Matilda's POV
I didn't get much sleep. I couldn't stop think about how Will betrayed me, and with Ella of all people.
Everything was falling apart again. My relationship with Will is non-existing and my friendship with Justin ruined because of it.
It feels like when Justin left all over again, but even worse. To have Justin so close, but completely out of reach is like a smack to the face.
"Tilds," I hear Vicky's soft, soothing enters my ears, I quickly wipe the fresh tear off my face.
"Yeah," I manage to get out, without completely breaking down. I look up to see Vicky sitting in her bed watching me.
"I heard about today," she says and I nod. Vicky slides out of her bed, making her way over to me. "Are you okay?" She says, taking my hands in hers as I shake my head.
"I've lost them both Vick, I'm such an idiot," I mumble.
"Hey, don't say that. You're far from an idiot," Vicky reassures me, wrapping her arms around me. "You're amazing and those two boys are stupid for hurting you."
"Thanks Vicky, what did I ever do to deserve you."
"Come on now, let's get some sleep," she says making me move over to make room for her.
With Vicky lying beside me, I feel warm again and finally fall into much needed sleep.
I wake early the next morning. The dusk light shinning through our bedroom window. I quickly get changed and make my way down to the beach.
My body's itching with nerves just thinking about the conversation that will be taking place with Will in a few hours, but I take it out on the water.
I surf like I did the day of the comp that provided me the place here at the academy.
I come to the conclusion that I perform better under the influence of misery and anger.
Hours later, Will finally arrives, knocking on the door of the academy. I give Vicky a last hug and walk out the door.
Will and I venture to the beach, taking a seat on the dunes. I sit, staring out to sea.
Today's a miserable Autumn day. The sky is overcast and dark clouds line the horizon. The deep grey water churns and crashes with fierce force.
"Why did you do it?" I finally ask, breaking the suspending silence.
"I'll explain everything, just let me explain, okay?" Will asks and I nod. "That day back at Pearl Beach when we first kissed, I knew it wasn't serious. Even if you haven't realised yourself, I know you're in love with him. I knew this since the start. You're in love with him and we shouldn't have gotten together in the first place, but I wanted to help you move on. Even then our relationship still felt like friends. As for Ella, our families have been friends forever and it kind of just happened. I know you don't think much of her, but she isn't so bad deep down."
"You're saying our whole relationship was some plan of yours?" I ask.
"Tilds, you know I care about you. You're like my sister. You and I both know were weren't meant to be lovers," he tells me.
"Your right," I sigh. When I was with Will, I never felt like I do when I'm with Justin. "I'm sorry for yesterday. You should have told me all this sooner."
"I was waiting to do it in person. I knew if it was over the phone you wouldn't let me explain. I was planing to tell you today, but we ran into each other sooner than I was hoping," he chuckles, a smile forming on my face.
"You know," I say, "I just found out you were cheating on me, but you still put a smile to my face."
"My charms are too hard to resist," he pipes up.
"I don't think so William," I smirk as he pouts at me.
I stand to my feet, dusting the sand away and pulling Will up beside me. Turning towards the academy to see Justin using the punching bag.
I feel like the one he's punching, not the bag. I can't believe the words he said to me last night. My heart feels like it's splitting into tiny pieces.
My eyes are glued to him. I don't even notice the tears running freely down my face until they reach my mouth.
"It's okay, go fix things with him," Will says, nodding in Justin's direction. I quickly pull Will into a last hug.
"I'm lucky to have a friend like you," I tell him as I pull away.
"Of course you are, I'm awesome!" He grins and I roll my eyes, turning my back to him and making my way towards Justin.
My heart is thumping in my chest as I near him. I have no idea what to say. I don't want his rejection again. It hurt too much the first time.
"Can we please talk?" I ask from behind him.
"There's nothing to talk about," he snaps and I have to forced back the threatening tears.
"You know there is," I urge him. "Please can we just talk?" I beg him, not bothering to hide my desperation.
Justin stops hitting the punching bag and throws his gloves to the ground.
"Talk then," he snaps, making me flinch in fear. This isn't the Justin I know. This Justin is violent and dangerous. This Justin scares me.
"About yesterday.." I begin, struggling to find the right words. "I never meant for you to find out like this, I.."
"Were you ever going to tell me?" He demands harshly.
"Yes, Justin I was!" I fire back, anger and annoyance flowing in my blood. "It's not even a big deal!"
"It's a big deal to me!" He says, his chocolate eyes piercing into my mine.
"That's what I don't understand! Why are you making it such a big deal?" He was starting to piss me off. It didn't make sense. Why is is acting like this?
"Because I'm in love with you!" Justin hells. My blue eyes widen in surprise, my heart freezing.
"W-what?" I stutter quietly, not positive that I'm hearing things properly, or if it's just my mind playing evil tricks on me.
"Is it that hard to believe? I'm in love with you Matilda," he repeats, my heart suddenly drumming into over drive.
My heart's racing faster than it ever has before and I can feel the butterflies going into a frenzy inside my stomach.
I'm shocked. I probably look like incredibly stupid awkwardly standing, staring at him, but I'm unable to speak. I keep opening my mouth, but no words leave.
"That's why I'm making a huge deal," he whispers, taking a few steps closer to me. "You're this perfect girl who constantly makes me smile and laugh, you're bubbly and fun to be around, you make my heart race at a unhealthy speed, you're intelligent, you're one hell of a surfer, you're always here for me, you're my best friend and I can't help but have the feeling for you. When I found out you belonged to someone else, that you weren't mine to fight for, it hurt Tilda. You were slipped out of reach and I couldn't stand the thought of you being with someone else."
When he finishes talking, I let out a deep breath that I never knew I was holding. I gulp down air, trying to get my breathing back to normal.
I force my brain to make my legs move. I move closer to him, until I stand right before him. I look into his brown eyes and watch them soften just looking at me.
I do it quickly. Without thinking. Without hesitation. I fling my arms around his neck and bring my lips to his.
A/N sorry for ending it like this!
:) xx
