Caught Up (SERIES PT. 3)

Pt. 7

LANA's POV

I woke up from my nap getting 2 good hours in. Wish it was longer because it felt like 30 minutes. It was only 8:39 and it dont even feel like it. I stretched then got up to go to the bathroom. I grabbed my phone from off the dresser and had 3 messages and a missed call. I looked through my messages and Frankie took a selfie with Innocence with Kayden acting a fool as always in the background. I shook my head and under the picture she texted we wish you were here. I got emotional a little bit because I know Frankie has been trying so dam hard and I been shrugging her off a little but. I even lied to her saying nothing was wrong when I know im on edge about my feelings for her. I closed that message and went to the other one, I knew it was from Jay because I recognized his number. He texted I need to see you. Meet me at the pier at 9.

"Seriously?". I texted him back no and a few seconds later he said No is not an option. If you dont come ima blow your phone up until you do. I threw a mini tantrum and hesitated a little because I knew he wasnt playing and I didnt have time for him to be bugging me all night. I told him ok but I wasnt going to stay long, which was true.

I used the bathroom and then changed from out of the clothes I fell asleep in and wore a hoodie and some joggers since it was suppose to be a cold front coming in tonight. After I got dressed I made my way to the pier which I didnt know why he wanted to meet up there for out of all places.

Making this 30 minute drive at the last minute, seemed crazy. I told Frankie I was going over to Des house for a little bit and then texted Des telling her if Frankie ask I was with her no questions asked. I parked the car and I saw Jay at the end staring out at the water. I locked my car door and the sound made him turn around. He put on the biggest smile ever and started to walk towards me. As I was walking something was telling me to turn around, but I ignored it because I made this trip used my gas and it must be that important so I wanted to see what this was about. But I already had a slight clue. He tried to give me a hug but I shrugged him off  because I wasnt at that point yet. And I gave him the wassup look.

"I aint gone bite. Dont be acting like that".

"Seriously. You got to be kidding me right? Whats with this meet up?". I sat down on the bench near the railing, and tried my hardest not to look at him. It was stupid of me to come but I know something telling me to hear him out a bit.

"Like ive been telling you I miss you and I needed to see you".

"For? I mean you see me so what now?". He took a deep breath like he was building up the courage to tell me something. "What?".

"You know the situation that went down has stuck with me? Like its made me off, it made me look at life different, it has made me realize that I might of messed up the best future I could ever have. Like you made your mark on me in so little time and everyday I ask myself how the hell did she do it. Now this isnt to get you back but seeing you at the park just gave me the confidence to make sure that whether you listen or not that im going to tell you how I feel. After the situation I realized my past came back and bit me in my ass really hard. I have anger issues really bad. I fought all the time, use to be disrespectful to my parents and baseball is the one thing that kept me away from doing a lot of things that could have ruined me and I wouldnt be where I am today. Like foreal foreal I wanted to make sure if I was to be with anyone else that I wouldnt let my emotions take over me which is why I went to this anger management course for a while. And not only did it open my eyes, but it opened my mind to everything. Basically what im saying is, from the bottom of my heart I am truly sorry for everything. If I took things out of proportion, hitting you which I did not mean at all, just failing you period. Ima always have love for you that aint going no where and I just want you to forgive me".