Broken Hearts (Completed)

Chapter 9

Saan ako pupunta?

My heart was crushed. I was wallowing in self-pity and my heart was, I really felt, literally broken. Mukhang mas nasasaktan ako ngayon compared sa pain na naramdaman ko kay Adrien. To compare and to have felt two different heartaches is the saddest thing there is, it has to be 'cause it feels it.

Where can I drink at 1230pm?

I went to a rooftop bar in Makati that I really had been avoiding. Parati ako dun noon, nung walang kadiredireksyon ang buhay 'ko. Walang mabuting dulot ang pagbalik ko dun pero I needed a familiar fun place where I could drown my sorrows. It was actually an achievement for me to have ceased going there. Alam kong kahit ganitong oras may tao don lalo na yung mga taong walang magawa.

"Chloe!" someone called when I came in. "Nagbalik ka!"

In my drunkenness in my own pain, hindi ko na yun pinansin. I went straight to the bar. "Scotch," I ordered.

"Chlo!" another shouted.

Binigyan ako ng scotch, on the rocks, just like Julio, the bartender, knew I liked.

"Chlo! You're back! Ang tagal mong nawala ah."

Hindi ko pa rin pinansin ang papansin. I had not even looked at his face. I knew it was Terrence, lazy Terrence, who couldn't even say E after Chlo, to properly say my name. I had told him I don't like being called Chlo. Of couse, he doesn't pay attention. He had been a lay several unfortunate times. We had been strangers with benefits.

"Ignoring me now? Ngayon pa eh iniwan ka na ni Ade diba? That Frenchnoy nice guy... sabi ko sa'yo nice guys won't cut it for you," he said parang langaw, hovering around me.

I still ignored him. Naramdaman ko na ang inis nya. I just drank my scotch.

"I don't believe this Chlo. You want alone time? Eh ba't dito ka nagpunta? Dapat sa bahay mo, hindi dito. You're here because you wanted to be seen, you wanted to be caressed, diba? Kaya ka nandito? Missed me?" He kissed my neck.

I didn't move. I just let him kiss me. Tumulo ang luha ko.

"Fvck!" he said when he noticed my tears. "What are you on? Hindi ka na good time Chlo. What happened?" Lumayo sya like I was the plague.

"Oist, you left Janina there," tawag sa kanya ni Chris.

"Oh yeah!" Terrence remembered and left.

Chris... Natawa ako. Oo nga pala... Buhay nga naman o. Muntik pa 'kong mabilaukan sa scotch na iniinom sa naging tawa ko na ring reaksyon.

"So I'm funny Chloe? May nakakatawa ba sa mukha ko?" tanong ni Christopher Martin Estanislao who is Jacques 'Jake' Marlon Estanislao's younger brother. Si Chris ang magiging bayaw ni Aileen na ex ni Ron.

"When I saw you, you reminded me of a lot of people I was trying to drown with scotch," sabi ko raising my glass of poison to him.

"Wow, a lot?" Tumabi sya sa'kin ng stool. He ordered himself the same.

"That's how you're special," iling ko pouting.

"Really? Who?" he asked interested.

"Your brother-" simula ko na hindi nya pinatapos.

"Nooo," iling nya. "Please not my brother. Did he fvck you too at umiiyak ka dahil ikakasal na sya?"

Natawa ako. He had no idea.

"I wish Chris!" iling ko.

"This is getting old. Girls ogling Estanislaos," pagyayabang nya.

"Estanislaos? Walang may gusto sa kahit sinong Estanislao dito Chris," naguguluhang sabi ko stating it straight to him.