking at Ben and his father.

"Oh she was adorable."

Mr Caster told me about Alaska and Mrs Caster. He asked me about my family and I told him about Claire and Connor.

"We should head home." Ben said and I nodded. We said our goodbyes to Mr Caster and headed for New York. Mr Caster needed Ben's car so we had to drive my car. I was driving because Ben was too tired arguing with his father about the car. He fell asleep during the ride.