Caught Up (SERIES PT. 3)

Pt. 9

LANA'S POV

We got through the wedding and it was so beautiful. I had tears in my eyes of course because its one thing for Andrea to be in love but hearing Krystal say her vows had my heart melting. Im just so happy for them that I want them to get through everything that comes their way. My feet started hurting from all the dancing we were doing so I told Frankie and Des I was going to sit down for a minute, Frankie said she was gone chill for a minute too so she came over to the table with me.

"Ion think I said this yet but you are looking so dam yummy in that tux".

"And you are looking so dam sexy in that dress". Frankie licked her lips and I shoved her. She gave me those I want you eyes and I was not gone play with her today. "But foreal its rare to see you get all dressed up like this".

"I know, we really never had a reason to. This might sound so crazy to you, but all this got me wanting to get married like I feel like im ready for it all". She sat back in her chair and paused. I honestly did not know what that meant but it did make me feel some type of way.

"You think were ready for this? Like we gotta get ourselves right first before we make a huge step like this. I mean yeah we been good the past few days but you know being married and just being together are two completly different things".

"What you scared or something?". She shook her head and started acting like what im saying was bothering her. "Speak up Frankie. I mean we been together for this long and just because we havent been right for a while thats gone change your look on marrying me? Were you even planning on marrying me at all?".

"Of course! There is no doubt in my mind. I just dont want us to be 65 years old and miserable. I want us to be set. I want us to be on the same page and look, were not. You gotta have all your ducks in a row, you cant just say oh I love you so ima marry you. No, its a process. Yeah we get married ok ima put this ring on your finger, but what about our relationship period. We need to fix what needs to be fixed now and then worry about all of this".

I cut my eyes at her and folded my arms. She was kind of right but at the same time we are fine. We've been togther for almost 10 years and still everything is the same which is why I asked her about marrying me. I dont just wanna be someone's girlfriend all my life like that aint the business and im not going for it. Now im not saying im giving Frankie a timeframe but im ready and I want her to be as well. But like she said we gotta be on the same page. She grabbed my hands and told me to stop worrying about his whole wedding thing because our time will come. She better not be sweet talking me cause I was so ready to fuck her up in front of everybody. She asked me to give her a kiss and I did then asked me to dance with her. She is too movie like for me but I love her peanut head ass even though she trying to ease her way out the conversation. But ima let it pass because I was having a good time and I didnt wanna spend the rest of the night arguing when I could be having fun with baby.

FEW DAYS LATER..

Jay has been blowing up my phone with all types of messages, sending me things at work and im just like what the fuck is he doing. I shouldnt have given him the satisfaction at all but listening to my mind and not my heart got me in this postition. There were times when I wanted to text him back becasue I really wanted to like I actually had the urge to talk to him. But then I had to catch myself and realize what I would be doing. I dont know, its all messed up. COMPLETELY messed up. I dropped Kayden off to school and then made some grocery runs before dropping Innocence off to day care. I had the day off and I just wanted to relax, eat my fruits, watch a little bit of netflix and enjoy the comfort of my own home. I dropped Innocence off and headed back home when my phone started ringing and of course it was Jay. I pressed decline and when he started calling again, I got this very weird feeling in my body. But it was more of a butterfly feeling and I started grinning. I instantly hit decline and got myself together, like taking deep breaths and trying to remove whatever I was feeling out the way. These last few weeks things have been changing. As far as the whole Jay situation. In the beginning I could not stand to look at his face or hear his voice period. But now I actually wanna talk to him which is so fucking terrifying for billions of reasons. He started calling again and I couldnt help but answer so I did.