In the end

Chapter 26 - Confession

~ Jensen POV ~ Thurs. Nov. 5th

I was sitting in my trailer waiting for Jared and Misha to get here so we could start shooting. I was running through my lines for today's scenes when I let my eyes wander to the mirror by the door. I stupidly had left a picture of Catherine taped to the mirror pretending that if I kept it around we wouldn't actually be broken up. I was turning into a sad and pathetic hunk of denial. I couldn't  do this anymore, sitting around wallowing in self pity certainly was help me get over her. Which is pretty much what I've been doing for 3 months now. Even Jared didn't know how messed up I was, and I told him everything. Truthfully I was embarrassed to admit it. I got up and walked over to the mirror taking her picture down. There was no point to keep it anymore, she'd made her choice. And it wasn't me.

I heard a rap on the door before Jared poked his head in. I could immediately tell something was off by then look he had. Until he saw what I was holding and his face fell. "You alright Jay?" I looked down at her picture for a minute before I threw it in the paper bin by the table.  "Yeah. I'm good. Something I should've done a long time ago." He got that pensive/concern face he got when was he worried about me. "Dude, I'm ok. I swear. Just um... Closing the book ya know." I could tell he didn't really believe me but I meant it. No more pining Jay, new start. Starting now. He could tell my smile was genuine having known me for so long and visibly relaxed back into happy  Jared. "What about you man, I don't remember that last time I seen you like this. It's the girl isn't it." His face broke open in the hyena grin and I knew I was right. "She's... Amazing. I can't even- just everything about her is so- Amazing." He looked like a 5 year old that was just given 12 puppies. "So I'm guessing that she's  amazing. Dude, you sound like your in lo-Holy shit. You're falling for her. Hard, by the looks of it." I saw the flush start to creep up his neck but he didn't try to hide it, not ashamed in the least. "Honestly I've never felt like this before, not even with Sandy." "Wow. Seriously? Dude it's been like a week." He kept pushing his hair back like he did when he was really excited about something. He sank into the closest chair and started laughing to himself. A bit insanely too which made me start. Jared's always had this infectious spirit about him, you couldn't help but be happy around him because he just exuded this energy. I'd be hard pressed to find a better guy to spend 14 hours a day with.

"I'm happy for you Jare, you really deserve it after all the crap you're dealing with man." I couldn't help but feel a little jealous though, as happy as I was for him I couldn't stop myself from wondering if I'd ever get there too. "Actually, what are you doing this weekend, I was thinking of having a few people over. Last BBQ before it snows right. Invite all the guys, steaks and beer." I couldn't think of a better way to spend a day. "Sounds good to me." "And Bree has a friend that's a self confessed 'Dean girl'." Oh great, I'm pathetic enough now that I need to be set up. "I dunno Jare. I mean have you met her?" "No but I've seen pictures. She's super hot. And blonde." Hmm. "Whatever dude. If she turns out to be a psycho fan I'm blaming you." He just laughed and we headed outside to find Misha.

~ Bree POV ~

This was starting to get out of hand. Except to shower and pee I hadn't really moved from the couch since about 10 o'clock the night before. I was even eating all my meals on the couch now. I tried to tell myself that it was all Jared's fault. Stupid, gracious, awe inspiring, godlike man. I also had to force Jared not to tell me what anything that happens no matter how much I begged and pleaded for spoilers. It seemed that I didn't handle mysteries all that well.

He sent me a text later on asking if I wanted to go to his place on Saturday for a BBQ. He said he was having a bunch of people over and that I should invite Jules to come too. I could almost hear her screaming from here. I would love nothing more to have my best friend be there with me. The question was would she be freaking out the whole time like a starstruck teenager. She has always been so level headed an confidant in herself but when it came to this show it seemed to go right out the window. I texted her to see what she was up to and she was still at work so I decided to pop in. Better to ask her in person.

I swear I would never get over how awesome Jules was. She went to college to be a teacher but after she graduated she decided it wasn't what she wanted to do. So she started a business. A cute little shop filled with locally designed and made items. Everything from clothes and candles to bath products, even handmade teas and makeup. It always smelled amazing and it always felt homey. Instead of chimes she had the door sensor hooked up to the computer so whenever it opened it sent a buzz the cellphone on her hip. Pretty cool if you ask me. She was sitting behind the counter making jewelry when I entered. "Hey B." "Hey." She handed me a coffee and I flopped down on the couch across from her. Which was the coolest thing ever. She had cut the side out of one of those old claw bathtubs, painted it a minty green and lined it with homemade pillows.

"I'm really glad your here, I just got in the cutest stuff, you're gonna love it." A major perk of having a best friend owning a store is getting first pick at the new clothes. "I actually came to ask slash tell you something. But you have to promise me you're not gonna lose it." She smoothed her hair back and took a dramatic deep breath. "Ok. Lay it on me." There was pretty much no special way to word to avoid a freak out. "Jared invited me to his place on Saturday for a BBQ... And he invited you too." She took another breath and nodded nonchalantly. "That's cool. Who else is gonna be there?" Here it comes. "He said it was gonna be 'the guys'... Which means um... Jensen." To my total surprise instead of screaming and crying she actually got really quiet. It kinda scared me, I've never see her react like this before. Then I noticed that her hands were shaking. I jumped up and went behind the counter to hug her. "Omg J. Are you ok." "No it's cool. I'm fine. Just the thought of being- No. Ok I'm cool. He's just a person right. A so inhumanly sexy-I'm-not-sure-he's-actually-real-person, but still just a person." I half laughed half sighed. "Trust me babe. I know exactly how you feel."