Dementophobia • tyler joseph •

blurryface // entry

June 11th, 2013

He was very intriguing with his messy brown hair and his chocolate eyes.

He seemed quite normal to me, but I knew looks on the outside could be deceiving. He was in here for a reason and that reason was because he was sick, like me.

The only main difference between us was that I was probably never going to get better.

Tyler Joseph. A very common name, but I liked it. I liked it a lot. I just didn't know how I felt about him yet.

I found him quite interesting and I didn't understand why exactly. In the support group, he explained that he didn't like himself as a person. He refused to go any deeper than that no matter how many times Mrs. Eva asked him.

I didn't like myself as a person either. Nobody did. That was the reason why I was here.

I have been here for two years and I really didn't have any friends. I've made friends with my roommates, but most of them graduated from here in a few months and we never tried to stay in contact. I was the type of person that didn't like making friends, but somehow managed to.

Hope and Tanner were still in my friends, but it wasn't like I could see them on a daily basis.

I wanted someone to talk to and maybe Tyler could be that someone. He seemed friendly enough and I think he's lonely too based on the few times I have seen him.

The only person he hung out with was the red-haired boy named Pete, who, I think, was his roommate. He was very quiet in the support group as well. Usually when it was somebody's first time in the support group, they tried to socialize. They tried to make friends, but Tyler just stayed quiet and observed the people around him most of the time.

To me, he was just very different than all the rest of the people in this place. It wasn't a bad different, but I didn't know if it was a good different yet or not. I would have to get to know him and that's the main problem.

Socializing was hard for me, especially when it was with someone of the opposite gender. Tanner was only my friend because he was my brother's friend first.

I didn't know what to do. I guess I would have to wait for Tyler to approach me.

Courtney Akehurst, entry number I lost count after entry ten.
Written on June 11th, 2013 at 3:35 pm in pen.

A/N: Thank you to one of my best friends in real life, grapholagnia, for making the amazing new cover! Please check out her Dan and Phil fanfics if you like them because trust me, her writing is amazing.