Justin's POV
I had no idea how to tell her, but I knew I had to. It was killing me to have her so close, yet I've never felt more further away from her.
I had to put an end to this. I needed her back in my life. God I missed her more than anything.
She wouldn't even let me explain, if she did she would understand. So I just decide to make her listen.
"I WENT TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL" I yell out to her. This better work.
Tilda instantly stops walking and she turns back around to me. I take this opportunity and I run over to her side.
I can't see her face, but her soft sniffles tell me she's crying. I hate seeing her like this, all I want to do is hold her and tell her that everything will be alright.
"I went to a metal hospital" I whisper again and she sobs more. That's all it takes, my heart aches and I reach my arms out for her. I grab her softly and pull her into my chest.
She accepts, she accepts me. She wraps her thin arms around my waist and buries her face in my shirt. I breath in deeply, trying to fight off the threatening tears.
She smells the same, of the ocean. I close my eyes and lean my head down placing a soft kiss to the top of her head.
I hold her tightly as she continues to sob. I life my gaze from Tilda to the others who are watching us from a distance.
I don't hear what Kai says to them, but they all nod and walk inside. I'm thankful for Kai. My first impression was to hate him since he's close to Tilda, but after a talk last night I have nothing but respect for him.
After Tilda yelled at my yesterday I went straight back outside and to the beach without realising that Kai had followed me. I wanted to punch him, but I didn't. Instead I told him everything. He gave useful advice which lead me to finally telling Tilda the reason I left.
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I feel Tilda breathing slowly go back to normal and her sniffles soon stop, but I don't want to let go. She pulls away quickly and whips her eyes.
"Sorry" she says softly whilst kicking her feet around in the sand. Is she's embarrassed?
"Hey" I say softly, "it's fine, don't apologise" I say and take a seat on the cold sand. I pat the spot next to me and she sit down beside me.
"Will you tell me everything?" She speaks up softy after a couple minutes of silence. I take a deep breath in. It's finally time to tell her.
"The night before I left I cut myself" Tilda gasps and places my hand in hers. I close my eyes and squeeze her hand slightly before continuing. "It was my wake up call. We had that stupid argument and I cut myself. It only took me self harm to realise I needed help. So I packed my things and took the twins and Natalie to some distant relatives."
"What did Natalie say?" she whispers and I look down at her. The moon reflects off her skin and I can see her puffy eyes staring into mine.
"I didn't tell her, I couldn't. I made up some lie about having some issues with dad to sought out and I left. I googled mental hospital's in the city and I went. They helped me Tilds. I had depression, but I'm okay now" I tell her quietly. "They really helped me and I'm happy again, well sought of. I am now that you're talking to me again. I know I hurt you, but I couldn't bring myself to say goodbye to you. I had to go. I wasn't good enough for you and I wasn't happy. It was hard without you and my friends, but I met a girl, Julia. She had depression too and we got along really quickly. Julia and her boyfriend Jackson are looking after Natalie and the boys whilst I'm here. I just wanted to say that I'm sorry I didn't contact you" I sigh as I finish. There, I've told her everything. I surprisingly feel good, like the weight has lifted from my shoulders.
