Caught Up (SERIES PT. 3)

Pt. 17

LANA'S POV

Its been a few days since I talked Jay and he has been calling and I havent answered. Im so stuck between him and Frankie. I honestly think I made a mistake in letting Frankie come back to the house because im stuck on Jay and everything thats been happening. But I just cant let go of all the time I invested with Frankie and our family. Its like im in between two magnets and im being pulled side to side everyday. I couldnt talk to Des, she dont like Frankie and dam sure dont like Jay. Point blank period im stuck. I turned over in the bed and just watched Frankie sleep. Dam I love this girl. But if I love her so much why am I feeling this way? Why am I debating on who I want to be with? I just stared at Frankie and I guess she felt me looking at her cause she slowly opened her eyes.

"Dam girl, just burn me with your eyes huh". I laughed and shoved her.

"Girl please. Im just ... Thinking".

"Whats on your mind?".

"Think ima go visit my people this weekend. I guess a mini vacation for myself".

"Go ahead and take your vacation. You taking the kids too?".

"Nah just me. If you want I can take them with me".

"Its fine they can stay. Need to spend time with them anyway". I gave her a kiss on the cheek, got up and went to the bathroom. I closed the door and just stared at myself in the mirror. At this point im just going with the flow. But I know its impossible to be in love with two different people. I unlocked my phone and replied to one of Jay's messages when he asked me to go up to New York with him for one he has a game and two its his cousins birthday this weekend. I told him I would come and he instantly texted me back the kissing emoji. I put my phone back down and stared at myself again. Having Frankie here is a mistake only because I know physically im not here, the only thinking thats keeping me from really seperating us is the kids especially Innocence. That girl loves Frankie and im in a tight space on whether or not I should tell her to leave or not. I walked out the bathroom and laid back in the bed. Once I did Frankie put her arm around me and I melted. I couldnt stand it but I loved it at the same time. But then I had to realize this isnt right.

"I think we need space from each other". Frankie didnt say anything and her arm remained around me. "We both need it because right now, we are far from ok".

"Come on babe. You seriously going to do this now?".

"Look, im not gone be here and pretend that we ok when clearly were not. You know I love you but I got my own issues I need to handle and you being here isnt going to help. Now I can help you look for a place until all this gets straightened out but like I said we are far from ok at this point". Frankie turned over so she was laying on her back. I do feel bad a little but then again its something that needs to be done at this point. I didnt lie when I said I loved her cause I do. But there are somethings Frankie need to realize on her own.

"So what we breaking up now?".

"Breaking up seems so harsh. Were .... just on a break". She shook her head and mumble I guess. Frankie got up and went into the bathroom closing the door. I knew she was going to be upset but this shit is life. We cant be walking around like we all happy and shit because im not with that life. I just got dressed and went over to Des house. I needed to be anywhere but here at this moment.

"Girl ... What is you doing over here? Its 3 in the freaking morning. Wait let me guess, you and Frankie huh?". I just rolled my eyes and walked into the den. Even though she knew it was about her, I didnt want Frankie to be the topic of discussion right now. "So what happened? Do I need to call Miah and Don?".