Broken Hearts (Completed)

Chapter 40

Naguluhan ako sa sinabi nya. "Ron...?" What is he saying? Nagbibiro ba sya? Ngayon pa?

"Sorry. I know everything's too much for you now."

"You think?" I said sarcastically.

"I just want you to know that you have that option," sabi nya.

"Talaga? After everything? Thank you ha," sarcastic ko ulit na sabi anger brewing in me.

"Don't get mad at me," sabi nya.

"Don't get mad at you? You're the reason why all this happened!" sigaw ko sa kanya completely pulling away from him.

"Ako? Ako ang dahilan kung bakit may nabuntis yang boyfriend mo?" nasasaktan nyang tanong.

Natingnan ko sya ng matalim. I couldn't believe him. Nasampal ko sya.

He held the side of his face na nasampal. "I guess I deserved that," sabi nya.

"You did. For using me, for hurting me, sa pag-iwan mo sa'kin sa ere ng paulit-ulit! Pinilit kong kalimutan yun lahat para maging maayos ako dahil anong sinabi ng mga ginawa mo sa'kin? That I didn't deserve love, na hindi para sa'kin yun, that it was all a fantasy. Pinaikot mo 'ko at ako na tanga nga, naniwala."

"Umiiyak ka pa ba dahil kay Chris o dahil sa'kin?" tanong nya.

"Umiiyak ako kasi nalulungkot ako. Not everything is about you Ron," I said with dignity.

Hinayaan nya 'kong kumalma hanggang sa natigil na 'ko sa pag-iyak.

"Chloe can I just be honest with you?"

I looked at him. I sighed. "What?"

"I was wrong, I was stupid and I made a million mistakes. I couldn't help it, I was weak, tao lang ako. I knew you were wounded but I was selfish..." simula nya trying to hold my hand pero tinatanggal ko yun sa kanya.

Sinusukat ko ang mga sinasabi nya.

"...I knew that I hurt you so much kasi alam ko yung pakiramdam ng nasasaktan. Hindi ko hihilingin sa'yo na maintindihan lahat ng napagdaanan ko kasi akin yun eh, pero my heart was broken and I didn't know how to fix it..."

"So you used me-" paratang ko.

"Yes I used you, if you want to put it that way, yes I did. I didn't know what to do. I was wallowing in pain. For years sya lang yung mahal ko. When I met you, you were a breath of fresh air. I believed. I made us a reality. It worked pero natakot ako, baka kasi it's all on the surface. And a miracle happened, no scratch that, true love happened Chloe, ikaw na lang ang laging nasa isip ko."

"Bull sh1t Ron!" sigaw ko.

"I don't care if you believe me or not but let me say this. Unti-unti na 'kong ngumiti, unti-unti na 'kong nagkabuhay kasi I had left the shackles of my other love and found you, na sa wakas nangyari na yung akala kong imposible noon. But I realized I had done too much to hurt you but I will fight for this and you cannot stop me."

"Leave Ron," mataman kong sinabi.

Bumuntung-hininga sya. "Do you really want me to go?"

"I want to be alone," bulong ko.

"Pwede bang maging matigas ang ulo ko at yakapin lang kita dito kahit hindi mo 'ko kinakausap?" tanong nya.

Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko na alam. Masyadong maraming nangyayari. Hindi ko na kaya... "Ron kasi..." Bumigay ulit ako sa iyak.