Princess?

Chapter 36

Camilla's P. O. V.

"It's so beautiful out. "

Julian and I stop riding and get off our horses to take a break.

Julian smiles, "Yes. It is. I'm surprised Louis didn't want to be with you today. You guys did just get married yesterday. "

I laugh, "Trust me, I know. But I'm not surprised. He made plenty of time for me until these past couple months. All he's done is work work work. I doubt he even notices I'm gone from the castle. "

Julian sighs and pulls me into a hug, warming me up, "Well that's his loss. But I'm okay with it. That just means I get more time with you. "

I smile and tilt my head up, pecking his lips gently. I pull away from him and grab some snow, throwing a snowball at him.

He looks at me in surprise then throws some at me. I laugh and run into his arms. Julian picks me up and spins me around, kissing me.

He pulls away and sighs, "I'm going to need to court someone soon. Even if your friend and I pretend, I need to attend parties and things with her. I need to be seen with her, more than I'm seen with you. I need to do that quickly. That's the sole purpose that Louis invited me here. "

I groan, "I know. I'm not looking forward to seeing you look happy and be affectionate with another woman. "

Julian gives me a look and I laugh, "I know. You had to watch me have sex with Louis. So I'll suck it up and deal with it. "

Julian shakes his head, "I can't get those images out of my mind. You kissing him. He loves you a lot, ya know. He may have a funny way of showing it. But he would die for you. I could tell that last night. He truly loves you. "

I bite my lip, "You're making me feel guilty for cheating on him. Is that what you're trying to do?"

Julian takes my gloved hands in his, "I'm so happy to be with you. But I'm trying to get you to realize what you have already. I'm not trying to get you to leave me. Believe me, that's the last thing I want to happen. My heart aches when I think of being without you. But I just want you to understand what you're risking for me. You're life, Camilla. You're risking your life. "

I nod, "I know that. And the fact that I'm willing to risk my life for you, should show you how much I care for you,"

I'm quiet before adding, "Julian, I love you. "

Julian looks at me in surprise then grins, kissing me passionately, "And I love you. Cmon, we should get back to the castle before someone notices your absence. "

I nod as Julian and I get on our horses and ride back to the castle, arriving at the stables at slightly different times so it looks normal.